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The effects of suicide on family and friends.

my girlfriend left me and I don’t feel I can live anymore

by kingdomFife
written by kingdomFife

My girlfriend broke up with me about 2 and a bit months ago and I’m really struggling to carry on living. Our 3 year anniversary was December 11th and she left in October, I had just spent a months wage on taking her out for her birthday to a nice hotel etc and then when I saw her 3 days later she spoke about breaking up. The week she broke up with me I was made redundant at work, it was the anniversary of the death of someone who was like my big brother, it was a week or two before my own birthday and […]

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New Year

by PennyroyalTea
written by PennyroyalTea

My mom and I are leaving my dad. In less than a month.

The thing is, it won’t be simple. I wished for things to get better blowing a candle the day of my birthday,  as a Christmas miracle too. We won’t have much money to start this because despite of his alcoholism,  my dad is especially good at making money. This sudden moving plan is poorly planed,  but we are desperate. We are moving to a different town, have no real home there or stable job for my mom. Fortunately we have my grandparents, they will give us a place to stay while we get […]

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Do you wish to feel nothing at all rather than being hurt? I do.

by wind
written by wind

I have a small group of friends, and we’re pretty close. One friend has a roommate that has OCD and anxiety. Just several days ago we had a conversation about her, and I couldn’t believe how much bashing, judging, and hating my friends had for the poor roommate.

I myself had a major depression 2 years ago, and all of them know about it. Back then I was so afraid that if I suicide, I’d hurt many people, so I tried to hang on and fight back. I wouldn’t deny that they do care for me some time. However I did realize they judge my emotion, […]

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None of This Came Out the Way It Does in My Head.

by kurdt kobian
written by kurdt kobian

Do you ever feel like you can’t let anyone in? That you can’t tell anyone about your suicidal urges or depression, because you know one day, you’re gonna commit suicide? Like it’s your destiny? And if they get close like that and you self-destruct it’ll hurt them. I know it will hurt them alot. That’s why I made 3 huge mistakes in telling my three friends. Now whenever I go, I know it’ll just hurt them. And people wonder why suicidal people are anti-social. Sometimes you have to push everyone away to save them from the pain.

Do you ever get the feeling that happy people […]

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I’m confused.

by nerevars
written by nerevars

I’m not even depressed right now but I don’t know what happen and what I’m going to do with my life which makes me want to kill myself. My major in college turns out have nothing to do with my passion that I found out later but I can’t  just drop out or my family will be furious. I’m stuck with my life I hate. I want to chase my dreams even it means I need to start over and leave everything behind, have a minimum wage job (as long as I still can pay my bills, eat, having a roof above my head and […]

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What should I do?

by whyshouldibother
written by whyshouldibother

Back in May I tried to kill myself. I thought the only person I could talk to about it would be my bestfriend, but then he told my mum because he didn’t want to loose me. I’ve had counselling but that hasn’t helped. I don’t want to tell my mum because last time she found out I was depressed, it broke her heart. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m sick of it all. Getting called names at school, yeah they might only be names but name calling really hurts. I even get bullied because of the fact I’m half Indian, like seriously if […]

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What I Want

by luvmesomecreepypasta
written by luvmesomecreepypasta

You ask me what I want and get angry when I reply, “I don’t know” for the umpteenth time in a row. How do I explain that I want to be here with you but at the same time I would give anything to be away from you? How do I explain that you make me so happy but at the same time I want to carve your name into my arm? How do I explain that you’ve finally given me a reason to live but at the same time you make me want to die even more? I don’t say, “I don’t know” to […]

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Sorry…

by unsocialfreak
written by unsocialfreak

I feel the need to say sorry.

I’m sorry for all the pain I have caused you.

I’m sorry for ever letting you into my secret life of despair as I have tainted your happy life with my depression.

I’m sorry for ever thinking you’d care about me.

I’m sorry for barging into your life.

I’m sorry for not being there for you when you were there for me.

I’m sorry for the way I treated you, as my diary.

I’m sorry for thinking I’m the only person with problems not realising that we were both facing the same issues.

I’m sorry for becoming so sad all the time, ruining any chances of […]

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The Burden Has Lifted

by kurdt kobian
written by kurdt kobian

I’ve been spending the last few days with relatives. You know, for the holidays. I gotta say I’ve been having fun. Maybe it’s because the burdens of my MDD feel lighter. It’s quieted because I’ve accepted my suicide. I’m happier because I know in about two weeks I’m going to be gone. I know this happiness can’t last and once they leave it’ll all be back. But I’m at peace with my decision. I’m just happy to be done with the world and my failure of a life.

