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delaying the inevitable

by tphg 7/24/2014

written by tphg

I’m not sick. I don’t have relationship/family issues. I’m not living in poverty. I’m not anyone’s subject of ridicule. I don’t have any important responsibilities (pets, children). Things are going well for me. I moved into a fantastic apartment last week after staying with my mum for 5 months (before that I was living with my girlfriend, but it didn’t work out). My job is mind numbing but pays really well, and the atmosphere is very relaxed. I should be studying right now (because I want a better job) but whenever I sit down to, I don’t.

I have lots of ideas for things I want […]

7/24/2014 2 comments

Confession

by Dollycutter 7/24/2014

written by Dollycutter

The relative anonymity of this site makes this possible. I have a soul that thrives on confession and a mind that recognizes when that’s a bad thing.

A month or so before finding out I was pregnant with my second son I attempted suicide. I was in a very abusive relationship and I felt trapped. Looking back I am aware that wasn’t the case but it felt like it. On top of the abuse I dealt with a lifelong sense of worthlessness and insecurity.

I consumed nearly a fifth of cheap vodka as fast as I could and ate 20 percocets. My boyfriend found me […]

7/24/2014 1 comment

Just make the call and take it all again..

by alina_01 7/24/2014

written by alina_01

Can the pain just stop, can it just FUCKEN stop for fucks sake. Can I get a chance to breathe can I catch a FUCKEN break?!!! Why, why the fuck do all these issues have to pile up why does life have to be so FUCKEN hard???! I swear times like this death seems like the right way to go. I genuinely try, I try so FUCKEN hard but life doesn’t get any easier. I carry around this FUCKEN pain and there’s nothing I can do to get rid of it!!! Because this pain is from the relazation of how fucked up life is!!! How […]

7/24/2014 3 comments

Boy interrupted

by New Shoes 7/24/2014

written by New Shoes

A documentary about depression and suicide. It follows a boy from birth to his suicide. It shows how powerful depression is. He started talking about and planing his death by the age of 5 and succeeded at the age of 15. It even showed that it was multi generational in his family. For people that don’t believe, you will see how strong the pain is and the struggle to hang on to prevent pain to loved ones seems unbearable.

7/24/2014 0 comment

day one

by emwhy 7/24/2014

written by emwhy

I’m behind on social media, what with the lack of smart phone and all but I thought I’d start something like a “100 happy days” log. I may be getting a new phone next month with a functioning camera but for now, I can only post words. What I once saw as a boastful and patronizing project I now understand that writing out the positive parts of your day can surely have therapeutic benefits.
It’s really just for personal documentation but if anyone is reading, I hope you can draw some inspiration or hope from this. Even though days often seem long and empty, there can always be […]

7/24/2014 0 comment

im trying t stop

by iwantyoutostay 7/24/2014

written by iwantyoutostay

I really wanna cut myself. Im trying so hard not too but I knw its going to happen.. im gettn angry wit myself for thinkn like this. Ive hidden it for so long. ..

7/24/2014 5 comments

Surviving Suicide

by kolenczuk 7/24/2014

written by kolenczuk

I felt the need to post this…

I lost my seventeen year old daughter to suicide on May 31. She hung herself in our garage. This has devastated our family and all of her friends. We miss her so much. I know many of you feel so helpless and so sad. But please consider the pain that you will cause others by taking your own life. You are more important to your loved ones that you could ever know. Please know that they love you and will miss you dearly. Now that I no longer have my beautiful daughter in my life, I have lost my […]

7/24/2014 8 comments

kill ted nugent..pretty please?

by misanthrope 7/24/2014

written by misanthrope

I have considered suicide and homicide intermittently for years because I have trouble living with the knowledge of how horrible people are,and the despicable things they do. I feel more homicidal tonight,but thats a Good thing..its much less painful,and its pretty fucking fun,too.. If you could take a moment to consider my note,id appreciate it immensely. Has anyone ever heard of a song called “Wang Dang Sweet Poontang”? Well,look-if not you need to jump over to Youtube and witness the spectacle of a loincloth/ bikini clad Ted Nugent wearing Uggs (of course I know theyre not real Uggs,duh.they werent IN back then,but it sounds funnier.he […]

7/24/2014 102 comments

I’m so sorry.

by shhyanne 7/24/2014

written by shhyanne

every single time someone looked me in the eyes and asked me why I couldn’t do it, I would tell them it was because of you. I couldn’t imagine putting you through that. I never wanted you to have to worry about me. I was suppose to take care of you, I was suppose to be the one burying you, in many, many years. but here I am, the rope already tied. I’m going to use the chair I’m sitting on, it’s from the kitchen table I hope you don’t mind.

don’t blame yourself because you did everything you could. and please don’t mourn because we […]

7/24/2014 1 comment

Dont be scared to take the stairway to heaven

by Stairway to heaven 7/24/2014

written by Stairway to heaven

The only thing that burns in Hell is the part of you that won’t let go of your life; your memories, your attachments. They burn ’em all away. But they’re not punishing you, he said. They’re freeing your soul. […] If you’re frightened of dying and holding on, you’ll see devils tearing your life away. But if you’ve made your peace then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the Earth

