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Time is a treacherous thing. Destructive. An enchantress. Slowly killing you, while leaving you asking for more. Time does not cause the pain in your heart to fade. It sinks deep into your soul. Hiding. Festering. Waiting for the opportune moment to reemerge when it can do the most harm.Time allows you to become vulnerable again. It makes you think you’ll finally be okay.

Just when you relax again, when your walls begin to crumble, that’s when it happens. It’s like a gunshot in the night. You wake, breathless and confused. Looking down to see the blood seeping through your clothes. We never see it coming. […]

Yeah. That happened. And today is the day! :O Nothing bad has happened yet.. Well.

I woke up this morning to a lot of messages. :I People ‘Worrying’ Also had a message from my friend, Aaron. Who then told me that my sister is self-harming. Still haven’t been able to talk to her about it but my dad knows. So does that make it okay?

I didn’t get to attempt this morning. And I can’t try tomorrow morning as my friend is coming round and staying the night. To some that is a good thing.

I just don’t know what to do anymore…. 🙁

Just wondering if someone can send me an email to the person who started this group. I am a youth worker, and looking to help.

I’ve got a plan to try to take my life.

It scares me to think that this time I want it to work.

If not many know about me, I can give a little intro if that helps.

I’m blind. That in it self, can have many advantages and disadvantages. I was adopted and abused as a child.

I’m almost out of high school and for the last few months or so, I’ve been wanting to take my own life. I’ve tried to be as kind as can be to people but sometimes I just explode and then feel so bad.

I’m tired of hurting, […]

They try to tell me its chemical. Here… take this drug and you can start to live again. Here pop this pill and you can start to feel better, after three or four months. Placebos.

It numbs me from feeling anything. That’s all the antidepressants and antipsychotics do… Numb.

I don’t want to be numb. I don’t want to be a mindless drone going through the motions of being alive. I don’t want to meet someone and have them run in the other direction once they see the pills in my medicine cabinet.

Besides, its not chemcial. No. Not really. I’m 25. I had my first breakdown when […]

Sometimes you realize how much you really have to kill yourself.

Has anyone heard from nat?  getting quite worried

I have an undying urge to be a part something larger.  I want to live in a city where there are so many things going on I have a choice where to put myself.  I want to be exposed to as many cultures as possible.  I want to cook good meals with an assortment of flavorings, meats, and vegetables. I want to be able to ride a bike everywhere.  I want a tiny apartment. I want to be able to go to an edgy comedy club, and go to a jazz bar, in the same night.  I need variety.

I have always seen myself moving to […]

I called the suicide hotline.

They put me on hold and a recording told me “Your total waiting time will be: 108 minutes.”

I hung up after 10 minutes.

What is wrong with this world?

So today was the worst day. I’m 14 a freshman in high school. I know I should not think about my body shape at this she but I do, its ugly, fat, stretch marls everywhere I can’t eat I get depressed after I look at the scale 124 lbs disgusting I say to myself! I look at other girls there ihalf my size with such a nice body why can’t I be that way there’s boys at my school who have skinny beautiful girlfriends my crush says he hates chubby girls I can’t even have a boyfriend cause I’m so fat! I wish I was […]

I have come to two all-purpose conclusions, one: in general, life sucks. Two, everything has a reason; thus if the gravity of our world didn’t suck, then we’d all fall off. Everyday dawns another with a hope that something will happen to counteract the misery, but then there are some who wake up without hope. In their world, they suck and are victims to the gravity of invisible encasement promising happiness of lies. If you are happy, then you are lucky, you are not trapped. You like who you are, people like you, you trust they like you. Others of us face the doom of […]

Cant fall asleep even tho lifeishorrible kept me up till 4 last night!

hold me

I keep telling myself if it wasnt for my kids id already be gone … but over the last few weeks ive pretty much been told im not a good person im crazy im poison, i ruin every thing … so if all that is true whats the point … i know my kids need me but they still have their other parent … so seriously if all i ever do is ruin other peoples lives neway and i poison everything then whats the point of sticking around to continue to poison everything… why not just take the plunge and be down with it?

i feel like an alien today more than ever. even simple inanimate objects seem foreign. I like burning myself, it hurts for a moment but for a moment its all i can think about and i like that. I cant stop my thoughts from racing. All i want to do is smoke and chill with this girl. Shes a freak just like me:) We made out yesterday for the first time. Im lonely. I cant wait to see her again. Im 23 and have almost completely gotten over my insecurities with girls. But ive still yet to be in love. My life is shit, […]

no one honestly cares. i go to school everyday upset, wanting to cry and just sit all alone. i get pushed aways every fricken day , i get so pissed off, i get so angry i breakdown , i cry , i cant deal with it any more,im so sick of being treated like crap. my social worker makes me feel horrible about myself. and no one wants to help , all i want to do it talk , or cry, or scream or write, not be pushed away ..someone talk to me.

So… I am a 13 year old girl. I have already tried to kill myself and failed. People say that suicide is the cowards way out. But its not. I still want to so why don’t I? There is something holding me back. I can’t describe it. Its not hope its not a dream. It is just something telling me not to. My view on suicide is that you most likely shouldn’t have you considered every other option? Probably not. Think on it. That’s all I want you to do. I tried and am still scarred by it. So unless you want to carry that […]