General

we’ve all had are bad days, correct? and we’ve all taken it out on other people who didn’t deserve it, also correct?

we all need to remember that when someone flips on you for know reason, its usually becuz something else has happened..

also most of use on hear are still young. we still have most of our life left. so how about we stop and watch the clouds for a bit. i think that would be a great idea. i also think i should listen to my own advice. and I’m going to try. i really am.

to the people who self harm, i do it to. […]

I DON’T WANT TO DIE.

I am fucking scared of death. I don’t want to die. It just seems like I’m snowballing, out of control, to my inevitable demise.

I DON’T WANT TO DIE.

I am terrified of the impact that my death will have on my father, my mother, my son.

I DON’T WANT TO DIE.

I feel like it’s calling me. Death’s dark, cold hands offering me the acceptance that I so desperately crave.

I DON’T WANT TO DIE.

I feel like I’m falling in love with the idea of dying. While being scared of the act.

I DON’T WANT TO DIE.

I just want a release from all this torment.

I DON’T […]

It seems like every time that I get my head above water, something happens to push me back under. I am tired. I am weak. I just want to lay down and sleep and not have to wake up. I’m so physically, spititually, and mentally exhausted that I don’t care about anything anymore. I can’t concentrate on anything. I don’t want to eat. I don’t want to get dressed. I don’t want to move. I have no energy. I don’t even have the patience or energy to care for my son. And I can see that I am slipping away. I’m so fucking scared. I […]

i know its bad but I’ve started cutting again… and i don’t get it becuz these past few days I’ve been happy. so why am i cutting again? this makes no sense to me….

aslo i know I’m only 14.. and this may sound pretty depurate or pathetic but i don’t care… i want someone to look forward to seeing me everyday and hugging me everyday.. i want someone to really love me like how “true love” is in the movies…. but i have a feeling i’ll be waiting a while..

also i still feel like somethings missing inside of me.. I’m still empty..

i don’t get […]

Depression

Depression can be a terrible thing. Some people may not think it; But Depression is a mental health disorder.  Depression is were you’re basically sad for usually a long period of time.

Some people wonder what the signs and symptoms of depression are. So I’m going to tell you a few:

A constant feeling of sadness, anxiety, and emptiness
The person feels hopeless
Individuals can feel restless
Patients may lose interest in activities or hobbies they once enjoyed
Levels of energy feel lower
 Hard to concentrate, remember details, and make decisions
Sleep patterns are disturbed – the person may sleep too little or too much
Eating habits may change – he/she may either eat […]

Basically venting….

My life has just been SO FUCKING WONDERFUL  since I turned 33. My car,which was just paid off,died,and b/c my credit is so crappy,Im going to get the runaround trying to get a new one. Of course,my BF lectures me bout my credit instead of sympathizing. My boss has been selfish and demanding when my car broke down,insisting that I”put the donut on and deal with it when Im done working”. She recanted when she learned that it was,in fact,dead. Then my BF continues to be an asshole and refuse to give me rides to work,knowing that I have limited funds after paying  $360 to […]

because you hurt her

because you made her cry

because her scars are from you

because shes hopeless

because she almost died

because shes running on empty

because shes not thin

because shes not pretty

because shes not smart

because you used her

because you touched her

because she screams

because shes unknown

because her over dose was to small

because shell try again tonight

because she toke double of them

because she drank them down

because YOU  killed her

because she wont wake up tmw

because youll never understand

If there is some suicidal brazilian here, please, e-mail me. Let’s talk on our original language, maybe we can help each other or die together.

my e-mail: theu.jp@gmail.com

It’s been 17 years now since I’ve been diagnosed with depression. The disease itself came very early during my terrible childhood. Parents were very critical, perfectionists, I was never good enough. They didn’t care of me – my therapist says I’ve been hardly mentally abused.

I think about suicide more and more…. every day now. My shrink said that she couldn’t help me anymore except putting me on antipsychotics or mood stabilizers and still taking 3 antidepressants as now. I’ve got an experience with almost all AP and AD new or old as it last 7 years until the doctor found a combination which seemed to […]

So yeah, I don’t even know what I’m on about. I don’t even know why I’m writing this but yeah, I’ve decided to write whatever I was about to write. See? I’m quite confusing. I don’t know who I am, I don’t even know what I want cause.. I don’t know.
Anyways, straight to the point. My family is quite screwed up. Dad and mum divorced since I was 8. Since then, I had no time from him at all, I mean it. He started a new family with the woman he cheated on my mum with. She also moved in with her own daughter. […]