I don’t know what to do in my life. I’m deteriorating. Do you feel like that?
I see a lot of posts here with no responds.. But people post here to get heard and they do want to know that somebody did read them and understand them. Well that’s kinda what i want.
Hi, “artaria” 21, gnc intersex/transgender and hating life
I’m almost 22 but I feel as if I am generations older from all of the messed up stuff that has happened in my life. Every year seems to have un-ending sadness and awful events. So many horrible things I couldn’t begin to list it all.
It is embarking on the anniversary of the last really big traumated thing to happen in my life last year. Months of intense emotional and physical abuse culminated to me finding myself in an even worse situation that I don’t really want to get into right now…
I still blame myself in a lot […]
Everyday is groundhog day.
With a different argument, same feelings of self loathing. Same ways to set up my failure, every day @ or a little after 6am ARGUMENT. Insomnia is not the issue, fear and sadness is. We’re going to be separated legally very soon, I feel it in my bones. And everything I hope for is going to fall to ashes around me. I wish, I hope, & if I could believe in his god, I would pray to be strong enuff to leave the world before that happens.
There is nothing left for me. Being a single mom is not in anyone’s best interest. […]
how’s life?
another day of hell
Whenever I go home, they ask “How’s school?”, then I felt guilty
Why do siblings deny they got treated better that the others? My sister and I got treated like crap, while my other sister and brother were treated like the two “golden” children. The “golden” child thinks there’s no issue, that we were all treated poorly. Yeah right. And that we think it’s just “favoritism.” Really? Telling 2 of your children they’re pieces of sh*t and that you wish they weren’t born, and telling your other two children how “precious” they are, goes well beyond “favoritism.”
People who get treated better *always* deny they get better treatment. Why is that? […]
23 Signs You’re Suffering From a Victim Mentality
I found this article that can help some people out of the slumps.
Here’s a couple of exercies to help us feel positive.
List ten things you’re thankful for;
I’ll start:
1. My cats, Jasmine and Alexis
2. My Mom
3. My Social Security and other benefits
4. My medication
5. My Nintendo Switch
6. My Transformers comic books
7. Internet
8. Jesus Christ
9. Sweets like cookies and chocolate
10.. People who help us feel good
Make one sentence that says something positive about yourself.
I’m a nice person who likes to help others.
Happy to read your posts!
and your to tired of fighting yourself everyday to live?
I’m here visiting family. It went okay for the 1st 4 days. Then, surprise, the powder-keg inevitably went off. And now it’s awful. I’ve been here almost 1 1/2 weeks now.
I didn’t want to come here in the first place, but I needed to get my foot fixed. So here I am. And I’m stuck here. My sister was “nice” for 4 days but now it’s gone sour and I don’t want to be miserable for the next 3 weeks.
I’m in a place where you need a car to get anywhere. I’m thinking […]
I’ve been away from SP for the past 2 weeks or so. Anyone miss me? (that’s okay, you can lie and say you did) : P
What’s been shakin’ at SP?
I met him & my mother took him in. She called him “my black son” cause my dad called him “my black son”.
We were BEST friends before anyone else, before anything else….& Could give a bit of nothing (as far as care goes) when it came to assumptions in re to our actual title of relationship.
If you saw him, you saw me….& Vice versa.
Infact the assumption of anything MORE than friends, was what gave our friend the idea of the *dare*, that I “go out with him”
That day changed my life.
We first kissed that weekend summer of 1996.
The dare […]
Listening to songs of SwS makes me feel like I’m hugging my demons and it feels relaxing
When will it end? When? I don’t know much more I can handle. My heart aches. I’m ridiculous. I’m repulsive. What purpose do I even serve in life? I wish I didn’t feel. I wish I was never born. I wish I could just die.
I have been thinking lately… Maybe too much thinking. Anyways, after socialize with new people, it is like fresh pair of glasses put on me and I see thing more clear about relationships in general. It make me notice that my behaviors in my past relationships are not exactly okay. Just because I am very close to this person but it does not make it okay… Nothing bad happen with my new friends so far. But, I see more and more examples of good relationships should look like and I am still learning.
Today I have a thought.. “Sometimes it is good to be valuable and […]
I’m leaving.
I don’t want to come back here anymore.
After looking for suicide methods and all, finding this SP was an enlightenment. Thanks.
I knew great people here, but I feel powerless, as someone who worries more about others than myself, seeing so much pain and not being able to physically helping makes me sad.
I never liked online stuff I like real things, worrying about others is great but being close in person is even greater
I used to travel 3 hours by car to go to stay close to someone who needed help, with more 3 hours to get home.
If I could travel to every place to […]
Hey you. You can still live that way. Living with a heavy heart, a chaotic mind, that’s fine. You can use it as your strength. Being like that pushes yourself to be better. You’re an artist. You can let out your demons in your drawings. You can draw your own world. You can express anything through your pen. If it hurts, draw! Drawing is a big part of your life, you know that without this, you’re useless! Being able to draw is a gift for you! It serves as your protector in life! Even if sometimes you can’t draw, remember that you draw to live. […]