Coping Skills

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Love

  May 25th, 2018 by alienCY

I think that living is loving. And true love isn’t just a couple or something. True love is sacrifice. If you try to take love from others to fill your gap then you end up emptier and the others are missing the love you took. If you give love to others though, even if you don’t have love, if you give a piece of you away; you will find yourself more full than before. Loving is giving what you are missing. Love is really beyond logic, it doesn’t make sense, just like life. However, at the end, love is the only thing that remains and …

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Life

  May 24th, 2018 by alienCY

What if Life has no meaning without being meaningless?
What if Life is the meaning?
What if we are meant to be alive?
It may sound obvious but are we really alive?
And if we are not, isn’t it time to become?

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Lost needing advice

  May 20th, 2018 by Username101

I’m very new to this, suicidal forum.. straight to the point.. It’s not that I am going to or really have the urge to commit suicide. It’s the constant thought popping into my head.  I will catch myself fantisizing of the idea. But these questions always rush to mind. Should I end it? What will happen to my boyfriend, family and friends? Who would show up at my viewing or funeral? How can I make the death fast and 100% effective? I’m not sure why I take the time to give deep thought if I’m contemplating to die.. can someone help me understand where I …

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A place to rest my head

  May 15th, 2018 by imsosorry2468

It feels like such a relief when I put my head down to sleep during the day. I can’t sleep at night but when I lay down and find myself drifting away it’s a great feeling. I wish I could sleep all the time and sleep forever. Lately I haven’t been eating during the day and it makes me super light-headed which helps me sleep… gosh it’s so messed up.I am so messed up

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I’m dying

  May 11th, 2018 by why949

Every thing hurts and I just want to cut. I’m sorry. I feel like everything is just falling apart and I want to tell my mom I have depression but I’m afraid to. I really need a hug and I’m 98% sure no one would miss me and school is getting worse and worse. I stole some pills from my medicine cabinet and I don’t know if I want to take them or not. I’ve been drinking isopropyl alcohol in hopes I’ll get sick enough to go to the hospital and not have to go to school again. I wish I was dying. But doesn’t …

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voices

  May 9th, 2018 by ELECTRICAT

those tiny voices in my head speaks louder than my voice
i hear them talking about me everyday
sometimes i cried and plead to make them stop
at first i didn’t think much i thought it was just me
i am always left alone so i wandered around myself
but i never knew how dark i can be and it is scary
i want it to stop so badly!!!!
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DEATH SOMETIMES WALKS ON PADDED FEET

  May 5th, 2018 by s.h45@yahoo.com

 

When death is so near, sometimes it walks on padded feet, strumming the ground like a guitarist, rhythmically – louder – softer, then with fingers on the wood, tap, tap… tap, tap. The sound is everywhere, no one can hear it but the poor fuck.   It builds and then suddenly subsides, then as each pebble of doubt and every dark word is cast into the waters of his mind, the song builds again on each ripple.   Inside his head each wave combines with the last, getting larger and larger. With the sound of the pebbles dropping into the water, cast by each tap, tap… tap, …

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How to write an effective suicide note.

  May 3rd, 2018 by Heh

I’m going to do it I just need to know how to let people down easy. I really can’t stay here. Any ideas on what to write for my mom would be amazing. Thank you!

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For the kids

Tuesday May 1st 2018 Koralie. Or Koraly. Or Korallie. That’s your sister’s name, Maggy. I like Koralie better. I want to see you both. A lot. I’m not doing well now. I took how many pills? I feel pathetic. Manilla asked me how I do it. She’d kill herself if she were me. If only […]

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when my kitten

  April 30th, 2018 by iamdarling

hm. i love when my kitten lays and cuddles with me. i love my kitten and i love cuddles with him.

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antidepressants

  April 24th, 2018 by abyssus

I wonder whether I should retake my antidepressants because I know deep inside of me I don’t want to be a part of this world anymore. I feel like if i retake them again they will kinda give me false hopes and acte like a robot. Sorry for my broken english i’m not an english native speaker.

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Hey you bunch of sad sleepy hooligans, lookie here

  April 16th, 2018 by Lutefisk

Hey! I was just thinking… Since depression generally makes us into a bunch of tired fools (or at least i certainly am always exhausted), why not have some fun and become a god of your own world while you sleep all day? I found a huge post on Tumblr about lucid dreaming (courtesy of the blog Audrey and the Whale, linked to below) that, as far as my experience goes, is pretty accurate. This is pretty much copied and pasted, but i’ve made a few annotations to it for any clarity I can offer. There are plenty of sources online dedicated to this phenomenon, and

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It seems I’m going to do this.

