Comment the country you are living . Im curious to see if anyone from my country is in this site and also all the different people that visit this site
Im feeling really fucking low right now and trying not to self destruct. Refer to my previous post for details. My trip to this country is beginning to look like it was a pointless waste of time and money, and is leaving me feeling worse than ever instead of being my salvation. How do i not just say fuck it and fall into old destructive habits. If it werent for my girlfriend and all the people who have faith in me id already be there. I just want to cry and simultaneosly(sp) hit something.
My soul is tired. Ive done so well and made so much progress only to be let down by those who helped me and those I trust most. Im not putting too much faith in those people. I traveled across the continent to do another round of treatment that helped me take back by life and become entirely independant in less than 6 months.
I had never been happier and more fullfilled. Now the depression is coming back so i quit my job, spent everything i had to come back, and even after arranging another treatment, here i am, and where are they? Ignoring me. […]
Just a few hours ago, after bottling everything up for months, I walked out of my apartment and went downtown, looking for a building to leap from.
The cold wind nipped at my arms ceaselessly…but I just didn’t care. Even as I was starting to get frostbite, the only thing on my mind was dying.
On and on I walked, glaring daggers at anyone who drew too close to me. It was like I wasn’t even myself anymore…
Down dark alleys, along bridges, to the tops of open-air garages.
Deep down, I sort of hoped some stranger would just come up and end me, so no one could […]
Crying.Again.Having headaches.Again.Body pains.Again.And my thoughts are not happy.They’re not even normal.I’m thinking about my wasted life,I’m thinking about the sufferings of the world,I’m thinking of clipped wings,I’m thinking of a friend of mine who died in a car accident,I’m thinking of a girl that I loved and I didn’t have the courage to tell her that I loved her,I’m thinking of how I failed in everything I did.I took painkillers to ease the pain.It’s not working.I feel like somebody is putting a nail into my brain.I remembered something that I saw when I was 10-11 years old: there was a little girl with her father […]
I want to die Most times I just feel like it’s the only way to make everything just stop. I’m young but from what I understand life only gets more and more crappy, so really what’s the point?
Because I sure as hell never seen one
It feels like no matter what I do, no matter how much progress I make, I always end up making the same stupid, shitty mistakes that send me back to square one. Each time, I keep on thinking that I’ll know better, and that it won’t happen again. But it does. It always does. I screw up, and everyone around me is disappointed in me. It puts a black feeling in my stomach, and when I get like that, I can’t feel any emotions. But that doesn’t stop me from hurting people. Whether it’s my intention to or not, I end up hurting people when […]
I have a question for everyone. I’ve been visiting this site off and on now for about 6 months and would just like to know, what are the general demographics of the community here? Are you here because you feel depressed, alone, hopeless, etc., or are you full on suicidal? I am just curious and would like to get to know you all a bit better.
Currently, I find myself resigned to the thought of killing myself. I have reached a point where I have come to accept that it will happen, it must happen, and it is the most beneficial course of action for me, and for those around me. I have the means, a plan, a general date and time, and a location which I have pre-prepared to make my attempt easier.
Does anyone else feel the way I do? Also, how does my explanation of my feelings towards my suicide resonate with you? I would very much like to discuss this with all of you.
or anything funny, silly, weird, interesting fact, etc. Need a little pick-me-up from…well, life…
I don’t even know you Clipped wings. But I’ve seen you’re recent posts and i don’t even know if you’re still alive to read this, but I care about you. I know that sounds weird because I’m a total stranger but I really do care about you. You’ve been so encouraging and sweet to everyone on this site including me and I don’t want to see you go. You don’t deserve death. And I know you’re thinking that life right now is a fate worse than death and I think that too a lot of times but you were put on this earth for a […]
i went back to cutting. i think everything is falling apart, i dont belong anywhere, i just want to die. i want to kill myself. when i got home yesterday i had the urge to overdose but this time i almost went with it. i just stopped caring for the time being. i still dont know what to do. lord. someone save me.
So… *check the time* that is about 18 hours so far and I am still in good mood from last night. I feel so happy and..belong maybe.
Maybe it is just one time thing every once a while. They may not that serious about want me as their friend or whatever…I don’t know honest. I hope so… We did have really good time last night. Lot of joking and laughing. It was so good but I am not let myself have some hope just yet… I would love for them to be my new friends and maybe more than that though if things go well. It […]
It is striking me hard. I’m trying to hold on.
Why couldn’t I tell her what I wanted?
Why couldn’t I get mad at him for kissing my ex? Why didn’t I succeed at saying what I need and feel when I went through all those horrors.
This place is bad for me. it brings up the memories. I remember why I quit going with those friends. This f.. more like fuckers.
I’m….Im broken. I’m broken hearted, broken minded. I’m missing all the good things at life.
What will be the point at succeeding if I’ll end up friendless? If I’ll end up alone. If I’ll fail to […]
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I went back to my home town. The horror-ed house and the damned “friends”.
I feel like I have to run away. This semester break is short, so I don’t have to worry about being here for long. But….. to be fair? Those aren’t my friends. Those are kids who ditched their friend in great need. I have had flash backs since I got back to here.
I feel like I have to run, run far.
People talk about suicidal experience – which is good, but they forgot to tell you all about the “before” time. The time they stood on the edge. How it feels? it feels […]
Hi,everyone.I am 17 and i am done with my life.I donno what to do anymore.Sometimes i feel like suicide is the best choice but cause of i am such a big loser i cant do it.I tried once but something went wrong so i am here.I dont wanna be like this please help me!!
I’ve been with my boyfriend about a year and well… Now he’s my fiancé. We got engaged the 1st of this month and get married the 1st of November.
I know “*groan* You’re engaged Bri you should be happy not on this site!!!”
See the thing is I’m 19 and even though I’m below poverty line and considered disabled I don’t qualify for assistance on my insurance so those medicines I have been on for a year now that work really well? Poof! Gone.
Not only that but I realized that I had gotten an addiction of sorts to the one that was a controlled substance. I wasn’t […]
It’s 5am where I am and I’m embarking on another night of staying up late, alone.
I really need to fix my sleeping schedule but no matter how early I try to go to bed, my thoughts keep me awake.
When I do actually succeed in being in bed asleep by 2am, I still sleep until past 3pm anyway because I just can’t get out of bed. I wake up a few times but then feel a crushing weight of “I can’t do this” and I go back to bed. I swear I only wake up to pee or else I’d never get up.
Does anyone have any […]