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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Lost

by jay7436 3/9/2016

written by jay7436

I have always dreamed of myself dying at a young age and I hope it happens. If someone asked me if I could reverse my birth, I know I would. There is no other possible answer for me. My family always says I’m useless, so why should I be here? I don’t ever get why some people say that life is a gift. Whenever I’m in the car, I always imagine some car or truck crashing into me, killing me. Instantly or not, I just want to die. But the one thing that is holding me back are my friends. My closest friend, we have […]

3/9/2016 8 comments

I am afraid of letting others in

by Pheonix79 3/9/2016

written by Pheonix79

My mother is always helpful and so is the rest of the family. But if I do something they don’t expect, even they lash out at me. I don’t want to let them know how I feel. Maybe because my brothers and parents have always been so strong. I don’t think they will ever understand my condition.
I have multiple reasons why I feel like suicide is better idea. One of them is my religion. I hate it. There is too much violence. If I breathe a word against the belief of my religion, I might be burned alive. And yes that is allowed in […]

3/9/2016 3 comments

You know my family?

by crockpot14 3/8/2016

written by crockpot14

Today in class I tried brushing the topic that I could be suicidal and depressed, and I was talking to a friend of mine, and he was like “I hate her, she pisses me off, she makes me want to kill myself.” And after he said that I looked at him and was like, “first off the fuck bro?” and “Don’t say that, because you don’t mean it, there are people in this school who actually want to leave this earth for good and you saying that doesn’t help anything. Try not to say it anymore, okay?”

I basically had to tell him […]

3/8/2016 6 comments

New Face

by betterlife 3/8/2016

written by betterlife

I’m astounded I never heard of suicide project before, seeing as I’ve fantasized about, planned and studied suicide for many many years. Whenever I dare to get close enough with someone that I might actually feel happy, they sense my deep depression and ask the inevitable – are you suicidal? That doesn’t satisfy them, no. They have to go further. How often do you think of suicide? That’s when they flee.

The bonds I need in order to cease feeling suicidal are not available to me until I’m no longer suicidal.

And around and around we go.

3/8/2016 6 comments

Help…?

by GerbzBaby 3/6/2016

written by GerbzBaby

I don’t want to seem like that person who wants to seak attention when I rant or cry out for help on here. I always feel like that’s the case.. But can someone please try and convince me not to do something stupid.. At least by tomorrow..before I go to work…

3/6/2016 6 comments

Ending it tonight. Life doesn’t get better.

by N0Futur3 3/4/2016

written by N0Futur3

Wished I ended it that first night I joined. Life doesn’t get better, it’s just a lie. Funny how people say suicide is selfish, what is selfish is them expecting someone to continue living a life of pain because they want them to. You say family, friends, community get hurt… Fuck them they don’t give a shit about me. No matter how hard I try, it is not good enough in their eyes. We live in a fucked up society and world, fake people smiling…. They are the ones who need real help. I’m done….. I’m done living this fucked up life in this fucked […]

3/4/2016 37 comments

Warrior

by BloodShallShed 3/4/2016

written by BloodShallShed

This song reaches out to those of us who have been told that they can’t do something, or to those of us who have had their hopes, dreams, and hearts ripped out. You can keep going. Inside all of us, there’s a warrior <3. Stay safe everyone.

-BloodShallShed

3/4/2016 0 comment

Hey guys (Long but please read)

by BloodShallShed 3/4/2016

written by BloodShallShed

I know that sometimes life is rough, and you feel that you can’t make it through the night or through the day. Some of us feel it necessary to drink or do drugs just to make it through. But I just want you to know that everyone is special, and that even though life doesn’t seem worth living, it’s best to keep going. There may be a nice surprise around the corner, and it’s just for you. I can’t tell you what it is, I don’t know what lies ahead, I don’t know if it’ll get worse before it gets better. But I know that […]

3/4/2016 12 comments

Stories in the Dark

by BloodShallShed 3/3/2016

written by BloodShallShed

This song helped me when I was down, it helps you realize that you have people that care about you, even if they are far away or gone themselves. Stay safe everyone

-BloodShallShed

3/3/2016 2 comments

For everyone that feels their life is done..

by BloodShallShed 3/3/2016

written by BloodShallShed

This is one of my favorite songs to listen to when I’m down. I hope that you all like it. Stay safe everyone.

