I haven’t posted in a long time here. I don’t even have anything to say, it’s not like things are better but they don’t feel extremely worse either. I would lie if I would say that I want to be alive. I’m not planning on killing myself but I still wouldn’t complain if I randomly die in any way. Life is still hard, it’s actually really fucking hard, so if you’re reading this, I’m fucking proud of you.
That’s it I guess, have a beautiful night.
orianainthepast
Mood swings are the worst thing ever. Im so fucking exhausted of everything, everyday is literally a rollercoaster that never seems to end and I don’t think I’ll ever have stable emotions, nothing ever satisfies me and I can’t seem to find true lasting happiness, not even for one whole day. What tf is the point of living a life like this? I really don’t get it. I feel so empty inside and no matter what I try nothing ever works to make me feel better. I really hope I can go away from this world soon.
I have BPD. Every few weeks I get angry at my boyfriend (Without a real reason) to the point that I break up with him and I tell him really hurtful things. I’m 25 and he’s 22, he’s really understanding all the time and he has the sweetest soul I’ve ever met. He knows that I have bpd and I’ve tried to push him away many times because I’m scared to hurt him. Everytime I have a breakdown I break up with him and block him on every social media and the next morning I regret everything I said and feel really bad. Honestly I […]
I’m so tired of pushing everyone I love away, I don’t get how can I be so scared to be lonely yet I push away everyone that cares about me and has a big part in my life. It sucks to not understand your own feelings, it sucks to loose yourself slowly and not knowing who you are anymore after so many years of suffering in silence
i just wish I could be the person everyone expects me to be, but I’m nothing more than a big failure in everything.
I don’t want to be too negative. Maybe it does get better, maybe life gets […]
I started a relationship two days ago, I’ve been single for one year and 8 months and in this time I went into the worst time of my depression, I was hospitalized in a me talk ward for 4 months because of suicide attempt and I had an extreme weight gain. I literally look like the worst version of myself at this moment. I have the worst self esteem ever and my insecurities are demons that literally don’t let me live a normal life. I still want to kill myself everyday, but I’m not planning to do it anytime soon. The point is that despite […]
How do you cope with being lonely?
I find myself making plans and then cancel them because of social anxiety and depression.
Tonight is Halloween and I was supposed to go out with people but I canceled on them and now I feel like a fucking loser. It’s been happening a lot lately and each time I feel more and more lonely.
and the feeling of being lonely sucks. I am a sucker for (love) company.
So, how do you deal with being alone?
This two excuses together will save you from anything in the eyes of society.
Hi guys, I hope youre doing at least okay, can you recommend movies like Its kind of a funny story? That talk about depression/suicide but are not necesarilly dark and sad all the time….
xx
Once again here I am, sad and alone. Just bought a bottle of wine and Im putting sad songs on spotify. It feels like it never ends, I can have 3-4 months where I feel okay and I think life could be worth living. But nope. I always come back to this, to spend days avoiding people, feeling useless, binge eating, wasting my best years. I dont know what to do with my life.
Hope youre having a better weekend than this girl here
x
I would like to know what do you think/how do you feel about the fact that avicii oficially killed himself, I wasnt his biggest fan but I liked him as an artist, but for some reason I feel incredibly sad because of his dead and it was the first time I cried because a famous person died.
Its crazy how everything changes, last year I wouldnt stop going out on weekends, careless and having fun. Now I barely go out, have lost friendships because I dont like to meet up and my only company is wine. Im wasting my young adult years and I will regret it so bad in the future, wish I would have the strenght to end it all for once.
F*ck depression and social anxiety
Im so dissapointed in myself, I let my ex play with me and used me so many times, He lied to me SO MUCH, mislead me, treated me literally like his toy. I cant believe I trusted him and I cant believe that knowing the kind of person he is and that hes not gonna change, Im still not over him and still want him to come back and magically everything will be perfect. Like wtf is wrong with me, its been 3 weeks since we finally stopped talking AT ALL after an on and off relationship of one year and a half, a VERY […]
Im back with the suicidal toughts. I had the best boyfriend I could ever had, he is the happiest person ever so it was hard for him to deal with my depressions but he tried so hard everyday. This last week we were on holidays in Barcelona and we were in the exact place of the terrorist attack. It could have been me, I could have died, finally. But no, instead, like always, a bunch of people who probably love life die. That night I got drunk with the spanish wine and my boyfriend and I had a fight. It got really bad and he […]
I have been depressive for 4 years…trying to pretend im not and hiding it from my family and friends. I have been living in a new country for 2 years and the people i have met have moved to cities far away from me so im left with any friends here…it sucks to feel alone and i dont know what to do to find new friends, its kind of hard for me to give the first step when it comes to socializing…but i think I also need someone to talk to in real life who kind of understands how I feel, someone like you guys […]