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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Day 6

by Nico The Robot 12/1/2016

written by Nico The Robot

Oh hey, it’s been a really long time. Nico here.

Just to tell you guys before I start, this post isn’t going to be as happy as my others. I’ll try to cheer up though soon.

My parents make me feel so useless and stupid.. This is the best that I’ve done in school and yet.. I was so proud of myself.. Haha.. It’s really useless isn’t it?.. No matter what I do.. They never appreciate it.. Guilt talking to make it seem like I’m the bad guy.. I’m done with them.. I know they care but I just.. I’m shattering under the pressure.. like a mirror.. […]

12/1/2016 0 comment

For those that need someone to talk to….

by HDs 12/1/2016

written by HDs

Hello to all,

I don’t pretend to know anyone’s situation or desire to end their life. What I do know is that I have lost many close friends to suicide and that during several low points in my life I have tried to kill myself at least a half a dozen times. These were not cries for help on my end, and I totally went for it with the most purpose driven determination possible. One such attempt put me in a coma for several weeks.

So I can definitely offer advice, empathy, and even sympathy to anyone who may need someone to talk to. I don’t and […]

12/1/2016 3 comments

I get it….

by WitheringHope 11/28/2016

written by WitheringHope

You told me you would always be there for me. You told me you were my best friend. Do you not realize you are my only friend? We haven’t spoken a meaningful word to each other in weeks, or was it months? I can’t remember anymore. The only thing I know is that it feels like the only person in my life, the person I live with, never seems to be anywhere close to me. I haven’t talked to anyone in a long time. No one wants to hear my boring pointless shit. I don’t blame you. I just can’t believe you rolled your eyes […]

11/28/2016 1 comment

I don’t know whats wrong with me.

by lulu1999 11/26/2016

written by lulu1999

A lot of the reason I don’t get along with my parents I think is just the generation gap. We were raised in very different times therefore we have different views and opinions on just about everything. And some of the problems are because they are stubborn and up-tight, but I just had the realization that most of it is my fault. I am a generally nice person. I go out of my way to do things for others, i sacrifice for my friends and family, but when it comes to my parents, I feel I am a totally different person. Almost every interaction I […]

11/26/2016 1 comment

I have seen my future and my childrens,childrens as well

by kupo95 11/26/2016

written by kupo95

I have realized that my whole existence is meaningless. but not only my life my family my friends my entire race.

I was born to be thief and liar for my entire life .so was my parents there parents and so forth .

The other day I realized the biggest dream anyone of my entire ethnicity is get married have a family and fancy cars and things . the value of said fancy things depends on who you marry .

All of the people I know kill them selfs for this dream and so did I when I was married and that’s it .

I saw my future getting […]

11/26/2016 2 comments

“You look happy, you can’t be dead inside.”

by Atrium 11/25/2016

written by Atrium

“There’s no way you are depressed, you look so active and talkative.”
“You’ve got a whole life ahead, you have a good life so I can’t find a reason why would you be in so much pain.”

These are the words that have been told by my parents for countless times.

I’m 22 years old girl in the eastern region who’s studying in the medical field. On the outside, I used to be a happy-go-lucky, active and energetic person, but deeply I knew that I worry a lot and have a turbulent mind. I always get easily surprised and overwhelmed and my heart […]

11/25/2016 2 comments

Don’t know what else to do…

by justadepressedgirl 11/24/2016

written by justadepressedgirl

Everyday just gets worse. I feel like I have nobody to talk to. Not only do the people at school criticize me, even my parents continue to do so all the time. My mom, I’ve always known she has a passionate hate towards me. I can see it in her eyes when she talks affectionately towards my elder brother and gives me a wicked glance.
I try so hard to get her to like me. But all of my past academic accomplishments aren’t enough for her. Whether it’s my brother, a cousin or a random stranger, my mom HAS to compare me and point out […]

11/24/2016 1 comment

Happy Thanksgiving, Mother Fuckers

by AKidWithAName 11/24/2016

written by AKidWithAName

I am coughing up blood. I don’t know why or how, seeing as I haven’t even really attempted suicide in awhile, but here I am coughing and vomiting blood. It’s not that I ate too much; I hardly ate anything. Maybe my body is finally ready to die. I didn’t even have to do anything. If I had known that just giving my body time to really fuck itself over would fuck me up this bad, I would’ve stopped attempting suicide years ago. Hell, maybe there is a God. Well, as much as I’d love to tell my parents that I’m really fucked right now, […]

11/24/2016 1 comment

i wish harry potter was real , i wish fantastic beasts were real , i wish magic was real , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

by niki 11/23/2016

written by niki

i wish harry potter was real really exist , i wish fantastic beasts were real really exist , i wish magic was real really exist , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

because reality is boring , mundane , and limiting limited
because real world is boring , mundane , and limited limiting
because real life is boring , mundane , & limited limiting !

reality is all about MONEY !
real-life is all about Money !
real-world is all about Money !

Life is boring , mundane ,
movies is better than reality real life real world !
novels is […]

11/23/2016 6 comments

What Kind of Title Will Accurately Describe This Feeling I Have in the Pit of My Stomach?

by LostandLonelySoul 11/22/2016

written by LostandLonelySoul

There are literally no words to describe this god awful feeling I have in the pit of my stomach right now. It’s the kind of feeling that you don’t really know how to describe. Do I want to punch somebody in the face? Do I want to punch myself in the face? Do I want to cry? Do I want to go out on an “angry run”? Do I honestly just want to sit here for hours and stare at the wall and do nothing? Do I want to do anything productive? Who the hell knows. All I know is, I hate feeling like this.

