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The effects of suicide on family and friends.

I need to continue…

by JustKeepDreaming
written by JustKeepDreaming

Hi again..
It’s little old me.
I figured I would continue my story seeing as it has been really weighing me down lately.
So, uhm, yea, here I go…again..
Things continued that way for awhile, but then things got a little worse…or a little better depending how you look at it..
My mother and that guy got into fights, a lot, and very bad fights..
When I close my eyes I the silence, I can still here the shouting, screaming and the faint sirens in the distance..
Anyways, they ended up taking some time a part from one another, that would be good right?
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My feelings…. >-<

by Kassie Loves You c:
written by Kassie Loves You c:

So, I’ve liked a guy for 10 months now. And yesterday, while talking to him…I was hit with this feeling toward him. It was overwhelming, but amazing. It’s like… All feelings were built together and thrown at me. I can’t stop thinking about him. We talk everyday for endless hours, until one of us falls asleep. I have strong feelings toward him, but I don’t know what I am exactly feeling. v.v’

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I Can’t, Anymore.

by quiet_hearts
written by quiet_hearts

I am 25 years old. I have always had problems with depression, with self-harm; I’ve attempted suicide twice, and I promised myself that the third time would be the last; I won’t mess it up, next time. The third time will be the end.

The third time is all I can think about lately. I have lost everything, these past few months. Two years ago, I moved 1000 miles away from home; away from all my family, who spent my entire childhood abusing and neglecting me, and away from all my toxic friends that only dragged me down into their messes. I wanted a fresh start; […]

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Unwanted Children – another thing I wrote

by humansdestroyhumanity
written by humansdestroyhumanity

Let’s just honestly say, that many children’s creation upon this Earth was a mistake.  In several ways. People tend to deny these things, this entire post perhaps, but they avert their eyes when they do.  Then they rapidly change topic, start accusations of something you yourself have done, but they twist it around and make it sound as if they had no part in it….had no part in being the very reason why you did that (whatever it may be). And when you deny it, of being the sole factor in a certain exchanging of words, in a response, or an action, they lose what […]

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death is my only salvation

by st8remaster
written by st8remaster

i have always had depression.  my mother and father never gave me the time of day. when ever i wanted to talk to them they would ignore me and talk about something they wanted. i went goth by the 3rd grade and by the 4th grade all of the people i thought were my friends left me i was all alone. i was bullied non stop 3 years in a row later . i was assaulted, harassed, and almost attacked once. my family is probably the number one source that caused everything.  they always blame me for everything, never listen and treat me like crap. […]

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I’ll never been good enough for anyone.

by havefaithinme1004
written by havefaithinme1004

It kills my, it eats me up inside knowing that no matter what I do will ever be good enough for anyone. I let people control me and I do what they want me to do so they’re happy and it’s still not good enough. I’m still not doing it the right way or their way. I hate that I’m such a fuck up I can’t stand it. I’ve already tried killing myself before and my mom ran in on me and rushed me to the hospital. I couldn’t even do that right. I just wanna curl up and never come out of my room. […]

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I need advice

by Silentium!
written by Silentium!

It was only recently that I’d stumbled across a site like this, somewhere to put my thoughts, with complete strangers, unbiased views of a life.

As is everyone else for being here, I wish to end my life.

In my family, I am the oldest, naturally, the one with the highest of expectations.
I was also, in all technically, a bastard child, one with a father, if that should even be used, whom left, and said I was being created in the belly of a slut mother, who slept with everyone but him, hereby resulting in me not being blood to him.
As expected, he was simply […]

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A Story

by TheOneWhoStayed
written by TheOneWhoStayed

I just want to share a story, my story, for anyone that might care to read it.  It will probably be the only thing I post on this website.  You’ll never know who I am and I will never know who you are, but perhaps we’ll meet someday, get drunk together, and you’ll tell your story and mention a story you read on this stupid website and I’ll say “hey, that was me!  I wrote that!”.  And we’ll laugh about it and go build a bonfire in the woods and howl at the moon, or something.  That’s the kinda thing I like to do, anyway, […]

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It’s like Lower School all over again…

by OddOneOut
written by OddOneOut

There were these kids…they liked to push me over, then leave me alone until I was just on my feet again and getting up, where they would push me to the floor again.
Every time I was getting up I thought that they wouldn’t do it again, that it’d be the last time. But every time, they did it again. It was the worst form of taunting I’ve ever faced. The giving one hope then pushing to the floor (literally, in this case) act. Nothing is worse than giving a person hope then, just as that hope is settling in, destroying one’s life again.

I just […]

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What to do???

by boredom1999
written by boredom1999

When i was about two years old, my mum left me in a small house with an 11 year old babysitter for a whole weekend to get drunk.