-BloodShallShed

3/3/2016 5 comments

My mother killed herself and I found her body.

by Goldie 3/2/2016

written by Goldie

My mum had always romanticized death. I suppose she thought she’d pass away, be found, and after some tears and a funeral, people would get over it. To say she was wrong is a vast understatement. I know my mum, and if she knew things would have turned out the way they did, she never would have done it.

Being that this is posted in what the effects of suicide has on friends and family, let me dump it all out.

I last saw my mum on a Friday and told her I’d pop by on the upcoming Monday or Tuesday. She seemed totally fine. I woke […]

3/2/2016 23 comments

No Reason to Fight

by -M- 2/29/2016

written by -M-

I don’t know why I keep fighting through this shithole called life. Every force, being, and power is pushing against me, hoping to drive my head further into the darkness. The worst part is I am losing. I have to reason to push through to the invisible light at the end of hell; I have lost the traction that helped move my feet forward. I cannot do this anymore. It really is easier to let go of everything, even including yourself.

2/29/2016 2 comments

Purpose in Life

by lxmyrick 2/29/2016

written by lxmyrick

To let you all know that think about suicide that life is for a reason. I have suffered from brain cancer and depression; and I thought that my life was worthless. But I started to see a therapist and I took medicines. Now I am in school and I help anyone with common issues.
So I was 5 years old and I was told that I had cancer. I have had lots of treatment, with medicine with lots of needles. So I had 4 years of treatment and I have been in remission ever since. Then after being a 6 years cancer survivor, I started […]

2/29/2016 3 comments

Honoring The Fallen. The Ascended. The Free.

by HERE4UOK 2/29/2016

written by HERE4UOK

Hello SP –

Looking for your help with a small project.

I need to know about any confirmed departed fellow members you can share.

I am putting together a tribute video (or trying to at this point) and would greatly appreciate your kind assistance.

Their member name is enough. I’ll search the site for their posts and quote highlights from their words.

Thank You!

HERE4UOK

2/29/2016 31 comments

Protected: It’s official.

by whiskered-fish 2/28/2016

written by whiskered-fish

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2/28/2016 46 comments

nobody is obligated to do anything for me.

by ShortOne 2/27/2016

written by ShortOne

i just survived one of the worst times in my life. i was happy, i had friends, and i threw it all away for a manipulative asshole. i’m usually dissapointed in myself anyways but as of right now ive never hated my guts as much as i do now.

i cant beleive i let something like that slip away from me. i cant beleive i betrayed a friend, rationalizing, thinking everything would be okay. i still cant beleive how much of an idiot i am.

i feel so bad when anyone has to be around me. i feel fucking awful when people get close to me. all […]

2/27/2016 8 comments

Protected: The worst part is the collateral damage.

by whiskered-fish 2/27/2016

written by whiskered-fish

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2/27/2016 6 comments

a frank and rational post about suicide

by herecomestheavalanche 2/27/2016

written by herecomestheavalanche

as i lay in my bed on this beautiful saturday morning, i couldn’t help but think.

i just do not want to be here anymore.

i had not one reason to leave my cocoon this morning. the only reason i got up out of bed, at 1 in the afternoon, was to use the washroom.

i wish i could talk about this, these feelings, with someone in real life without getting into trouble. i just do not want to be here anymore. i do not want to be in a hospital, but i do not want to be me, alone, in this apartment, anymore.

it’s just become way too […]

2/27/2016 7 comments

Never Knowing What To Say

by crockpot14 2/24/2016

written by crockpot14

When you are talking to your friends and they make “harmless” jokes about what you feel and what you do to yourself everyday, what do you say?

I know they do not know what happens when I’m home by myself, but they always make self-harm jokes or suicide jokes. I have recently been trying to open up more to my friends and to actually talk to people but I haven’t gotten to the really deep stuff, and I probably never will. But I have tried getting them to stop using jokes about self-harming or suicide but they just question why I am saying to stop.

Everyday they […]

2/24/2016 2 comments

Where are we now?

by Knightofdoom 2/23/2016

written by Knightofdoom

How can we all be so sad? Do you guys actually feel connected ? I see some old and some new, do we really help, or prolong doomed options?

I’m a drifter I’m come and go. . .

Cause I one day I find hope and the next dispair…

Which I believe is worse, my duel personalites are tearing me apart…

Where are you? Deep in your hole climbing or looking down?

2/23/2016 11 comments

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