I […]

11/22/2016 2 comments

I’m sorry.

by Gekonexx 11/21/2016

written by Gekonexx

My story is quite long, posting for the first time here, but been here for some time.

Hi. I am 19 y/o boy, straight, white, from a good house. Everyone in my family have good scientific degrees, my aunt is a scientist, my father is an engineer and mother is very important persona in cultural areas of my city’s culture. Why am I writing this? My whole life is a constant pressure from my parents and family, all of them had or have successful life, all of them completed good schools and have very respected work positions (lawyer, scientist, engineer etc.). My family was constantly repeating […]

11/21/2016 8 comments

Competing

by Lawli 11/16/2016

written by Lawli

So I do Judo, I used to do it competitively but this year I stopped after my first international competition. Until then competing was a huge part of my life but I get extremely nervous months before a competition, which is part of why I stopped.

Recently I have been enjoying judo so much and feel I have gotten a lot better, I don’t know if it’s because I have stopped doing competition of something else but it makes me want to start competitions again. The only thing is I feel that if I start again I will lose the love I have right now for […]

11/16/2016 4 comments

An Aspirant Person

by away 11/14/2016

written by away

Lately, I’ve been having more and more social difficulties, namely with names (no pun intended) and overall conviction.

Typically, in an interaction, saying a participant’s name will have to happen at least once, but I can’t do it. I can’t say nor even type a person’s name, and if someone does it to me, I become extremely uncomfortable. It would be so much easier to call people numbers or something, kind of like the fact that I use Emoji in place of names on my mobile phone.

Along with that, I also have issues with conviction, instead displaying uncertainty by involuntarily adding, “I think” or, “Or whatever” to […]

11/14/2016 2 comments

She remains lost in time

by FadingFlame 11/13/2016

written by FadingFlame

I’m sorry for losing who I was and killing the girl you loved…and I’m sorry that you miss her..she is gone and left all the broken parts of herself with me…I pick up the pieces one by one hoping I can put her back together…but just when I think I might have this puzzle of pieces worked out I look down to see more pieces than there were before…and realize that all my effort, sweat, and tears were for nothing but this hollow person I’ve become..alone and misunderstood…always wanting a man that loves a girl that I no longer know how to be. I will […]

11/13/2016 1 comment

Tired…

by Madotsuki 11/8/2016

written by Madotsuki

I haven’t been sleeping well, or eating well.

This is normal for me now, but it’s affecting my grades.

But why should I care? My future doesn’t matter to me anymore.

My mom and dad always pressure me to study, to work hard, get good grades.

Numbers define me.

90%, 80%.

But what happens the day I fail?

Will you turn on me?

Why haven’t you bothered to ask what’s wrong?

I’m drowning.

Why won’t you swim out, in the sea of pressure, lies, everything-

Why won’t you come and at least try, try to save me?

11/8/2016 2 comments

Aggravated, I Guess

by AKidWithAName 11/6/2016

written by AKidWithAName

I am aggravated. Aggravated doesn’t really cover it, but that’s what I’ll say. Stressed-out-of-my-damn-mind is more accurate. But that doesn’t matter. I must be doing it to myself; no one else my age is stressed. It’s just me “seeking attention”. But, of that were really the case, I would at least hope that I would have realized that it hasn’t been working by now.

I am too afraid to live my life. This probably makes no sense to anyone, but I’m not writing this shit to be relatable or whatever. I’m writing this in hopes that I won’t want to die by the end of it. […]

11/6/2016 1 comment

Not Knowing

by renegadeRaenbow 11/5/2016

written by renegadeRaenbow

Not knowing what my future is going to hold is honestly starting to suck. I know we aren’t supposed to know, but I’m so scared for me and my husband right now. He isn’t okay and I know he’s scared. I hate myself for not knowing what to do. I’m scared for not knowing what this next year of medical bullshit we’ll have to go through brings. I’m scared I might hurt myself or even that I’m already at that point because I just don’t know.

I don’t know why I logged in here today. Or why I chose to tell you these things. It might […]

11/5/2016 1 comment

I Cry In My Sleep

by GerbzBaby 11/2/2016

written by GerbzBaby

Lately I’ve realized I’ve been crying in my sleep. It happens at least once or twice a month. This is weird because it has never happened to me but suddenly this year it started up (about a few months back). I consciously know I’m doing it, but, I cannot stop myself or wake myself up. This may sound odd but it hurts when I cry in my sleep too. I can’t explain it but from what I can remember It hurts my head..

I really hope these won’t be frequent..

11/2/2016 0 comment

I don’t know what to live for anymore

by Kingdaka 11/2/2016

written by Kingdaka

As I am typing this, I am on the verge of ending my life. I have never ever been this depressed since my grandfather died. I don’t know why I did it. I know that I should’ve not done it. Because of this, everything was taken from me. The fame, the sports, the hobbies, the clothing, etc. I don’t know why I even exist anymore. There is my dad who calls me names that I feel like he doesn’t love me anymore. He said so much bad things to me that I couldn’t even stand up to myself. My mom was in shock of why […]

11/2/2016 5 comments

There’s Something Terribly Wrong With My Mind

by Music Is My Escape 11/2/2016

written by Music Is My Escape

There’s something terribly wrong with my mind. I used to fall asleep fast, because that’s how excited I was about the day that would follow. I used to wake up in the morning, excited about going to school and seeing my friends and teachers. I used to smile a real smile at the people around me. I used to laugh when something funny happened, and added more humor to whatever it was. I used to not care at all about the negative treatments received from those bad people around me. I used to trust and open up to others when I needed to. I used […]

11/2/2016 2 comments

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