I remember people telling me that i would have been in care if it wasn’t for my Dad, although now that i’m growing into my teenage years he doesn’t pay any attention to me. I live with my Nan and Granddad. My Granddad is maybe the only person i appreciate, along with my best friends. I obviously love my family, but i feel awkward around my Dad, and my Nan’s constantly drunk and angry, and she’s spending all […]

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Scared

by LostHedgehog
written by LostHedgehog

        I’m scared. I have a new boyfriend who is exactly the perfect guy of my dreams, but I’m scared of getting close with him. I’m to scared to really open up to him, he knows about my past of burning but he said that he figured it was something he didn’t need to mess with so he didn’t, I have been feeling the same worthless, useless, empty pain inside lately and I want to mention it to him but, hes so reserved I don’t want to scare him away. Usually I would talk to my friends but they have their own problems […]

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Him

by sleeplessinSTL
written by sleeplessinSTL

I miss him so much. I want my best friend back. I want to hug him and tell him just how much he means to me. I just want to see him again. I want so badly to see his bright blue eyes and blonde hair.

But I can’t.

He’s dead.

He would be ashamed of me. Drugs, alcohol, cutting, and my bitter attitude. Not much to be proud of.

There’s a part of me, though that thinks that he would be proud of me. I’ve been to hell and back, with both physical and emotional damages, but I’m still breathing. I can walk into a room and act […]

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Something I’ve learned

by loreildarksky
written by loreildarksky

You know, there’s something about depression that gets me… the way you are suddenly unable to see things clearly. It makes you ask why everyone stopped caring, and I wish I was told this when I was extremely depressed. Then again, that may have been the reason I learned it for myself…

Those people who you thought cared, and then abandoned you? It’s quite possible they actually did care, at least in the beginning. They saw something in you, and just because they chose to stop seeing it, doesn’t mean it’s not there anymore. It was there for them to see, and even if it’s not […]

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Tired

by la89
written by la89

I have now reached the point where I feel like I’m at the end of my rope. I am absolutely exhausted with trying to pretend that I am ok. I have had these intense feelings of loneliness and sadness lately and they are starting to become consuming. I have tried talking to everyone I know, but no one seems to understand. They tell me its just a phase or that things will get better just “try to be positive” (like I haven’t been trying). I have tried self medicating but the effects are only temporary.I tried cutting, but it just made me feel worse about […]

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this is it

by AlejandroCuban
written by AlejandroCuban

So I have been on this site for a while and I’ve seen some people that all they need is a friend. I wish I could help all of you I wish I could do something worth while. This site made me look at things differently it made me appreciate what I had and how long I’ve had it. But I cant keep going anymore, what happened was the straw that broke the camels back I’m leaving and I don’t know if I will be coming back.  The world is a cruel place and good people die because we can’t be as cruel as the […]

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My Body

by medownyou
written by medownyou

My body…

As i lay i count the amount of scars on my body. My broken cut ridden scarred body…

I start counting, and only count what is still visible after months to years of time for the wounds to heal. My scars all have a story of their own, and all signify a problem, feeling of hopelessness and lost cause, emotionless, a perfect day in hiding.

I count 10…54…71… 84 well that’s it for those that are visible in my shorts and cut off T-shirt. Most of them aren’t visible and overlap so it’s impossible to get an accurate count of them the ones that i have […]

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Freshman Year…

by LostHedgehog
written by LostHedgehog

My Freshman school year was complete utter hell. The summer before freshman year was something you would normally only have written in a crazy book or a fake story someone made up. I was a young 14 year old who was in a abusive relationship and after it was broken off it followed me into my first year of high school. He was telling everyone a bunch of insane stories about how we had sex everyday and he spent the night almost every weekend. The only time I ever saw him was when he was standing at my locker and then he either was asking […]

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Lonesome.

by Niftie
written by Niftie

Try to make moments merry, playing some tunes, attempt at lightening up the mood. Again dismissed, unwanted commentary. Once again surrounded by family but I feel so alone, unneeded, unnecessary, my appetite lost, my brief content from visiting relatives gone, in a heartbeat. I can’t wait to leave.

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I can’t

by Redheadd
written by Redheadd

I am 15 years old about to turn 16, I have attempted suicide before but my parents got me ‘help’. I had been doing good for the past months but lately it seems like my problems are coming back and the suicide thoughts are as well and I feel like thing won’t get better anymore. I don’t have anyone to talk to because no one really cares or seems to understand please help

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To: “Family”

by Niftie
written by Niftie

Mom: I cannot thank you enough for all that you have done for the family. Thank you for working so hard to pay for necessities, housing, and my medical bills. You will no longer have to deal with that though. The end is near. I’d like to also add that I wish you understood the way I have felt all of my life. The words I recall hearing still hurt me until this very day: “a mistake,” to Rebecca. The beatings were not a lesson learned, nor helpful to my self-development. Your yelling and screaming did nothing but torment me, I never wanted to hear […]

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