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Finally made a decision

by dancer 4/16/2013

written by dancer

I have been lurking on this sight for a while. I thought I would post my story. Until about 15 years ago, I had a good life. I had friends, normal ups and downs. I was able to cope with what life handed to me. Â I got married and had a very difficult time having a child. It worked out in the end, but husband was abusive, etc. I was lonely. I tried to connect wi other Moms. Â±Gradually over time, I ended up with just aquantences Â or “group” friends (people invite me to events and parties, but not one on one. It was very […]

4/16/2013 6 comments

disabled-when it is time

by RaceyCar 4/16/2013

written by RaceyCar

Able to do less & less. Â Was dx with SCA type 6 in 2002. Â Can not take care of myself anymore. Â Tired of the struggle. Â My Â last attempt was very very close. Â Obviously not close Â enough.

4/16/2013 1 comment

lost forever

by f0rgottenchild 4/16/2013

written by f0rgottenchild

i finally found someone i could be happy with then i lost her, i don’t know if it was my fault or not but all i know is that i got too attached to her and now i feel so dead inside, i’ve been through so much already in the past 19 years such as verbal, physical and mental abuse and now i’m on medication that’s supposed to make me feel better but its only making things worse, i’ve never felt so alone and lost in my entire life like i do now if anybody reads this please help me i don’t know what to […]

4/16/2013 5 comments

For the ones who need someone…

by SkullGold 4/16/2013

written by SkullGold

Instead of commenting on some posts, I found it easier to put it on a post itself so everyone could see it. If someoneÂ is passing through a hard time and needs someone,Â I’ll be there, and I promise. I’ve already passed through it and I know how hard it is to find someone who actually cares about you and is sincere about that, but I am.Â So if any of you have trust on someone who can help you, contact me. I’m a female teenager, and you can find me oftenly on Kik Messenger (username: Skullgold) and e-mail: jujumgebara@gmail.com

Thank you.

PS: I hope SP doesn’t […]

4/16/2013 0 comment

cuts

by Clara120xxx 4/16/2013

written by Clara120xxx

i’ve began cutting again .. it seems when the blood runs all my depression washes away with it. the open wound is like my soul beginning to glow shinning bright to destroy all the darkness. But the darkness still lingers, in my mind. Forever trapped, like a maze turning into every dead end. Searching. Looking. Finding my light that brings me out of this horrific nightmare. I feel like my mind has put walls up all around my thinking. I can’t think too much anymore as my brain begins to hurt and spin. The walls only fall down at night when i wish to sleep. […]

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Cutting was my control, now it isn’t anymore.

by Engeltje 4/16/2013

written by Engeltje

The thing I felt in the beginning was the control I had. Finally I found something where I, only I, had the control on. But now, after more than 1 year, I still do that thing, but it doesn’t give me control anymore. Actually I have totally no control on it. But still I’m doing it, because it gives me a good feeling. For a few seconds. Fight after fight, a battle with myself, got no control on it. It’s was the main reason why I was cutting in the begin. But now it’s not the reason anymore, because there’s no control anymore while cutting. […]

4/16/2013 0 comment

Done

by pattycakes7216 4/16/2013

written by pattycakes7216

I let everyone down. My family, my friends, my partners in class, everyone. I never reach expectations. I tried to kill myself Sunday and couldn’t even do that right. All I’ve done is mess my arm up pretty bad. I’m being admitted to intensive outpatient therapy for three hours a day three times a week for two months, but i doubt it’ll help. I’m tired of talking about being a fuck up. I want someone to help me STOP being a fuck up.

4/16/2013 0 comment

by michinyo 4/16/2013

written by michinyo

I don’t know what to do I can’t stop shaking and crying and I want to scream and rip myself up and hurt myself and I’m too scared to tell my family or call 911 I don’t know what to do I can’t be alone I’m so scared no jo no no no no please no

4/16/2013 3 comments

by Sam 4/16/2013

written by Sam

Last night I was gonna kill myself. I had everything set up. Â I was actually starting to feel better knowing that I would not have to deal with the day to day suffering. I was not going to say good bye. I was just going to go away. Then I heard my dad telling me good night he told me he loved me. I just started crying I’ve been not letting myself do that. I realized that everyone feels pain. My mom shes depressed too. My brother has to deal with his past. My dad is full of regret. I can’t just go away. I […]

4/16/2013 2 comments

I Need Help!!

by Aussieinneed 4/16/2013

written by Aussieinneed

I’m a 21 year old male and i have enough of life trying to punish me.

