Coping Skills

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Short Piano Cover I Made

May 1st, 2017by ninjarhino21

Ludovico Einaudi is one of my favorite composers. I love playing his music. ^.^ Nothing has helped me deal with depression more than the piano has.

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Does anyone else feel every day is a battle for survival?

April 29th, 2017by Black Holez

Does anyone else feel this way? It seems every day is a battle for survival where you have no idea whether you’ll be alone, depressed or be busy in your day. I spend each and every waking moment wondering whether I will be bullied, be busy or go on with my life or just have someone to chill and hang out with. Most people seem to take this for granted because it comes naturally for them but ever since that fateful day where I was bullied at work and traumatized to the point of being neutered (honestly, I dont know how to fight back anymore), …

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running from the silence

April 25th, 2017by heartlessviking

After so many days in quiet contemplation this past month has been the first time I have actually actively tried to live. There’s a few reasons here, and today’s thoughts are proof.

Let’s just stay in the present, I have written plenty on my past. Today I woke up and it started out with bad news(ish) that I wouldn’t be getting to work at my paying job. I like working there, I’m learning a skill, but on the other hand I’m glad for the rest and to set my own pace for most of the week.

I flat didn’t get a damn thing done the first 4 …

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WHY is it so FU(£ING difficult to LOG IN HERE!???

April 24th, 2017by bobbywylie

I can see the reasoning behind keeping a site like this….well….discrete, I guess. But, you know, I’ve wanted, on a couple of occasions, to sign in and TALK to people (when I’ve been NEAR FUCKING KILLING MYSELF!!), but I can’t figure out how to fucking LOG IN so I can COMMUNICATE!!! WTF?!!!

There’s no LOG IN details when you visit this site! You may be DESPERATE – and you may well be RIGHT ON THE FUCKING EDGE AND DESPERATE TO TALK TO LIKE-MINDED PEOPLE, but……how the fuck do you GET IN!????????

 I managed to log on ONLY because I inadvertantly clicked on somebody’s POST! Is that how

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I Will Overcome !

April 23rd, 2017by Addiictivetragedy

Mind like quicksand, but I try to stay above land.
Kaleidoscope of different scenarios. Life falling in a burial. Heart broken like shattered glass, not healing no mater how much time has passed. Haunted dreams every night, becoming weaker after every fight. Can’t distinguish what is real or in my head, every night laying on my deathbed. Anxiety, bipolar and PTSD, is slowly overpowering me.
Suicidal Thoughts but I’m afraid of death, continuous thoughts of how I will lose my last breath. Anxious, anxious all the time, but with meds they tell I’ll be just fine. Irritable, angry, sadden and scared, all through my mind like a …

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Blossom

April 23rd, 2017by Addiictivetragedy

You used your words, I used my heart. I became unheard, you became a dart. I reached out, you pushed away. I started to doubt but I was forced to stay.
Growing a flower, supposed to be a blessing. but you had the power. And I was left stressing..
Far from family , no one but you,
Loss of gravity, my hatred grew.
You where supposed to be my happy ending, but this chapter was just beginning.
My flower blossomed, she is so beautiful, I became cautioned, you grew so pitiful. Yelling and abusing, but with no bruising. I tried to flee, your family didn’t agree.. threatened like a thief …

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I’m not that special. I’m just anonymous. I’m just alone.

April 16th, 2017by McGuyver

^ Puzzle ^ hint: look closer

Hello, friend. First post here, hope I won’t be too far off.

I have a bunch of problems, like most people I’m sure, but a particularly devastating one is computer addiction. I would say it is kind of like cyber dependence, but include more things, like programming. Slowly built my life around it, took computer programming courses, worked in that field and everything.

But then, reality kicks in at some point, ruined my health, made me almost a recluse. I think I have trust issues because of it, since I’ve had so little …

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Battle Scars: 2017 Update

April 16th, 2017by Counting The Days Until I'm gone

Today commemorates eight months since I have gotten the urge to turn to this forum. At my last visit, I was broken, and quite humorously, at this visit, broken no longer can summate my existence. In exactly one year, I have had few victories and so much pain and deception that I have crawled back into the safety of my introvercy. Since my last visit, (when I was a 18 year old bum, not attending school) I have made some progression. I currently work, go to school and volunteer regularly but my battle scars are still present, Scars that refuse to heal, scars which threaten …

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Alone

April 15th, 2017by fighting_alone94

So maybe it’s not much of a problem I mean I’ve been through way worse and felt way lower in my life but for some reason I can’t help but feel alone and depressed. Growing up I didn’t have friends and I hit my peak in middle school. I have hundreds of friends well I guess looking back none of them were really my friends but once I got to high school everything changed I didn’t trust anyone and I was the most paranoid person in the world. Not like omg the FBI is after me but like I always felt that someone was going …

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I just want to get out of everything

April 10th, 2017by Lawli

Hockey season is starting and already there has been lots of drama in my team. It really doesn’t have much to do with me but being around it and talking to people about it got really stressful. Although it’s mainly over now I am still tired from it and already made me feel really down getting into the season. My club games have already started and I’ve played pretty average. I always feel like I’m letting me team down ever since my Dad told me in the car before a game that I was letting the team down and I wasn’t doing good enough. I …

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I’ve started cutting myself…..

