The effects of suicide on family and friends.
The boy I like has been noticing me more.. he’s been talking to me a lot lately, and I catch him looking at me. I want something to happen between us. But I’m scared if he knew everything about me he’d run in the other direction.
I was playing video games and my cousin comes by telling me that if I wanted to go to the mall. I not wanting to just stay home every day I went with him and his gf n baby. He’s 2 years older. The best part was after we came home and played video games. He said,” Hey, Nathan, wanna blaze it again?” I of course said yeah. We got an apple and smoked about 4 bowls before I got really high. I love it cuz it makes me talk a lot more but I can’t think straight. Hard to focus, no coordination. Stupidity caused […]
When your mother dies in your arms from the common flu you’re never the same. It is true what they say about being able to tell when a person’s soul leaves their body. Their eyes glaze over. They become unfocused black pools. It’s not a major event. It’s very tiny but it’s life changing. They say you go through stages of grief, but I think that’s all total bullshit. I never felt angry and I never felt the need to forgive her death. I feel absolutely nothing. Not that I didn’t love her. I loved […]
Dude, please don’t look at me right now. I don’t want to hear what you have to say. Sure, I tell you everything that happens, but you always have to witness it here too. It’s not just me being the ass here. You see him right?
Boy– I fucking get it, I’m a complete *****. And don’t you fucking basically point the finger at my friend, she’s sitting RIGHT HERE. >_> I change around my friends, get over it, if you can’t handle it– Â get the fuck out of this house. Oh wait, you live here and depend on my father even though you’re a 26 […]
Are there those moments where you feel like crying for no reason? Or punching something with so much force you could practicially brutally damage a body part?
At this moment I feel like crying, with the help of so many thoughts and images racing through my mind.
I may be young for my age but I know my fair share of torture, yes I have it great in others eyes, but can they honestly see past my disguise, hiding what I’m truly feeling and not telling a soul?
I’ve been in so much pressure lately.
I’m moving in less than a month and we have to clean, paint, stage […]
I’ve just lost the most important person in the world to me because of my depression. My boyfriend of one year broke up with me last night. One of my best friends says that he did it because he was afraid that he would lose me to suicide. He was afraid because he doesn’t know what it’s like to be at rock bottom, and therefore doesn’t understand which led to that fear. That makes sense, I guess. I’ve been doing a lot worse lately emotionally. I still haven’t cut or taken any pills in like a month though, but god, I just feel like such […]
I was always that little girl smiling everyday. I was a ballerina, you know. You would look at me and think I was always so happy. Wearing pink, giggling with my friends, dreaming of my future. I wanted to live in a mansion, with maids and butlers, and four children. I wanted to be a chef, a teacher, and a singer. Then I turned twelve. That’s when everything went downhill. I still remember the night of March so clearly. You know how they say when you die, your whole life flashes before your eyes? I’m telling you now, that whoever started that saying, is correct. […]
I have a Little drinking problem. I just wanted to write a quick poem to get things off my chest.
Just a poem i made about a love that broke my heart…
My parents seem like they don’t care about me anymore…. like there avoiding the situation.
My sister is driving me crazy. My life does not revolve around her! And I am so sick of her being jealous that I have a life! I’m sick of her taking over and forcing me to do things with her! She is the most annoying and boring person I know. She constantly asks questions about my friends, she tries to make me cancel things with them. Today I was shopping with her and I said “I can’t get this because I need money for tomorrow, I’m seeing Div.” she she said “just say you were sick or something,” I know it doesn’t sound that […]
You can sit there and yell at a 17-year-old girl as she’s crying her eyes out and “joking” about how much she wants to commit suicide… But, you won’t borrow 20$ from her best friend so you can stop being in pain…. ? There’s something wrong there.
You make me cry atleast 1-6 times a week, sometimes 1-5 times a day.. The only reason why I stay with you is because I love you. But. I love you so much I hate you. -_- so…fuck. You constantly call me a ***** while your last ex cheated on you while you were homeless, yelled at you, and […]
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Welp, I’m really pissed off -.-
Today I was suppose to hang out with my ex and his best friend (his friend and I kinda got involved after my ex broke up with me about a year and a half ago.)
This ex? Was my first. The reason why I’m pissed off? Multiple reasons.
First; as I said I was suppose to hang with my ex and his friend we’ll name them Matt (the ex) and Kyle (the friend). Matt has promised since the summer that we broke up that we could still be friends and hang out. Since the year and a half, I’ve only seen him, […]
I’ve started working out, stopped smoking and drinking. Ive tried to stop being so nitpicky with my friends and girlfriend, and it hasnt helped my depression or anger at all. I feel like exploding half the time. Â I know that everyone has to do the same things in life. But what if im not ok with that. Â Im so tired of no one being able to even try to understand how i see life. Im just expected to live like everyone else when I AM NOT like everyone else. Â It really makes the world a dark and lonely place when you know your not alone […]
I’m not sure what my old user name was, and I don’t really care anymore. Anyway, a little background just to see who cares. Granted no one will read this, let alone care.
i sit here contemplating about you. I wonder how perfect you are and my young obsession with you, almost 2 years back. I think about any chinks in your perfect complexion, but yet I still don’t see any. I watch your pictures I saved on my iPhone, from your Facebook. And can’t view yours after you blocked me and privates your profile after I mistakenly deleted you out of my misery filled stupor. All of this, stupidity, because you rejected me. I didn’t even know what I would say or how I would do it, especially when I can’t say it to your face. I’m […]
There are so many people on this site who are much older than me, and it makes me feel bad because they’ve tried so hard to keep going and I’ve already tried giving up at basically half their age. I think it’s weird when I think about being younger, like in primary school. It’s funny how oblivious we were when the cruelty of life hadn’t hit us yet. I wish I could go back to then. I want to go back to grade six where none of it mattered because I went to a small school with heaps of friends. I want to go back […]
Hi
This is my first post so bear with me…
I came across this messageboard to seek solace and understanding as two weeks ago today my cousin committed suicide. It pains me still to write and say those words.
Reading what some of you have written makes me have a greater understanding of the feelings and pain people suffer. I wanted to come across more people who have suffered a loss but there doesn’t seem to be many around on here.
Just like some of you will never understand or know how it feels to lose someone you love through suicide (if you are feeling suicidal, I imagine […]
I hate my life right now. Really really hate it.
The more I try to smooth things over between me and my parents, the more it all gets fucked up.
All of this mental & physical abuse has been going on for the past 20 years but I don’t think I can take it all anymore.
I’m getting weaker, day by day. I might give in to this flood & put myself out of my misery; not right now or maybe I might.
I don’t know, I’m just too weak willed to make any decision on my own but I guess there is always a first time […]
it’s pretty much what i’ve been doing the last 6 years (and a half) and i managed. but now i messed everything up. you see, i cut SUICIDE along my arm, from my elbow to my wrists (which is already covered with scars) and i cut a smiley into my right arm (which looks rather mad and sick as a scar) and i think i’m gonna have trouble hiding that since it’s summer now. and everyone knows that i never feel cold, so they’re gonna get suspicious if i start using that excuse. btw, no one knows about my depression and suicidal tendencies. i was […]
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