Over the years i have been the subject of divorces, constantly being physically and verbally abused (both at school and at home), but these last few years have been the hardest. Recently i have broken up from my only relationship i have chosen to be in (3 years ago), been Â diagnosed with severe depression, Â Avoidance Personality Disorder (AvPD), numerous life-threatening medical conditions, family deaths, and being alone. I now know that being alone is the worst thing that could happen to anyone, however due to my inability to communicate to […]

4/16/2013 4 comments

I cut myself.

by messimaestro 4/16/2013

written by messimaestro

It’s all I am. A cutter.

4/16/2013 4 comments

Random thoughts words without meaning

by anony1366 4/16/2013

written by anony1366

I’ve lived more than half my life, only to realize I haven’t lived at all. I’ve existed, for what purpose I don’t know. Life’s amusement I suppose. I always picture those old movies where the gods are standing idly by over some sort of cauldron as the human race slowly imploads. Only I see myself a puppet guided by the slightest of hand, made to teeter with one foot firmly on solid ground and the other dangling into the abyss of the unknown. Funny thing is I don’t believe in god or the like. I do however believe in kharma and the ability of a […]

4/16/2013 2 comments

everyday is constant pain.

by loveisdifficult 4/16/2013

written by loveisdifficult

Help me I’m trapped here, I’m stuck in pain.
It hurts more and more each day, I’m just going insane.
I’m stuck in this place full of hurt and suffering,
The tug and pull of depression, the cut with the sting.
The tears tell a story, one that’s to great to hear,
But if you listen carefully, you can see the fear.
Each cut shows how I am really weak,
You can see pain and I don’t even have to speak.
I’m tired of ending my nights with a cry,
Praying to anyone, that I could just die.

4/16/2013 4 comments

the story of how I died

by Lucid Oblivion 4/16/2013

written by Lucid Oblivion

I’m dead. I don’t seem dead, I can breathe and taste food and smell flowers, and I don’t look dead but I AM DEAD. My mind has turned into decay, bit by bit it’s crumbling to dust. A lunatic lives inside here, a scavenger that feeds upon my decaying soul.
I look in the mirror and I don’t see my silhouette anymore, all I see is this thing that’s consuming me and my shadow behind it like a forgotten whisper of who I was once upon a time. I’ve shredded everything that has made me once me, my faith and my imagination are gone and […]

4/16/2013 4 comments

Here we go

by michinyo 4/16/2013

written by michinyo

Okay, this will be long winded. I’m sorry.

I’m 22 years old. For the past ten years, I’ve been dealing with depression and anxiety. I’ve been officially diagnosed with severe depression, severe anxiety, severe social anxiety and borderline post traumatic stress disorder.

I’ve been through a lot in my life, but I’ll make it short. As a kid, my mom was a pot head and she slept all day while my dad worked two jobs, only seeing him for about 15 minutes a day. Thus, I was left alone a lot as a kid with my brother. My parents eventually split up and my siblings and I […]

4/16/2013 4 comments

by Sam 4/16/2013

written by Sam

I’m screwed for life I just want to die painfully and just suffer. I’m gone. Bye.

4/16/2013 2 comments

How many years?

by Darc_Flame 4/16/2013

written by Darc_Flame

How may years has it been? How many years must I endure my hate, anager, self loathing? I will never get “better” and I’ll never kill myself. So I’m doomed to a lifetime of pure suffering. How long will heaven or hell make me wait?

4/16/2013 1 comment

that feeling.

by b1urr 4/16/2013

written by b1urr

i’ve been having this feeling,

this feeling ofÂ nonexistence.

itâ€™s as ifÂ i’mÂ not quite here,

i have no purpose,

iâ€™m nothingness,

worthless,

simply air.

4/16/2013 2 comments

I Don’t Understand.

by Flybane 4/16/2013

written by Flybane

Hello there,

I’m not really sure how this is done so I suppose I’ll just go ahead and start off. (I apologize if it’s hard to follow.)

Uhm, well, I was actually raised relatively well, all things considered. Both parents were present, working, and in healthy condition. I was also the only child within the household.

Life was prettyÂ privileged, normal, but rather quiet, as everyone mainly kept to themselves in the household. There weren’t any major conflicts or fights, and alot of my time, along with my father, was spent on the Computer, whether it ranged from activities such as educational programs or games or whatever I used […]

4/16/2013 5 comments

Tonight April 15

by canitgetanyworse 4/15/2013

written by canitgetanyworse

It is Monday the day of the Boston Marathon where 2 bombs went off. Innocent children hurt and killed, I feel really bad for the families that have been affected by it all. I don’t understand the need to hurt other people, especially little children.

Then on the other hand I wish I could have been there close enough to be one of the people that were killed. Then maybe it would not affect my family as bad as if I were to do it myself. Their guilt or pain would be different.

No notes would need to be left. Insurance would be […]

4/15/2013 5 comments

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