A Pact of Lies

I’ve seemed to stumble into a place where everyone tells lies to me. Those I love, those I am of service to, those I call family, my society, my government, my country, my species, and even myself. If that is not a hard concept to grasp, or even handle, I don’t know what is. We are all living in a place where it is rewarded to lie, but the moment you are caught, you pay colossal penalties. Not only does it feel like everyone is against everyone, we have decided that, as a whole, “all for one” was the best way to achieve greatness; unknowingly did we just put our own species into a evolutionary stunting circle in the long run, we have destroyed, killed, maimed, manipulated, and twisted the likes of our kind across the world and expanding this idealism of hate and individual greatness at the expense of others into god knows how many generations to come.

And yet all the while as our species as a whole is coming crashing down and shaking each and every one of our foundations (since we are all connected), those of us on this site and millions of others lie to ourselves that we are not good enough. We feed ourselves these harsh and painful blows that can make even the toughest and thickest skinned man cripple to his knees. I first-hand am a victim of my own lies and hurtful ways. But it’s high time I start changing those approaches and silencing those voices. This is my statement not only to you, but to me as well; I am better than all of the lies I aim at tearing myself down. I am stronger and more compassionate than those voices could ever begin to imagine. I am a person that, in my few moments of saneness and contentness, chooses to fight to be here everyday.

If you have gotten to the bottom of this, thank you. Reading the words I write to the vastness of the internet now falls on your screen and you have chosen to wade through my bullshit. I hope that whatever you are doing, wherever you are, whomever you are, and why ever you have decided to finish this long promise to myself, that you are okay. If you are happy, I am grateful you feel that way; if you are sad, please take the last energy you have to care for yourself. I love you very dearly and hope only the best comes your way. If there is anything I can do for you or any one of you, please don’t hesitate to comment. It would be no burden on my shoulders, for it helps humans overcome traumatic events if there is someone there who can even remotely understand their pain. I love and care for you. I hope you are having a fantastic night <3