Hello. I have less than 1 week left in school. I can’t seem to stay still. Going to a place full of people like school is agony. I hate it. I got to get away. I can’t stay still. Every time I look around, I see people having a great time and spending it with others. I understand that I am alone. I just don’t want to show up to a place where it constantly reminds me. This restlessness has extended at home as well. Even in my room I can’t sit still. I want out. It’s driving me insane. Like I need to be somewhere, but I just don’t know where. Somewhere far from here. I hate how they stare. They rarely do it, but when they do, it’s always in disgust. I don’t want to be here anymore. I want out. Where can I go? Thank you for listening.
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I have the same dichotomy myself.
I resent being alone, yet it irritates me to be in a crowd of people.
And to see people together, enjoying one another’s company, really happy and loved….
Ouch.
I understand.
The other day I realized that when I see married couples holding hands, it makes me cry. They have something I will never get to have.