April 5th, 2017by 5201jm

(Skip this part if you just wanna know the problem)For those who don’t know who I am, I use to post on here a lot about how I’m probably suicidal due to loneliness(relationship/girl wise). I stopped for a while just bc of laziness or I just wasn’t near a computer at the time. Just search for “5201jm” if you want to know about it/me. Anyway………

So I think I’m getting worse. A few weeks ago I got a little tipsy, picked up a box cutter on my table and cut myself 5 times. 2 long cuts on my left forearm and 3 smaller cuts on my …

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help please

March 31st, 2017by the deceitful

hello
im a compulsive lair and suffering from ocd
i started taking prozac for my ocd
and admited being a liar to my family
but fact is i’ve been exposed as a liar
in university
among people i know
and dont
even in social media
and having a wierd name
gossips and reputation precceds me
where ever i go
how can i be given a second chance when im cast out like this
is only way out suicide

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That ‘Special Place’…

March 26th, 2017by Forest.of.Lonely.Trees

This is in part for all you forest lovers here at SP (looking at you Waldschläfer!) and also to ask you guys if you have a ‘special place’ and if so, what’s it like and why do you go there specifically?

These are a few photos of one place I spend a lot of time getting away from it all. I took these in the winter and even then it’s a beautiful little spot to go unwind. My novice attempts at photography don’t do it justice, so you’ll just have to trust me, it’s real nice, even in its dankest state……

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Aaaand I’m back

March 22nd, 2017by pikwangchu

I actually feel quite clean today. Well not exactly. A bunch of hoes are pissing the crap out of me. And i apprently failed my exams again.

 

 

anyways. My point is… like suicidal thoughts flash into my mind out of nowhere in the middle of class. Not every time but from time to time. It’s quite scary actually. I’d also think about how people would react to me disappearing. I honestly feel like they wouldn’t care. I mean a lot of them don’t care. Maybe some will but not a lot. Just about 2-3 people would. Out of all 100+ people in school that I know.

 

 

I …

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Despair and Hopelessness

March 13th, 2017by Black Holez

I don’t know how to move on in life. I may have rebounded back while I was in the monastery but once I got back in the real world, the same feelings of hopelessness, despair and loneliness has slpwly crept back in. I thought I could go on and move on with me life, I currently even have a scholarship in trade school right now but it seems all so pointless and empty.

I got abandoned by friends, my family looks down on me, I am irritable and angry all the time and I have no one to talk to. My closest friend became a drug …

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blades and blood

February 23rd, 2017by emptyjay

Why do  i  have a obsession with cutting myself ? as soon as i see the blood i feel a relief flood through my body . no drug compares . the best way to get rid of a problem . cut the bad from the good . a walking scarred shell. no future . whoever believes that is stupid

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It officially ends this week.

February 21st, 2017by MissingMy3Hearts31921

I have officially made up my mind and am at peace with it.  Time to say goodbye this weekend.  I wanted to go earlier but one of my daughters birthday is tomorrow so I am going to wait.

I learned that due to my NP hydrocephalus that I am about 18 to 24 months away from suffering the same symptoms as those with CTE.  It is almost like dementia.  I do not want to sit and be a burden to anyone.  Especially do not want to be a burden to my soon to be ex wife and my kids.  I think I have come to peace …

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5AM BPD/Love/Sob

February 20th, 2017by Elliot97

Do I get up and disappear while she lays beside me, sleeping beautifully? Even if she did no wrong I can’t force myself to believe she hasn’t, If I disappear maybe she’ll find someone better and worthy. I was always told anything said or thought after 2AM should be ignored but it seems to be my wisest moments. I don’t know how or why I think this way, I wish I didn’t. I wish I was ‘normal’… I used to say consistency is key in my previous relationships but it seems the only thing consistent in my life is sadness, suicidal thoughts and total destruction …

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Ironies and Contradictions of Modern Life.

February 19th, 2017by Black Holez

Anyone find it odd that our modern world is filled with people who are depressed and had enough of the suffering they are going through? In the past, people who suffered from depression were rare, they had an intact family, had people around them who knew the word respect, men acted like men and women acted like women and rarely were people using each other and being assholes (because if you did, you would immediately get killed). Now we live in a fast paced world where we are surrounded by toxic people who would bring each other down in order to prop themselves up and …

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Depression … and how to overcome

February 15th, 2017by Black Holez

Hi, guys. Was here last year around the beginning of December and early January. If anyone has been following my posts, I was suffering from severe depression and have lost everything – my job, my friends and my relationship with my family. I even lost the will to live and move forward in life. However, I entered into a monastery the last 2 weeks and reflected on what really to do and I can tell you that it has refreshed my soul and given me renewed vigor in my outlook in life. I know this is not for everyone but if you’re into spirituality or …

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