Coping Skills

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the sunrise

June 4th, 2017by vee

i’m about to post things that have been going through my head for more than 10 years, but i’ve never shared with anyone. now, why am i saying it here? because no one can know. and here, everyone knows yet they don’t know; and i just need to get this things out, because i feel like it’ll maybe help somehow. last night i couldn’t sleep, and so i was sitting on the couch, watching the sunrise, when thoughts that haunt me decided to keep me company. this time, however, i wrote everything down. keep in mind i didn’t check what i wrote and don’t plan …

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I’m done

June 3rd, 2017by silent_songbird

Life has been such a huge freaking struggle and I feel like I’m done. The chronic pain I suffer from, my sick family, my failure as a person, I’m sick of it. I’m tired of living…but, I’m not positive I want to die.

I’m kind of convincing myself not to off myself by challenging the concept of suicide. You see right now, when I think about suicide I ask myself how my corpse will look, or how others will react as well as the bliss of nothingness. If I was going to really commit suicide, I’d have to stop caring about superficial aspects of my postmortem …

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Exactly.

May 30th, 2017by Cordless

Saw this and laughed.

True.  😉

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Character!

May 29th, 2017by Cordless

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There’s a fine line between “Adversity Builds Character” and “Please Just Shoot Me Now”.

I try to strike a balance halfway, but sometimes it’s a stretch.

Good news, sort of:  Bought two new strong aluminum canes with a pretty leafy green vine print on them. And, since the last time I posted in 2016, I got a brand new wheelchair for indoors.  Currently it’s in the kitchen, right next to the fridge, so when I want a bottle of water or tea, all I have to do is sit there and enjoy.

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I Don’t Think Anyone Cares.

May 29th, 2017by BlueDiamond

Today, I plan on going back into Tucker’s. I don’t want to work anymore. Tired of tormenting myself to accepted into a world that will never accept me. I want off the human plantation, but I guess I’m now going to have to fight for that now, when I feel like they never wanted me on the plantation either. I’m going to be off this web-site for a week. Means I’m going to be eating shitty hospital food and sleeping on a bed that’ll hurt my hip, but it’s better than dealing with the outside world.

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This is not a suicide note

May 28th, 2017by infectioushumanwaste

It is a note from a girl who doesn’t wanna be death or alive anymore. I don’t wanna share my name, my country or another things about me. I just wanna tell you that how I became into this person. First, I don’t know whose gonna read this it is too long. If you read please add comment.

As everyone else, my story starts with my family. I was born in a family full of love but also has got a problems. I love them all and the only reason that I’m still alive is my family. But also there are other side of the story. …

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May 27th, 2017by doePrince

Sometimes its just frustrating to keep on with the uphill battle is all. Been in highs and lows and while the lows are particularly bad they arent like how they used to be.

Regardless, its still really fucking frustrating when ya actually try to do what you’re supposed to and it doesn’t seem to be doing any good. Keeping up with the doctors, actually giving a shit bout my general health. Even trying to manage or eliminate stress factors in my life but im still battling these hallucinations and voices.

Sometimes something does get to me but its really easy to squash those worries if I ACTUALLY …

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My Story Part 2

May 25th, 2017by gioia

I’ve decided to not tell anybody else about the abuse; their reaction just made me realize how inconvenient and unpleasant this was for everybody.

I knew before that I wasn’t an easy person, but I never felt that rejected in my whole life -not even when I was bleeding and bruised from my exboyfriend.

But I made a mistake. I’ve tipsily told a guy I’ve been with for a while. We’ve never been officially dating but we spent almost every day with each other.

I didn’t want a label for what we had and neither did he.

But I’ve told

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Lost of Interest in Video games, and Missing Childhood

May 24th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I don’t seem to care about video games that much anymore. I have these video games that I brought, but now I have no interest in playing them. Fun hack to afford video games: wait until the gaming console is a gen old, then buy it. It should be at least 150 dollars, and then buy all the games you wanted to play on it. They should like 10 to 30 dollars mostly in the 10s. You can it though Amazon or Ebay. I have reason on why I’m starting to grow apart from the gaming community. One reason is that I’m near-sighted, don’t how …

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help

May 23rd, 2017by starbucks

For the past years, I’ve been telling myself “I hate my life”. I just dont like how things are happening, it’s getting harder for me. I feel like everything is in my way. I’m turning 20 this yr. We moved to CA about 6 yrs ago. I have difficulty making friends cause I think I’m weird and awkward. I also have anxiety that makes me nervous when talking to ppl, I am very shy person, I have no confidence, my self-esteem is very low. I want to change myself but I don’t know how. Living here in this country is hard for me, since I …

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Tired of Doing the Right Thing

