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A one line philosophical view without supporting deductions?! Madness!
Everything that exists is irrelevant; everything that is relevant does not exist.
An even shorter poem hiding in plain sight?! FUUUUU…
Uncertain steps taken towards truth
Through this daunting task we progress
Only calamity seems to issue
Truth is there, do not distress
So…I’ve got a lot of mental problems, but that hasn’t stopped me from helping out other people with problems. My friend asked me something the other day that got me thinking…
What gives me, a person with too many problems to count, the right to tell people what to do about their own problems?
My argument was that, no I don’t have a right. But who on the internet does?
I may not be qualified, but I’m suffering through this for a reason. And that reason is to help others with the same problems.
I haven’t overcome my problems because I don’t want help. I’m too far gone for […]
What is this, a poem for ants!
Oh terrible and wretched affliction
thine own self bestowed unknown trickery
Repressive eclipse—
Waking moments turned jaded reverie
Respite after paroxysm episodes
Plead for thine eyes; life’s mirage. Soft spoken,
drink blissful nepenthe—
and descend forth to tenebrous token
Holy Neptune Batman! An even shorter poem!
Who is the end’s envoy?
Will its arrival be declared
With pomp and importance
Like a leader to a city endeared?
If it be such an obtuse show
Will it be righteous celebration
Or rage filled exclamation
Like our own universe’s consummation?
Perhaps the end will visit unnoticed
Conducting with the subtle poise
Of a rehearsed performance
Conclusion marked through but the lack of noise
Look! Short poem. Perfect for killing time without committing to heavy reading!
Once there was a man whose
Dreams were realised while he slept
Resplendent façade—
Problems ameliorated as he dreamt
The man would fall asleep
Before the sun went fully down
And woke after it
Had rose and obscured reality known
One night he woke with a start and
Stared into black abyss
Disoriented—
Truth existed there in dark recess
Never did the man dream
Of money nor success again
Now he stays awake
The dreams forgot, the truth retain
I’m so tired. Sometimes I just want someone to know there are problems beyond cutting… but not everyone can know. And if I tell one person, everybody will know. That’s why it shall always stay a secret. Everybody’s entitled to a secret, right? Well, this one is mine.
This is the first time I’ve ever publically posted/said that I am in as much pain as I am. I’ve hidden it for years, even when I was a young teen. When I was little I thought everybody had bad days like mine: times when the world looked grey, when even speaking was difficult, when my soul felt sucked from me. I’m too afraid to truly come out and tell anyone around me how I really feel. They’ll all just say “Just put on a smile and look on the bright side” or “It’ll be okay, just buck up”. Can’t anyone see that I can’t […]
This is my story from the start http://suicideproject.org/2013/07/my-story-161/ please reaad that first before continuing down so you will understand the bits that i’ve missed out.
So you have read the beginnings and the main depth of what happened in my child/teen life. Heres some that i have missed out like my eating disorder , suicide attempt and the visions and self harm.
Im going to start off with the visions i get when i have anxiety attacks or panic attacks i haven’t told anyone what i hear, see or feeling during these episodes. Not even my psychiatrist. Well i get flash backs of the that night i got […]
I read that when you have an orgasm that it is impossible for you to feel any pain, i had this idea that the moment you reach orgasm would be a good time to stab yourself through the heart or jump by hanging, when i cum it lasts for well over 1 minute which might be ideal for the athame through the flames..
I read this scientific study of what happens to the human brain when a person is having an orgasm & in the brain scan the studies showed that the […]
It is amazing how much people judge suicidal people and it is not only the non suicidal. Within the ranks of suicidal the old are judging the young, the traumatized judging the better off and probably even a division within different diagnosis, depressed versus manic possibly. Everyone is trying to legitimise their own reasons, trying to be the most deserving of death. I do not think it matters why you choose to attempt suicide. Suicide is valid no matter what. Even if you did it to spite someone, it is just as valid. I believe they are all valid because life is meaningless. Death is […]
I feel as if i paint my smiles on.. I don’t think I’ve ever went through so much pain in a month.. You said you felt bad that you did it because it was a week after my great grandmother died? That was my first funeral.. You were there.. Holding me.. Kissing me.. Then bam it all went down hill.. Why? You put me through hell, i fought for us and you did nothing! You told me to shut the fuck up when you knew i was right… Why do I still have to feel this pain? I don’t want it anymore.. Then you’d continue […]
I can’t exactly say when it started because I don’t know, my life has just been full of bad events snowballing until I finally released it all.
From a very young age I felt alienated from everyone, I felt that nobody was like me.
It didn’t help that I had a young mother, she had me at 14, Â because I felt that she wasn’t approachable. Also, she was often getting into new relationships which involved a lot of men. I found it very hard ad still find it very hard, to connect with new people so this was an issue for the first 5 years of my […]
Whats the difference? I don’t understand how one is accepted by society while the other is condemned by society….shouldn’t they both be accepted?
I just want to know how all the other Sp’ers would like to leave this horrible world and when… Id like to just fall down in the middle of a street and die… And id like it to happen as soon as possible i guess..
Hi, I’m 16 nearly 17. I was told I had depression 3 months ago and sonce then it feels like everything is getting worse. I was very happy throughout 14 years of my life, I had some problems like only connecting with my household family because of issues with my mum and rarely seeing my dad cause he works. Never thought anything bad of it until I was 15. I had a boyfriend that all went well untill after we were going out for 10 months and things went down hill but I always blamed myself for these problems. He lied to me and in […]
So until recently I’ve been showing minor signs of Catatonic Schizophrenia. If you dont know what that is, Catatonic schizophrenia is a type (or subtype) of schizophrenia that includes extremes of behavior. Regular schizophrenia is one of many brain diseases that may include delusions, loss of personality (flat affect), confusion, agitation, social withdrawal, psychosis, and bizarre behavior.
I started showing signs and its freaking me out. I’ve begun to see shadows that stay longer than normal, and I’ve been hearing unfamiliar voices call my name. The shadows want to hurt me but they wont leave me alone. Its been getting harder to concentrate and complete my thoughts (you have […]
no, I dont cut. No, I wasnt abused. I’m sorry if you have been.
In 5th grade I started taking pills (amphetamine) and some for sleeping. I started getting really skinny, never eating, never hungry. I turned pale and gaunt, my parents thought I was anorexic. I couldnt explain to them that I just wasnt hungry (a side effect of amphetamine) so I lied. A lot. “yea I ate a sandwich when you were gone.” I hadnt. Ya this wasnt bad, i was a pretty happy kid, just really skinny. Then 6th grade rolled around and i weighed around 60 lb for the first half of […]
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now a days feeling very happy…. because i am pregnant. i use to cry a lot because of my mother in law. she irritates me, scolds me, manipulates my husband, makes my husband to scold me every time. one day there was a big clash between me and both of them, in the result i got hurt physically and i thought i should divorce him. i took a break for few days…. i went to my parents for about 2 months, i have my parents support…. there i got to know that i am pregnant. my husband is very happy with it. but […]
When you’re shivering and cold, it’s like there’s nothing else out there. Am I the only one who gets the feeling of being alone when I’m cold? It’s as if the chill calls to you and begs you to follow it and leave everything else behind. life is like a flake of snow, cold and light and harassed by its surroundings until you hit the ground, then become jostled around by the world around you until you melt in warmth. You’re still that same snowflake I guess, but you’re something different and more useful. The cold is brilliant, really. Closing your eyes, do you sometimes […]