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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Complicated Situation

by KH 6/10/2015

written by KH

So I managed to stay the whole day at school today, which made it a promising day. What was bad was what came after it.

I don’t know if it’s just me causing all of these problems in my relationship or if it’s naturally strenuous because of how me and my boyfriend are. Regardless, I got pretty upset today. To cut a very long, ongoin story/conversation short; I don’t believe he is making enough effort in our relationship. We never do anything, and all I’ve asked him is that one night when the majority of people aren’t there if we just take a walk down to […]

6/10/2015 0 comment

I do not know what I want to say.. but help? advice? tips? anything?

by munckin 6/10/2015

written by munckin

So, I just started a new job… I took it for several reasons:
a) I earn 300 euro more compared to before and could depending on my performance boost this with another 60% of my total salary… But this is just money. I hate it.
b) Maybe it is the same as the above as I am currently in dept more or less… because of the drugs. I actually took the job (partly) so that I could support this lifestyle, while thinking I would be able to make my life more stable with a 9 till 5 job rather then one in which my hours […]

6/10/2015 2 comments

So…I’m New

by Noonenoes 6/10/2015

written by Noonenoes

Its like 2:30, i’m still awake for no real reason other than debating whether I should go to work in the morning or just not go and die at a relatively soon timing. I’ve had serious thoughts about not existing since late elementary to early middle school and its just developed into a sad hobby of sorts. I’ve spent at least half an hour to an hour daily recently looking up different ways to kill myself and I think the only reason I haven’t done it yet is that my biggest fear is failing and being unable to make another attempt for whatever reason. My […]

6/10/2015 1 comment

How I feel I guess

by KH 6/7/2015

written by KH

I’ve just realised how vague my previous post was, which may delay the process in receiving some form of helpful reply.

Ill try to put into words this feeling.

I can’t do anything right. No matter what I say or do or how I look. The phrase “no-once cares unless you’re pretty or dying” comes to mind. Of which only one applies to me, and I can certainly say that my appearance has had no positive impact on my life. I feel empty but at the same time I feel nothing, so really the question is – do I really feel anything at all? Am I forcing […]

6/7/2015 5 comments

First Post here…

by KH 6/7/2015

written by KH

I thought by coming across a site like this would enable me to actually be able to rant about something, anything, so that my mind would be clear for a moment. But sitting here, typing this out, I’m struggling with how to put into words something which might catch someone’s attention who may be going through something similar. Someone I can relate to. The majority of people on here I suppose will all have similar background stories or specific tragedies which crossover with someone else’s, and so a relationship forms as these crossover people discover each other and help. My issue is; despite knowing the […]

6/7/2015 6 comments

I’m Treated Differently

by GerbzBaby 6/6/2015

written by GerbzBaby

From how my friends and family treat my sisters is a lot different from how I’m treated. I alway tell my parents I see how excited and more outgoing my friends are around them, and when they approach me they seem bored and more reluctant to talk to someone else.

My parents seem to think I’m just imagining things. They tell me I’m just taking their actions differently, and that they still love me. But I can’t see it. Every time I invite a friend over they smile and greet me, and before long they ditch me for them.

I’m not angry, nor do I blame my […]

6/6/2015 1 comment

Enough of this life

by thegirlwhodied 6/6/2015

written by thegirlwhodied

I just had a massive fight with my family. Its my finals week and last terms finals week my dad asked me if I could stay at someone else’s house. This time I asked my dad “is your offer still valid” and he said yes. I was packing and my mother came and started screaming. She said i humiliated her in every term of my life and told me to fuck off. We are always fighting and they are always saying bad words. Okay I accept that I am a pain in the ass when it comes to school but thats too much for me. […]

6/6/2015 2 comments

Kill me, Please

by please just let me die 6/6/2015

written by please just let me die

Okay. today sucked. Woke up getting yelled at for shit I didn’t do. Went to sleep with people doing stupid shit. Okay so you should fucking know that if you have a damn headache , NOT TO FUCKING SIT AND WATCH LOUD ASS VIDEOS WITH YOUR GODDAMN HEADPHONES ON WITH THE VOLUME UP TO 100. But NO god FUCKING forbid you do it anyways. Is it helping you? DO YOU FEEL ANY BETTER? SO HOW DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL? HOW DOES IT MAKE YOU FUCKING FEEL TO SAY YOU LOVE ME THEN FUCKING IGNORE ME? DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD? CAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE […]

6/6/2015 1 comment

Why does no one want to spend time with me…

by please just let me die 6/4/2015

written by please just let me die

So, I know I’m a terrible person to people I honestly hate, but as for the people who I try to be nice to and care for… WHY CAN’T YOU SPEND FIVE FUCKING MINUTES WITH ME. I really don’t understand how hard it is just to get off an Xbox, or take a few minutes after you get off work, or a simple moment when you get out of school just to talk to me or hang out with me. I mean…. I actually TRIED with you. Even after I gave up on everyone else, I stuck with YOU. Not him or her, not the […]

6/4/2015 2 comments

30 day Count-Down: 3rd post

by XcomingdownX5fdp 6/3/2015

written by XcomingdownX5fdp

26 days left.