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Nobody gives a feel about me

by minky5
written by minky5

I was at school. I just recently found out that a mean girl from last year said that I had head lice and I should just go kill myself. Of course, I just laughed my ass off since that mean girl wasn’t good looking herself and tried to do that because she thought of herself as ugly. For the first three weeks of hearing that I was fine… until something happened…

My sister, who is in the same school and grade as me, became friends with that mean girl’s sidekick. Every time I passed my sister’s new friend, they would both just roll their eyes. I […]

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Analysis

by quaero
written by quaero

I can see through their mind, that’s the problem. I can see the intentions behind their words, the one-sidedness, the un- understandability, the hypocrisy, the wrongness, the ugliness, the will to power. Just by seeing it gets transferred into me; and i feel disgusted, i cannot bear it. There seems to be a psychologist sitting in me who wants to know everything, but doesn’t know how to bear that knowldege. I don’t feel like replying or take an action based on, or even against, such wrong intentions. I feel like i’m better inactive than act wrongly. And the biggest problem is i cannot compromise […]

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Parental “Unconditional Love”

by Sabi
written by Sabi

*edit* As of yesterday, I learned something that puts all of this in a much clearer light for me now: I have been the child of a Narcissistic Mother and Enabling Father. I knew something was terribly wrong all my life but only since I learned of the precise traits a mother with these tendencies exhibits yesterday did everything begin to click. Being raised this way wrought damage that I’ve only recently begun to understand the full scale of. The worst part is that because I wasn’t aware enough to protect myself, I am currently stuck in a situation in which I have to deal […]

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To The Ones Who Don’t Understand

by Blake SinBad
written by Blake SinBad

You say you do. You say you understand. You say things like, “oh, I know exactly how you feel,” and, “I’m always here for you, I’ll never leave.” …but then there comes the time when you know you’re truly alone and that’s typically when you need them the most…and then they say, “well why can’t you just get over it?” and, “do you like being this way or something?”

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Well, what they can’t seem to understand is that in some cases you don’t want to change or get better, and in other cases, you simply just can’t…

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Sometimes even managing to open your eyes in the moment […]

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I hate

by kurdt kobian
written by kurdt kobian

Have you ever hated yourself so much, and despised yourself so much that you threw up? Or that you wanted just to destroy your self? God I hate me.  And everyone who cuts themselves or starves themselves or hates themselves knows it. I don’t want to hurt anyone, but I hurt deep down so much that it bubbles up and I keep lashing out at people and then they hate me and I hate myself more. It’s a lethal circle.

I hurt because I feel like a failure who will never amount to anything. I know my friends who know about this are getting annoyed because […]

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Sorry for another victim

by iamnoone
written by iamnoone

so I don’t exactly know what to write, i feel like one of those typical depressed teenagers begging for sympathy. thats basically why this is the first time I’ll be talking about the way I’m feeling. i always feel like I’m bothering someone or sounding stupid if I talk about how I’m sad but I’m doing this not for replies but to just so I can get stuff out .. well I’m sad, obviously .. found this site from patheticly googling “how many sleeping pills will it take to overdose” god I’m a joke. it’s just like everyday I […]

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The ultimate super power

by hateself
written by hateself

If u could be doctor manhattan would u? to know ur entire past present n future simultaneously, to b invulnerable n never fear, never die or age, have the ability to manipulate even entire planets with ur mind, to be the only one of your kind, having to watch the world and those around u die n age as u remain forever the same, to be alone?

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me against the world

by hateself
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i always feel like its just me against the world. Ive always been the kindof person with a sort of protective bubble or shield around me that no one can penetrate i kno my little bubble isnt ideal n wont help me feel any less lonely but it keeps me safe it makes me feel like i can handle things it gives me the confidence to be able to do things and kno that i will withstand the pressures of others. I also focus almost exclusively on myself making sure that when all is said n done that i achieve what i set out to […]

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by dead
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I wish I was a writer so I’d be able to write away these feelings, but I’m not. 26 letters, millions of ways to arrange them, and not a single one can set me free. Loneliness is a bitter thing, the way it creeps up on you. You can be surrounded by people, and still not belong. All I want is a place in this world, people who actually like me and want me around. I don’t want to be known as ___’s friend. I once belonged to a group of friends who decided they were fed up with my shit. The one year we […]

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First attempt at opening up…

by Masked Pain
written by Masked Pain

It hurt.

I expected it to hurt, but not this much.

Now I’m not trying to paint a picture of a soppy story of a teenager’s life that gets too much for her to handle. I don’t want your pity or anything from you, I just really need to get this out of my head and off of my chest.

I’ve attempted to commit suicide. Now I want to get this straight I absolutely hate suicide. I might even go to the lengths of saying that I “loath” it. It is a cowardly way to escape your problems, but I do understand why people do it. I […]

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