May 22nd, 2017by BlueDiamond

I got another bill from Tuckers. How can I get medical help when I can’t afford it? I know, just stop being depress and magically suck everything up like a sponge. I just got a job, and guess what it’ll all going to go to paying bills. Most of dept is college, hell the debt on one my credit cards is college, and I’m still working shit jobs, scraping the barrel to pay bills. Over 90% percent of my debt is college. Rarely do I spend money for myself. Bad enough that I have a dad who is always bitching to me about money, but …

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I hate Teachers

May 21st, 2017by BlueDiamond

Why does my manager makes me with this girl? Every few minutes that I show to help her to do work, she disappears as though she doesn’t like me, and I know that she isn’t lazy. She doesn’t have to like me, in fact the purpose of having a job is to work, and pretend you’re a team. Isn’t like I’m standing there and her chatting up. Oh well, she left me with her red marker that she was working with, so I took it. I wanted to chunked the damn thing, but instead I left it by the computer. Doubt that did her any …

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What is reality?

May 19th, 2017by Alfred1688

As we try to survive in this world we live in

We seek out meaning for the life that was given

Some search for it their entire youth

Yet little find it or see the truth

Majority give up when all hope is lost

Others are consumed by the lies they came across

We all believe it gets better after it gets worse

But those words do not apply on this curse

Even if we tried to satisfy every need

There is no cure for one’s greed

It destroys us like a cancer

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so tired

May 17th, 2017by skullcat

To be quite honest I don’t know why I’m so tired. Exam week is over and I should be feeling relieved but I just feel as if I’m drained completely of energy. I can still function properly and all that in public but its getting harder and harder and I don’t know why. There’s this weight just hanging on me and I can’t concentrate on any of my school work at home or school.

My parents and friends haven’t noticed anything different about me so beginning to think that maybe its just all in my head and there’s nothing wrong with me.  I don’t feel comfortable …

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Escaping satan’s realm

May 14th, 2017by Shockwave69

My name is Scott, I’m a 21 year old male with anorexia, autism and depression.

I’m not really bothered in revealing my name as I’m going to be dead anyway.

I am very upset and bored with life and and I have decided to pull the plug. I don’t really have much of a future ahead of me as I am autistic so most employers will most likely not accept me. I have been anorexic since I was about 8 years old and it’s absolutely debilitating, I’m constantly out of energy.

I work 5 days a week as a volunteer worker and I don’t think I will be …

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Please help me.

May 11th, 2017by Isolated

I was anxious for a month. Every day I would wake up feeling anxious. Living in fear of when the next panic attack would take over. Then one day it went. I didn’t wake up anxious. I was so so relieved. Unfortunately, this only lasted a few seconds. Then I sunk into depression. A depression that keeps on going and is consuming me at a rapid pace. Its worse by myself. I can’t get out of bed for most of the day. I’m tired all the time. There is no point. I can’t stop thinking about dying. Sometimes when I’m with other people I feel …

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Religion sez 4 tards

May 9th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I have a feeling that I’m going to be the invisible girl on this web-site for now on. My last post that has gotten the most posting, let me un-iron some kinks to guys might have. I do not hate strippers personally by all means if you entertain mostly men while being mostly naked is your thing, then do it. I was expressing why I wouldn’t be a good fit like trust me, if I was to go into a strip to fill-out an application. I would get denied. I never said or believe that women should go back into the kitchen, and finally the …

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I’m Screwy

May 8th, 2017by BlueDiamond

Started my first day of work, just sat at a computer all day doing on-line tutorials. I going to have some expensive bills to pay. Gotta paid to get my eyes check, and hopefully pass a physical. My blood pressure can not be any higher than 140/90, which it isn’t usually. It happened only one time, but I was eating unhealthy, smoking cigarettes, been angry the past few days, and was very nervous getting my blood pressure checked. I could feel my heart rate go up, then it was 140/92, but after that my other checks have been healthy. One time, I even got low …

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I don’t deserve anything

May 8th, 2017by wali2241

Lately I have been getting worse and the suicidal thoughts have been coming back into my head. I write poems when I feel depressed, so I just wanted to share this one, I wrote a couple nights ago.

 

The pain it stays

Sometimes for days and days

I feel death is looming

Feeling like I can’t do this anymore

Maybe it’s time for me to exit through the door

I am broken

I am broke

All they will ever say

“She couldn’t handle it”

Maybe its time

Time to say goodbye

Fall …

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I need help

May 8th, 2017by peachmuffin143

I was a bit sceptical about this site at first. Then I read every post and thought to myself that I’m not alone. I was desperate to fix everything. I was hurt to see others hurt. I tried my best to help them and in the mean time I struggle with own troubles. I HATE to say this…but I HATE that particular person. And I HATE myself for hating her. I hate that I have to admit that I’m weak….I’m insecure. I hate everything. I live for years coping with anxiety and depression.

I met with several counsellors in my life. Now I’m 20 years old …

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