General

is it time for me too go yet? can I fade away too black and disappear? I am a lack of color. I have no reason too stay everything is just black and white too me. sometimes there are hints of color but mostly there are very short and if not rare. I am sinking in to a deep dark whole of emptiness. I am sick and tired of fighting this battle. Not a single day goes by were I wish I could die…. there are those who love and care about me and that is whats keeping me here by a thread… I am […]

Its passed midnight where I am and 2013 has started. I can only say happy new year to those of you who wish to find happiness, but to people like me it signifies the beginning of a new course of hurt, heartache and that longing feeling of wanting to escape this place. I’m pretty drunk so my feelings are real right now.

To be honest when that clock hit twelve I let a tear shed, because I’m scared. I’m scared of what this year will hold and I don’t want to experience the same shit again! I honestly never thought I would make it here, but […]

What ever happened to that ball of sunshine. She always cheered me up. Happy new year Sinine where ever you are.

Happy new year SP.

I wish you all luck and happiness in the year.

Ruins

Hi, my name is Ruben.
I’m only 16 years old and I’ve been thinking of suicide since I was 10. I know it’s perhaps a bit young to think in such a way but I really am convinced that I should die. The only thing holding me back is the fact that I want to try every kind of help first.

See, there lays my problem. When I search for help all I find is “talk to a friend”, well I have, And it wasn’t a great experience. I have told her everything and it helped for a while untill she got this boyfriend that started […]

i have gone through some serious shit this year. i swear if i have to start that again i will just give up entirely.

Jan: i was in rehab went through a lot of hell
Feb: out of rehab things getting slightly better
Mar: life was better compared to the last two months
Apr: i was losing it again
May: abuse started progressively
June: i wanted nothing but to die more and more each day. but i met my best friend which is why im here today
July: july 13: nearly died from overdose first most successful suicide attempt except u know im somehow stuck […]

Hey guys. well its 2013 now. everyone is happy making wishes for the new year and i just thought about my life all day long. nothing! cant see light anymore. i was so pissed off  i had a car accident today. i cant even think about it anymore.

Please tell me there is nothing to hold on to.

To everyone trying to stop those from doing the right thing for themselves must stop. Free Will belongs to only One person, the One making the Choice. I see our world and hate who we are, what we do and how we treat each other. Death is the Only solution from this place before the Real Hell begins, for those who remain Alive, will Suffer and Wish they were dead. Everyone who has died up until now, are the Lucky Ones, because they will not Suffer what is about to come…

I am trying to get the courage to release my body tonight and not see the […]

So I am reading the posts, feeling tortured by the sadness and difficulty so many are experiencing and wishing there was something I could do. Besides offering my support and empathy and encouraging people to ask for help, I feel pretty helpless. But I need to share a different perspective: a family member left behind. My son killed himself just over 8 months ago. We were blindsided. It was a short window of time from “all is OK and great in the world” to dead. We were a fortunate family—great kids, good communication. My son was truly the whole package: smart, nice, good looking, generous, […]

hi my name is afia when you have left youe ex and he has your grown up kids and they do not want to see you waht do you do you have got nothing to live for i feel like this everyday some days are very bad i do not want to get up all day or eat or drink anything will it ever get better.

There’s a lot of people on this site who are hurting.

A lot of people have had terrible things happen to them, including myself here.

If anyone needs someone to talk to about, well, anything, depression, suicidal thoughts, girls, guys, broken relationships or what, feel free.

My email is brl.cents@gmail.com

I’m here for anyone who wants me and I just felt this should be done.

whispers in the dark
i wish to be hold in your arms
i’m losing my mind
calling your name,screaming it aloud
looking into your eyes
seeing death say his vows
looking for you around
calling you to comeback
yet you did never answer my hopeless calls
whispers in the dark
i wish if you stayed in this life
i’m losing my heart
calling your name every night
crying it out loud
hoping if you still here,next to my frozen mind
i’m still living in your era
just hopelessly imagine you here
tears fall down,and slowly i feel
you exictence is ereased from others life
whispers […]

how many tears i’ve shed until now?
how many nights i’ve been feeling this guilt of breaking this vow?
how many years i’ve wanted to convince to myself
that i’am still alive
not just breathing alive
sick of something called life
i struggle just to please my world
just to please my God
i’ve tried really hard not to cut myself
many times
i’ve promised that i wouldn’t
but sorry God,even if you are angry at me now
my demons has already ate my heart
my hand has been tainted by the crimson dye
my mind was eager to just feel a little of pain

my own world is a huge deserted land where only
emptiness and fear live,and i’am just an explorer
who travel in this world looking for the meaning
of many words like life and happiness,just searching
in vain.
inside this huge land of mine,my only friend is loneliness
and it’s the only thing that made me remain sane,inside
of my fortress i can pour my heart out to the dark walls
that surround me.
i don’t need another soul to help me or save me from this
imaginary prison,because i’m the one who choosed to be
a prisonner a captive of my own past,a hostage of […]

I think I’ve had about all I can take, my way of life has been destroyed my dreams crushed my quality of life is going to suck forever.
I’ve been thinking about finally giving up alot lately, allready tried a couple times this year since I got really sick.

It makes me sad in a way I don’t really want to go but at the same time the pain I feel mentally and emotionally is so great its become unbearable.
I’m just hanging on by the skin of my teeth for friends and family and of course the little survival instinct left in my body helps.

I […]

to live everyday,i need to struggle and fight the urge to kill myself,to cancel the idea of suicide from my head,to believe that tomorrow will be a better day,to hope that i’ll be happy again,to have faith in God that he will save me from this hell that i live.

to live a word i always say,still clinging to it with despair,i wanted to be normal like everybody is,but unfortunately i’m just a mistake.

why should i hold into a life that make me sad?why should i struggle everyday to live?i feel sorry for myself,sorry for the people who knows about my existence, i feel sorry for […]

I want to know if trying to stop self harming for others and not yourself is an effective way to stop. Because right now it’s New Years and i am tipsy, alone and all i can think about is cutting myself, deep!

Please let me know what you think. Maybe you will persuade me?