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Im happy for my mom its her birthday even though i been faking all day at least she is happy and doesnt wan to kill me today and she  seem to forget my mistake today and treating like her daughter and not as a stranger 🙂
Why do things have to be complicated?
They tell us that they’re just challenges we should face.
But when? When does it all end? Does it even end?
Are we all fighting right now? Or am I the only one who thinks this way?
Is someone else bleeding? Are we all bleeding? I don’t understand,
Why? Why is life so complicated? One day you’re happy then the next day your whole life is falling apart.
Are all of us going through this or have you felt this way?
Yes we have different problems but we all suffer.
How do they tolerate the pain? How do they smile even there’s rain?
When raindrops fall my […]
The only heaven there is, is the one you get to experience for a limited amount of time in life, it usually involves someone else in your life, and the whole time you are in this heaven, experiencing the awesomeness of togetherness and nothing in the world matters but you and the other person. During that time you are creating the hell for yourself, because when that heaven is over and that person is gone, all is lost. There is no going back and the memories of laughter freedom and the truest of friendships will forever bring you the most pain and sadness lonesomeness one […]
I am on here all the time. Almost every day. I am becoming consumed by this feeling again. I had been happy last week. Confident for the first time for a whole week in years. But depression is forcing its way back into my heart. I try and shut the door in his face, but he is so strong. My whole self is tight because of this battle. I feel like my heart is being ripped in two. Tears are always in my eyes. My therapist says to try to just shut the door and try to not let it get inside my heart. But […]
pls am begging for your help i want to ride a taxi so with it i will help my family and society.i have no one to help me out.pls am begging you all to pls help me out.
Last year was brutal for me. In a mere matter of months I found out my wife was having an afair. At first she said it was wrong, that she loved me, and that we would work things out. But she wouldn’t/couldn’t stop seeing him, and now wants a divorce and has left me and our kids to be with this guy. My kids hate me because they are angry and mom isn’t here to take it out on, so I get all the venom. They have said they hate me and wish I was dead. About the same time all this began to unfold, […]
recovery from depression has not been so much a return to health, as a learning process about dealing with my symptoms.
i find myself feeling very suicidal at times and overwhelmed with thoughts about suicidal planning. i have a lot of fantasy about cutting myself, and sometimes although i am working hard in my occupation, it feels like a part of my mind is very active in producing images about cutting myself deeply. i dont think these sorts of symptoms are ever going to go away. they are just going to always be here. i have wanted to lie down and die for as long as […]
So, I have a bff (she is a girl) who has been in love with a guy for almost 4 years, but she is too shy and insecure to even go talk to him, and he is very snob and arrogant, so she is afraid of rejection, anyways, this guy has a friend called G. And last year Idk but I felt a connection with G. He is A VERY VERY SWEET guy, and he is very shy too. I tried to approach him many times, and he was always very nice and kind. He used to spend his free time with his friends, and […]
Everyone needs someone at some point or the other. Who will make sure they are okay. That they are not falling apart. Someone who can hear all the heart has to say. Not to give solutions, but only to hear, to feel what’s going on inside you.
I have waited for long. And so many times I heard voices. Shadows looming up. Hope starts knocking. Yet I have accepted being empty handed. Empty then, empty now.
Sometimes, work absorbs me. Or else, I try to forget myself in others’ lives. Anything, but to feed that hope. It is a mirage. I know. But I too have […]
i guess….I guess You’ll leave too…well duh! they always do…but if your gone, so am I…
have fun “finding yourself” i guess, have fun never talking or seeing me again.
bye william. have fun with your life.
Its so bad, I cant take this all anymore. Â Its not temporary for me. Â I have been planning it for months now. Â I want my suicide to be painless because Im such a damn wuss. Â I was arrested for putting my arm around my daughters shoulders while watching tv and my hand brushed against her breast. Â They are calling that molestation. I have never touched her ever in a way inappropriate. Â I even made it a point to send their mom to the bathroom if the kids needed anything. Â I bonded out of jail while I am waiting on my trial. Â Only one person believes […]
People are so friggin aggravating. Â UGH.
People underestimate how much music means to me. They have no idea that music is the only thing keeping me from a mental institute. Music does so many things for me. It keeps the monsters of the night away, it pushes away all feeling cutting couldn’t. It keeps my anxiety down, and calms me when I need it. It’s the only thing I’m alive for. The depression, the anxiety, the eating disorders, the bipolar, the ADHD, the personality disorders, they’d all be 20 times worse without music.
And trust me when I say I’d be dead by now. Without music, I wouldn’t have that one song […]
im not going going but im leving my life behind for a copul days weeks mothe 1 year at the most ill probly find the strenth to go on with out the suffring or ill find the strenth to pull the trigger im not saying i will and if i am going to ill do it after i get back like a week after just to say goodbye n shit but yer im not saying im going to do it now but im off on a jorney o self help ill be on the mores on the streets at home to get food n shit […]
All the crazy emotional experiences have come and gone. Years has passed and time heals all wounds. Yet, here I am with all goals killed and/or died. I shouldn’t have made it through the experiences I experienced. Now here I am alive and empty. Somewhat like Salmon spawning. They swam upstream and laid their eggs. But unlike the salmon dying soon after, I’m still alive.
I’m not a young kid. I’m 50 and have a career. Here is my story. I lived the American dream. No, not a millionaire but I am ok making 89K a year. It all started about 5 years ago. At […]
I remember when i was what society called happy, like, genuinely happy. a time when I didn’t feel like the world was blurred, like I was just a ghost. I felt, normal i guess. I was nine. that was it. nine years old. and then i just…faded.
I recall how I’d walk into the doors, I’d hear everyone talking, everyone would be with their friends. And me? I’d struggle just to convince someone that they could talk to me. I wasn’t well liked for God knows why. I guess people just needed an outlet to put all their hate, sadness, anger, and shit in. They chose […]
It seems people don’t
care anymore.
Every night I cry, waiting for the day when my suffering ends. But I can’t wait. Its alnost my birthday, but what do I get? Beatings and insults that’s what. My name meant happy. But I never feel that way anymore. I was never destined for happiness. My name should have meant suffering.
This as been eating at me all day! How the hell is she about to let you finger her in school? No. Nasty. Ewh. Tf? Stay classy hunn. You last had sex in a school room? Sendin naked pictures.. don’t get me wrong i’ve had sex. but not in school!
So I know these things to be true…
>I need a concrete game plan to work from…sort of like a “mind map” which tells me the possible outcomes of actions that I could choose from
>I feel as if I am not connected to the world without a purpose for my days
>i have lost my purpose in life since I am no longer someones wife, someones girlfriend, someones mother…. still searching for it though….
>Have come up with a plan for schooling, I wish I had lots of people to encourage me in this new plan for myself, I wish I had someone […]
Well, this is me, Brandilinn, I know its hard to believe that a  girl like me cab have all these  problems going on, well I’m  living proof of it. I really don’t understand why all this shit happens to me. I may have all these things going on, but I do have self confidence. Never have I once thought I wasn’t pretty enough for someone, but I have thought I wasn’t good enough, especially my family. Maybe the reason all of these things happen […]
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