  April 16th, 2018 by shatterediris

I’m eyeing this blade that I pulled out of a pencil sharpener…. It sucks, I hate it and it sucks, it just doesn’t do enough for me. I tossed pretty much everything else I have into the trash a long time ago and never really bought anything back, my xacto blade broke so badly and is so dull that it can’t even do anything anymore, it’s just a dull piece of metal so all I have is this little blade from a pencil sharpener, hey at least my xacto served me one last time by unscrewing the scree on that pencil sharpener that the screwdriver …

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Decay

  April 6th, 2018 by gothinabox

My life is going fine, but my mental state is deteriorating.

I feel myself getting more and more paranoid. I keep getting weirder and more horrific intrusive thoughts. Some of them I can’t even say. Some of them are ones that make me do odd things, like, “If you don’t wash your hands for exactly 20 seconds you will kill everyone in the world.”

My depression and anxiety are getting worse. I’m relapsing constantly in self harm. I want to cut deeper but I always end up pussying out of it, out of fear of receiving more pain than I want to give myself.

I feel like I’m …

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******

  April 5th, 2018 by fifth

my girlfriend broke up with me.

she says she is scared to hurt me.
afraid I will get too close
but she said she couldn’t be in a relationship right now

her parents are making her pay for rent.
she is 16
I am hurting for her

I can see her childhood going
she is getting a second job to pay rent to her family
they are not poor

she is assembling documents and researching emancipation

I cant do anything

I can see her falling apart

she is seeing this guy.
they have a

thing

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Update

  April 3rd, 2018 by Eccedentesiastsoul

It’s been a while since I’ve last been on here. As a matter of fact, it has been a while since I’ve confronted myself about what is going on around me. For the most part, I blame it on school. I have loads of work to do and having to balance it while also dealing with my parent’s bullshit takes up all my time. I guess part of the reason I have not been putting anything on here is also because I fear someone finding out that this account belongs to me. Anyways, things have been all over the place. I have relapsed twice last …

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She Flew Away

  April 3rd, 2018 by firefly11291998

The sickness came

We didn’t know

what it was, or

if it would stay or go.

 

The doctors said,

“She won’t stay long”

but we still hoped

that the were wrong.

 

Then she went

she flew away

God took her home

She’s there to stay.

 

When she went

I fell apart

it pierced me through

just like a dart.

 

Picked up back habits

I knew they were bad

had no other explanation

other than that , “I’m sad.”

 

Changed my life

the way I lived

most of it

was not what I wanted.

 

My dad told me,

“Think about you Mom.”

‘When she’s looking down at you

is she proud of who you’ve become?’

 

My friends told me,

“Keep your head up,

You’ll be fine.”

How could they know

What’s next in line.

 

*just a poem I wrote …

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They ask

  March 31st, 2018 by Rosesareblue

They asked me.

“Why do you cut yourself?”

They asked me.

“Why are there scars in your body?”

They asked me.

“Are you crazy?”

They told me.

“Attention seeker at its finest.”

And i sighed. Breathed heavily and walked away.

Whats the good in telling them what my demons tell me what to do, it’s better to keep my insanity to myself.

Because it’s better keeping everything inside rather than telling the world who doesn’t know how to listen.

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Problems

  March 28th, 2018 by Unsheard

This probably isn’t uncommon but i drink more then i should, no one knows i hide at night with a bottle of vodka and drink until i can’t feel or don’t remember. I also smoke weed, people think i do it to be cool but i really do it because i want to escape the pain and again. All of this started after i stopped cutting so i think i should go back to cutting but i really don’t know. Is all this really bad considering that i’m 15 i really don’t know and i don’t know what to do anymore.

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  March 20th, 2018 by Jean-bean102

I am here. Simply as it is that. For few months, I was thinking that nothing is truly last. I lost someone, a good friend who I care and love very much. The last person, I would expect to lose. It takes me a while for me to recover from that loss. I didn’t want to believe it is my loss. Now I accept it happens to me and it does not matter if I deserve it or not. I simply lost someone and it affects my life in good and bad ways. I still have hard time to look at something I love such …