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No one cares about me anymore.. i feel as though im standing in a room of crowded people screaming for help.. but no one can hear me.. they dont care. im sick of this and being the one thats misunderstood and ignored. no one understands me and pushes me aside when they get bored. its fucking shit, and i wish someone cared? because tbqh no one does! yeah some may act like it but inside they’re like ” aw fuck off soph” and im like left alone, upset and always crying, i seriously dont want to be here anymore.
seriously and honestly tell me whats worth living for when no one understands you
I was a sad little girl. Â 35 years later, I’m a sad little girl who’s been on just about every medication possible. Â They all stop working after a few years.
I’ve never really had a relationship. Â I’m not sure what’s so unappealing. Â Maybe my sadness is more obvious than I think. Â Men don’t even pay attention to me. Â They never have. Â Having cute bubbly friends doesn’t help. Â My mother has nagged me about my weight since high school when I started gaining weight from the antidepressants.
I have a job and an education. Â I live in a rented 2 bedroom house that is much too big […]
I haven’t grown weary of life yet, I’m just deeply frustrated. There have been thoughts of death lingering in my mind. They’re not constant, but they’re frequent enough to be distressing. I’m too scared to take the so-called coward’s way out. The act of dying frightens me too deeply to try suicide. I’ve been slogging through the days, somehow keeping my academics mostly intact, but I don’t know how long I can keep going, as I find myself procrastinating a lot. I’m not a strong person, and although I’m not quite convinced I should die, I don’t know how long I’ll be able to keep […]
Im wondering if anyone here is from Tucson,AZ like me….. and if they like coffee and talking about how to heal the sadness…. I just don’t think my current friends get it
i have been feeling pretty good after me and my boyfriend got back together he made me feel so happy again and the happiest girl in the world, me and him was all that mattered to me. I got him back and only realized after he moved away this week that i was so dependent on him too make me happy, he is the only reason i want to get out of bed some days! he said he would come back after two months but lets not bull shit our self he is most likely going to stay with his parents alot longer then two […]
I don’t cry when I sleep….. I just woke up…… the tears remind me that I’m alive here in this world…… awake…… I just want something big to change…… I don’t think I can sleep forever…… or can I? I’ve spent my life trying to end it…… and funny enough I spent it helping others find happiness and reasons to keep living…… I’m going back to bed soon….. maybe….. I just cry uncontrollably these days, and the only thing that stops the endless flow…… sleep…… I wish I could remember my dreams…… I used to remember them well, but now not so much….. I do […]
Is it a Solid Way to die if I push a sharp-pointed object ( e.g. an ice-Picker ) with Force into my SupraSternal-notch?
by GhorAm
written by GhorAm
Suicide is Mandatory.
‘… And if so, than how can I best do it ( e.g. the Angle at which I aim the sharp-pointed object into (…) and what I should do with my Neck & Head during impact to increase the chance of dying. ) ?
i don’t eat anymore.
I am killing myself inside- i know, so stop telling me. Maybe this is what i want…
People say they’ve seen i have lost weight, this is what i aim for, so it must be helping.
Im not that stupid that i dont eat ALL DAY & ALL NIGHT, because all of my friends say that it just makes you have a bigger belly. So i have small meals, or starve myself until dinner (which i dont eat much of)…
I have had two cups of tea today to keep me awake because no food = no energy…
Slept in til midday as well because then its […]
So I cut last night after not cutting for a long time. I feel worse for giving in to wanting to cut. I am not a regular cutter or anything, and I don’t want to get addicted to cutting, besides as it is I am going to have to wear long sleeves to work all week.
I’m just drained, tired, and want to quit. I need a therapist and or a really good friend. Probably both. I have a doctor appointment this week and I am going to try and convince myself to own up to my depression so I can get a referral for a […]
Trying to make it to my 17th birthday. Trying to hold on. I’m trying to be strong but I can feel myself cracking. Slowly falling apart. People have suddenly forgot what is happening to me. It’s the same now. Same as before when no one knew. I’m waiting for my little pink pills to kick in but unfortunately the only thing there doing is pushing me to do it. I lost everything. I’m not the same anymore. I just want to be okay. I just want to be happy. I want my friends back. I don’t even know how to make friends anymore. My only […]
I’m fat, not got the prettiest hair, I’m being treated for acne. Usually these things blown out of porpotion is why I would be depressed right? I wish. I could diet, or get defrizzer or continue with my face gels. But whats the use? My “HOME” life is awful. There is no way to describe it. My dad is every bad word that exists. My mother is useless. My siblings all hate me. I hate my two little brothers because they mirror my dad. I hate my older sister for the pain she causes me, she torments me..shes 0 years old and can make me […]
My story is a long one, one I don’t have time to write about completely…
About a year and a half ago, I decided to kill myself. I had a mean, selfish, manipulative girlfriend who always accused me of cheating, cheated on me, called me a “disappointment,” threatened to leave me if I ever told a friend or family member about what she was doing, and finally dumped me via a text message. I had a “friend” who tried to take advantage of her cheating to make her break up with me so he could date her instead. He in turn had a friend laughing at […]
I don’t even know where to begin. I’ve never been good at opening up to people, never really had any close friends who I can actually trust to tell this to. My parents, pshh I’d have more luck venting to my dog. So excuse me if I seem nervous.
I’m turning 24 in 4 days. A lot has happened to me in these 23 years of life. Not a lot of them good. And the worst things have happened within the last year.
I wish I was a kid again. Being a kid is so damn easy. You have not a single care in the world, other […]
I have no friends at school and everyone looks at me like I’m a freak every day. There is a small group of people I normally hang out with, but they just see me as someone who hangs out with them because nobody wants to be friends with the person. Every romantic relationship I’ve ever had ended with every boyfriend either taking advantage of me, cheating on me, or pretending they loved me. I feel like an ugly person and I wanna die already. Nobody would care, not even my own family would care. They hate me so much, and the only person who (sometimes) cares […]
Hello, space mariners. Or maybe aliens or innocent bystanders. I’m almost alone on this planet sometimes. I’m not used to write or chat in this language, so be merciful if I’m making some awful mistakes.
Today I feel a little bit pathetic than usual. But I don’t think about cutting myself or jumping from eighth’s floor. I don’t know why.
I can go on with my live. It’d boring or interesting, or maybe even  funny sometimes.  Or I can stop it.
Both choices are equal for me sometimes.
I want to cry, but i cannot. I want to cry and whimper in someone’s arms. But there is nothing but […]
I dont know what to say or do anymore. I am 26 years old, although I recognize I am somewhat intelligent, and feel able to contribute in certain ways, all those feelings are constantly overwhelmed by a stronger feeling of not belonging. I’ve moved to different places, tried fresh starts, moved closer to family, away from family. Same outcome, all the time. I feel as though I just should not be there. As though people will have a better time if I were not present.
I know I may be a bit young to say I have moved around a lot, but I was out […]
In all my life, I’ve been strong, my father died, my mom left me, I had eating disorders. And I got over everything, but now I just can’t anymore! My grandma doen’t talks to me because Iof his brother, he almos raped me! And she doen’t even know, and if I told her, she wouldn’t believe me cause she loves him more than she loves me she trusts him, he told her I was rude, liar, and that I was on drugs, and she believed, now looks like I’ve been kicked from my own famil. So, I had to move (I left my soulmate in […]