7/24/2014 1 comment

by BEENTHROUGH 7/24/2014

written by BEENTHROUGH

Hey. Here goes.I did not want to talk about this to anyone ,because in my family no one understands ,its just the way they look at me when i try to talk to someone.Its that look ,when u feel,people are listening just because they have to,not because they want to… I was born in a family with rooted alcoholism.My mothers father was a heavyweight drinker and so was my father.So the fights,physical and psychological were on daily bases.I started to develop this person in my own world.i used to lock myself in my room,put my headphones on and got lost in music.I was talented musician.In […]

7/24/2014 2 comments

My sin … is my very existence

by lamentofthelamb 7/24/2014

written by lamentofthelamb

Vietnam, July 24

I just came back from one failed year studying in France. After one year, I realized that I didn’t study what I really wanted. So why, why did I go ?

The first thing my father noticed, when I stepped out the door of the aeroport, frustrated having to leave the solitude on the 12-hour flight, was that I did not greet him. He took no time to inform my mother about my misbehavior. A good child should «know your place», and I know that very well. But I hate good boys […]

7/24/2014 0 comment

May be the end..

by MariahXX 7/24/2014

written by MariahXX

Okay. I am really starting to get sick and tired of all the people who judge other people in this world. Why do you have to judge? It isn’t you is it? Nobody seems to care now adays. All I do is sit in my room and cry and feel like I am dying I the inside honestly. I never talk in school. I am scared to because of what people will say or judge me about then. I have to wear long sleeves all the time, or a bunch of bracelets. One or te other. That isn’t good is it? That’s what this world […]

7/24/2014 0 comment

by MariahXX 7/24/2014

written by MariahXX

When I am upset or seriously depressed I listen to music. Hateful and sad. Maybe that isn’t the best thing to do but after I get passed all of the crying and cutting, and panic attacks, I feel great again. My mother saw my scars for the first time today. I have always been so good at hiding them. I can’t believe I was not paying attention. I feel terrible for that. It isn’t her fault. It’s everyone else’s. I really want to speak to her about it but I am so scared. What if she does not love me anymore. My father used to […]

7/24/2014 10 comments

three.

by emwhy 7/24/2014

written by emwhy

Sometimes I have off days but tonight I feel a surge of energy and hope. Every day is a blank canvas to rejuvenate your life, edit your story. I have an agenda for tomorrow which probably contributes to this new-found optimism. I’ve forgotten how rewarding it feels to set goals, actually work towards them, and obtain results. The most crippling thing I can do to myself is sit at home and give in to lazy indulgences. I’ve been putting off my responsibilities for far too long.

I’ll start my day with a cardio workout in the morning. I’ll reply to my little Brother’s email from BBBS. I’ll start […]

7/24/2014 1 comment

problem with typing

by paradoxicalsoul 7/24/2014

written by paradoxicalsoul

Does anybody know why it wont let me type on my computer but it will on my phone and why my antivirus keeps telling me the website has a virus?

7/24/2014 0 comment

charcoal methode

by mason1031 7/23/2014

written by mason1031

as anyone tried this method if so what where your experience’s.

7/23/2014 4 comments

I am Jack’s Drunken Rage

by Nullify 7/23/2014

written by Nullify

Anyone else sick of people telling them they drink too much? I mean, alcohol has been around since before written history. Do you honestly think the cavemen ever said “Ugh oog agga ooga boo boo.”? (Translation: Jack, I think you’ve had too much to drink.). I mean damn. When those motherfuckers wanted a woman they’d hit ’em over the head with a wooden club and drag them to their cave by their hair. And that shit was the norm. So what if I drink a bit too much a grab a butt that doesn’t belong to me? Motherfuckin’ human nature bitches.

7/23/2014 8 comments

Thank you

by Ashley 7/23/2014

written by Ashley

I haven’t been on here in maybe a year? I would like to say that i was goin through the worst part in my life thus far, and last month my Dr. took me off ALL my medication. That’s right people, no more horsepills, iron pills, or steroids for this girl! I get depressed still from time to time, but it’s much more controllable. This site has helped me vent everything I couldn’t say before. My weight came back, my boobs came back, all the steroid acne went away and i am back to being the blonde that everyone checked out. My self confidence has […]

7/23/2014 2 comments

This Is Not an Exit

by Nullify 7/23/2014

written by Nullify

I’d like to start this off by saying hello to all you fellow less than content members of the human race (or Realists as I like to refer to us). I’m new to both this site and the general concept of sharing my darkest, innermost thoughts. So, you know, bear with me if it takes a little while for me to fully open up (or at least until I’ve gotten a few more beers in me). I’ve always been more of the silent, keep my thoughts to myself type. I suppose I’ve been of the mindset that as long as my issues aren’t vocalized, they […]

7/23/2014 20 comments

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