I still haven’t met anyone since the previous posts. not even on the dating apps. Every day, on tinder, I hit the max amount of right swipes allowed, yet I never get a response from even one person. The other apps just remain silent. No notifications, no messages, nothing. I tried meeting people over the weekend by going to a few bars. but it just wasn’t my scene. Everyone I talked to looked at me like I didn’t belong there. I hate this feeling of neglect. I’m useless, absolutely fucking useless. I’m begining to think this whole 30 days to meet people thing […]

6/3/2015 3 comments

desperate

by treekoke1 6/1/2015

written by treekoke1

I am 18 years old im not posting this for any other reason than to just do it, my lifes not always been easy but its not always been hard either ill admit that however all my life I’ve had bi polar schizophrenia I didn’t know about this till very recently and well my familys abandoned me they lied threw me out hell my moms a special ed teacher and well I never knew how hard this was going to be but I tried to commit suicide when I was 16 I rehabilitated and focused on positives it was ok till I was thrown out […]

6/1/2015 2 comments

Nash Grier’s Advice for Self Harmers

by ghost187 5/31/2015

written by ghost187

“My advice for self harmers would be that it’s not worth it. Your bodies a temple and you don’t wanna take out on your body just for like an emotion you’re feeling. You know you can like take it out on something like go boxing. Just don’t. You shouldn’t be hurting your own body ever. Never. Like unless it’s an accident, which I do all the time, but don’t ever purposely do that. But if anyone knows anyone dealing with something like that er or even remotely close to that, what I would say is look at the individual. Don’t look at the scars. […]

5/31/2015 3 comments

alone .

by unexplainedfeelings189 5/30/2015

written by unexplainedfeelings189

Yeah soo this is my second post .. I’m thankful for the people on here cause you guys are so nice and actually care and understand each other..

I hope that we can get to know each other and get through these times together(: well here’s some more about my dysfunctional life..: Everyone ! I SWEAR EVERYONE !

Leaves.. they just do.. they pretend that your their best friend and blah blah blah but they just play around with your feelings.. i have been through 7 friends who just leave..

and it really kills me inside .. i just try […]

5/30/2015 6 comments

Broken hearted prayer

by broken123 5/30/2015

written by broken123

Dear God,
I know everyone has hard times in their life. I know people all go through different times, extents, and ways of bad. But I’m wondering why mine seems to be the worst case scenario on all accounts. I’m wondering why I can remember more bad times than good. I know there will be bad times. But there has to be good times too. I’m wondering why you took my mom away. Things seem just have gotten a different type of bad now that she’s gone. My step dad is now drinking himself to death and picking up all my moms old habits. Why […]

5/30/2015 4 comments

30 day count down: 2nd post

by XcomingdownX5fdp 5/29/2015

written by XcomingdownX5fdp

28 days left

I found someone one a dating site last night who had many similar interests. We talked all night and then some today. I felt happy for the first time in a while. She started flirting with me and I honestly couldn’t believe it. We agreed to meet up next week to go hiking. Of course my fucked up mind instantly fell in love which never ends well. Turns out she likes some other person. Not sure why she’s on a dating site if she isn’t looking for someone. Maybe she just lied about liking someone after seeing my picture. Can’t blame her, I’m […]

5/29/2015 4 comments

Becoming numb and feral

by sadboyneedshelp 5/28/2015

written by sadboyneedshelp

I need serious help. I grew up to be nice and everything but I’m just not built for this world and I’ve been noticing I’ve become an absolute dick to people and in a way I kind of enjoy it. It makes me feel like I’m in control for once and I’m not the victim. I enjoy making my girlfriends cry over me and all that bullshit. But sometimes I go back to my older mind state and I just become suicidal. I feel like my time is only getting nearer before I snap and finally just do it. I can’t trust any of my […]

5/28/2015 3 comments

Friendships never last.

by Terrible 5/28/2015

written by Terrible

When push came to shove, and I found that most of my friends left me. It seemed like they had left me to die.

I will never forgive some of them for leaving me when I needed someone. I felt so alone already, and when they left, I fell into a deeper depression than I was already in.

I guess I’m writing this to tell the truth. Most friendships don’t last. I was friends with someone for 11 years, and as soon as high school came around, everything changed for good. We drifted apart, as people do, and became different people.

We don’t talk anymore. There are still […]

5/28/2015 2 comments

30 days left

by XcomingdownX5fdp 5/28/2015

written by XcomingdownX5fdp

I’m fucking done with this world, I’m sick of being so alone. I have no one to turn to. My fucked up brain ends up making me no fun to be around. I have severe deppresion, bipolar disorder, ADD and insomnia. So I stay up all night constantly imagining what the ceiling would look like if it were painted with my brains. I’m not a bad person, I do everything in my power to help others and do the right thing. But it always backfires. I’m so close to ending it , i’ve been like this for years. The only reason I haven’t gone through […]

5/28/2015 8 comments

i guess i’m just really f*cked up

by Everly_182 5/27/2015

written by Everly_182

basically for over 3 years now i wake up with the same question in my head, what happened?/when did i start to feel this way?/what the hell caused this?! for 3 years now, I still have no clue. Why am i so sad? why am i even depressed? why is it every time I’m hanging out with my family or my friends i feel alone and empty? I’ve literally lost myself. I’m not the same anymore. I don’t find excitement or happiness in the things that i used to, i don’t want to hang out with any one anymore, all I wanna do is be left […]

5/27/2015 3 comments

im tired of being alone

by XcomingdownX5fdp 5/27/2015

written by XcomingdownX5fdp

I don’t want to live for another minute. I’m 22 and I don’t want to make it to 23. I’m sick of being alone. I’m sick of having no friends, no one to turn to, and no one to rely on. I was put on this earth with a fucked up brain. I have bipolar disorder which goes hand in hand with the severe depression. And if that wasn’t enough, I have insomnia that keeps me up at night and ADD so I can never concentrate for more than 5 fucking minutes. I hate it. I haven’t felt happy for so god damned long. Being […]

5/27/2015 7 comments

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