Iv had hallucinations all my life. It just keeps getting worse every day. Im so fucking tired of it. If anyone has any methods to dealing with it, please share.
Daniel21
this is the second time in 3 fucking days. i cant take this anymore.
well….i guess im not going to kill myself. iv made promises to a few people to not go through with it. so that means im stuck with all of my problems for the rest of my life. sure there may be a cure for depression in the future, but psychosis…thats a different story. my hallucinations have gotten so disturbing and fucked up. i just run to my room and cry almost every time i see or hear something. if i dont run to my room, i just breakdown on the spot. the most recent thing i saw was a shadow figure holding a kinfe….just watching […]
Im tired of people telling to snap out of it
Im tired of people saying its just a phase
Im tired of people making fun of me
Im tired of people telling me it will get better
Im tired of people telling me to stay on my meds
Im tired of people telling me i can get through this
Im tired of people asking if im ok when they already know the answer
Im tired of seeing and hearing shit that isnt there
Im tired of not being able to cut a little bit deeper
Im tired of only having the emotions: sadness, hatred, and guilt
Im tired of life only getting worse
Im tired of […]
For those of you who already know me, you are aware that i have lost my mind. But i could somewhat put up with it with help from my medication. But now iv losing something far more valuable, im losing the one i love most in this world. Something has happened to us that may prevent us from ever seeing each other….i dont want to go into detail. I cant live without this person, i just cant. If things dont work out, im gone. I just cant decide how im gunna kill myself. I have this nice little knife hidden in the back of my […]
Well, i think i have finally completely lost my mind beyond repair. My hallucinations are now more frequent and much more disturbing. Before i could handle any of the hallucinations that i would have, but not anymore. For example, yesterday i watched blood flow down my ceiling while my dead grandmothers disembodied head was floating in the corner of the room. You probably think that im making this up, but im not. Im now dealing with these types of hallucinations on a daily basis and i have to say its messing me up quite a bit. And on top of that im dealing with the […]
I have suffered from schizophrenia for as long as i can remember. First it started off with hearing a voice scream my name so loud i thought my eardrums would burst. Then it slowly progressed to visual hallucinations, i started to see shadowy masses that were in the shape of a person. Then a few months ago i began to actually feel hallucinations touch my arm. A few weeks ago i began to see faces of people that i dont recognize. And just today i have began seeing inanimate objects move. I’m not really frightened by the hallucinations themselves, but its what they bring with […]
Hi, my name is Daniel. Im 15 years old and have suffered from depression for 7 years. I have also suffered from hallucinations, and bipolar. I hate myself more than anything have started cutting again. I am also slowly becoming suicidal again. I held of on killing myself a few months back because i had a little bit of hope that i could get better. Shortly after that i got on meds. The meds didnt do shit for me for a few months, instead all of the worst side effects took place, such as having my neck spasm until it almost broke and vision problems. […]
Hi, im Dan and im 14. I have suffered from chronic depression for seven years of my life and i am not sure how much more of it i can take. I have attempted suicide multiple times, and i almost hung myself just a few minutes ago. The only thing that is keeping me here is my friends….but im not sure how much longer i will be in this world with them. I just cant take this pain much longer. I hope that my friends will be able 2 forgive me for this, but i doubt it. I know killing myself is selfish but i […]
I have been taking anti-depressants for around 2 months. And for a while they actually helped me…but they are doing the exact opoisite of what they should be doin rite now. They have put me into a worse depression than i have ever been in, and i want to die more than ever. Now, i cry every single nite, i have started cuttin again, and im thinkin bout suicide more than ever. I dont know why this is happenin 2 me. Is it normal for anti-depressants to backfire eventually and make you more depressed and suicidal?
well…this is my fourth post on here. and i am now feelin worse than i have in my entire life. i have started cuttin again, it is the begining of the 7 year of my depression, and my anti depressants were workin 4 a while….and now they arent doin shit. im just so fuckin tired of feelin this way. and most of my friends just tell me to cheer up and to snap out of it…and they just dont understand that “snappin outta it” isnt possible. if i could snap outta it i would. i dont want 2 feel like shit all the time…i want […]
So far i have tried everything 2 get help. I have been 2 psyciatrists, doctors, i just finished a week stay at a mental hospital, im on meds, and i am still so fuckin depressed. Im 14 and have been depressed for 6 years, and it is going 2 be 7 soon. I dont know what happiness feels like and i doubt i ever will. I do cut, but i am trying 2 stop. I just need a way out, and i am starting 2 think about suicide again. I just dont know y i am supposed 2 live. I have no talents or potential. Im […]
Im a 14 year old guy and have been depressed for 6 years. I cut, i had’nt eaten in a week until my parents forced me 2 last night(no i am not anarexic, i am just not hungry anymore), i only sleep wen i pass out from exaustion and i wake up every few minutes because of sum very fucked up nightmares, and i am starting 2 hallucinate things. I have missed school for months at a time because i have been way 2 depressed 2 even go there, and the only way that i got out of school 4 so long is because i lied and made it […]
If u dont know what is happenin 2 me just read the post Help Me! But i have got a really fucked up choice 2 make. I have missed school because i am depressed….but not just a few days, months at a time. I lied and made it sound like i had IBS, but now they are goin 2 do tests on me in 3 days. I no that the results r gunna show no trace of IBS, so my parents r probably gunna freak out, and if they find out that i missed school cuz i am depressed i am probably going 2 get […]
First off, i am not doin this because i want attention. I am doin this because i need help, and i dont know how to get any help other than this. I am 14 and i have been depressed since the 3rd grade, i even started havin suicidal thoughts then. Although, now things have gotten a lot worse. I have had to take time off of school because of this. 4 sum reason i cant even focus anymore there. All i can think of anymore is puttin a gun 2 my head n pullin the trigger(and yes i have put a loaded gun 2 my […]