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Illogical…

by crewde 1/13/2012

written by crewde

This world is not for me. I can not live for myself any longer…Â I simply can’t function.. I taste nothing, feel nothing.. even the love I once had is no more… but yet… I wouldn’t have it any other way… I don’t wish to feel, to taste, to live. My heart that was broken seems no more, it has cost me the hold and control of myself I so desperately need. I must live independently… but it is hardly possible… how much further can i fall? How much more will I take? I still hide with fake emotions.. trying.. for what? The help I’ve tried […]

1/13/2012 4 comments

My wife died 1/1

by JeffInNh 1/13/2012

written by JeffInNh

My wife died 1/1. Had funeral 1/11.

I’m putting my affairs in order. I think I want to join her.

1/13/2012 9 comments

people

by traptsoul 1/13/2012

written by traptsoul

i hate when a person tells me they don’t know, then what is your fucking purpose. i hate when your own filty family won’t help you, even though you would help them, i hate when your asshole sister betrays me and like an ass i forgive her, i hate when one moment person is nice to you and in the other they are ready to hit you or betray you or likes to argue with you, make up your fucking mind people are such asshole.NO ONE CAN BE TRUSTED.

1/13/2012 3 comments

i killed my buterfly today

by drift_along 1/13/2012

written by drift_along

It had been two weeks since i last cut or burned or anything because i was doing the thing when you draw a butterfly on where ever you cut or burn and you have to keep the butterfly alive but today i killed it :c

1/13/2012 6 comments

The End.

by meg_41 1/13/2012

written by meg_41

Dear life, family, friends, enemies

As a kid we were read fairytales the kind where life was always perfect when it came to an end. I use to think “The End” mean’t that life was perfect. I always thought that one day I would find that guy and have the happy ending. But I grew up. & now I know that “The End.” isn’t for fairytales at all. Its when you realize that life isn’t happy and you finally realize you are done with suffering. Done with walking down the school hallway while everyone laughs. Done with hating yourself so much that you find the need […]

1/13/2012 7 comments

Escape

by Erisa 1/13/2012

written by Erisa

Things are going to Hell really fast. Iâ€™m running out of time and this house of cards is about to fall. Everything is so unstable, wrong and unbearable. People are dying, getting killed, going to jail and that isnâ€™t even the end of it. I wish I was as strong like the people around me, after some family members died they just picked up the pieces and moved onâ€¦ It would be sad to say that it took a tragedy to bring a family together, but maybe then they would start cherishing and appreciate each other, but it is even sadder to say that two […]

1/13/2012 2 comments

Waiting for u forever

by parra 1/13/2012

written by parra

Hi….I dont know may be whatever i am saying looks so stupid but i want to say.

After i lost my mom, the same month iÂ met a girl on internet. Her NameÂ is Muyasar. She was so beautiful and preety, Specially her eyes like a sweet cute angel. No one want to see tear in her eyes. As i start to talk i get know her heart is already broked. i was so confused which person who can make her heart break. She told how her bf not trusting her and always use bad words for her. I tried to make her understand if a guy […]

1/13/2012 3 comments

To write a final note or not?

by Lon3-Spartan 1/13/2012

written by Lon3-Spartan

I just sat down for the last several hours and wrote a note or a “Suicide note” to everyone I will be leaving and it made me feel good inside. And brought me just a little closer to going through with it. Again I’m not a big church guy but Im planning on going to mass and penance this weekend too, for what its worth. In my note I don’t blame anyone, I just wanted them to know I love them and ensure them my end is not their fault. I also don’t want a funeral, I want to be cremated, spread at […]

1/13/2012 53 comments

I Scare You

by DeathOption 1/13/2012

written by DeathOption

I know its Hard for You to Understand,

Especially with this type of Emotion coming from a Man

But the Pain that I feel,

Deep Inside… is oh so Real

You rebuddle that the Decisions that I have Made, have put My Existence into a Shallow Grave

And that Deciding to Climb Out, is the Only way to Behave

But what You see as Weakness; I Embrace as Strength

A Strength that I Aspire to Muster;Â the Morning when My Body wont make Muster

See, what You see as an Act of Desperation; I view as an Act of Courage

A Rising Plant that grows, the More it is Nourished

What You see as a […]

1/13/2012 3 comments

suicidal rants aside,

by tphg 1/13/2012

written by tphg

the plan: or how I put the coal in my xmas stocking to good use

I don’t feel much better today. I think my issue is more chemical than I realized. I went out with some friends last night for dinner and it was simply amazing. We had a great time, laughing and talking (i was high though; couldn’t face a human face without raising my mood from my suicide note mood).

I really want to quit smoking but, I remember too well what life was like before. It’s the same as it is now, only I’m ignorant of more things. I smoke and I notice […]

1/13/2012 2 comments

At the End

by DeathOption 1/13/2012

written by DeathOption

I have come so far! I started contemplating suicide at the age of 6! probably not an accurate number but i was that young. I am 25 now! I have cried so hard everytime i tried, but now there is a sense of peace that overcomes me when i think of going through with it. The only thing that makes me weep is when i think about the turmoil i will cause my 2 daughters. I am a great father. i wonder if i was a dead beat, would this be easier. Almost everything about my life makes me want to end it all. My […]

1/13/2012 8 comments

words freaking hurt

by drift_along 1/13/2012

written by drift_along

For as long as i can remeber ive been the one to get mad fun of but today had to be the wrst i started my new school and i guess since i was the new girl people had to judge me right away but i paid it no mind plus i really couldnt hear them.anyway so i went into my second period and sat down and there was two guys sitting in front of me and i over heard them say i was fat and that i was ugly just when i was beganing to feel a lityle better about myself this happens […]

1/13/2012 2 comments

I can’t hold on much longer

by solace 1/13/2012

written by solace

So my brother threatened me again today. He bullies me all day and today he threatened that he will hit me.

I know this is not as bad as other peoples issues but this is my life and i can’t stand much more of his abuse.

My mum pretends that nothing is going on. I have already started cutting again within 24hours of seeing him. I promised i would stop. But i just can’t keep that promise when he is around.

And you know what the sad thing is….. tonights spat was set off by the slightest thing. The internet.

I hope he does hit me, just so i […]

1/13/2012 4 comments

I am like a prisoner.

by death_appeal 1/13/2012

written by death_appeal

Since my mental condition got really bad,I live like a prisoner.I am not behind bars ,but I lead such a limited life.I cannot even drive a car or go to a bank to withdraw some money from my bank account.I can’t even buy a mobile phone or have my mobile phone repaired.I have become a really isolated disabled recluse whose life is really painful.I have only one friend ,but I think I’m losing him too.Because I no longer enjoy being with him.Maybe that’s because he’s not mentally ill.He is normal.His life is not limited or boring ,and he expects to have a bright future.I have […]

1/13/2012 4 comments

I’m Blooding Everywhere

by FriendOfAFriend 1/13/2012

written by FriendOfAFriend

(And yes I am aware that the term is “bleeding”)

At least the cuts are easier to hide this time, they’re on my legs not my arms……. won’t make that mistake again…….. how was your guys’s day?

1/13/2012 0 comment

Ambushed at work….

by porphyrous 1/13/2012

written by porphyrous

A couple days ago, I asked the Dean for some accommidations on my job. Specifically, I was having persistent short-term memory issues. What I asked for was’nt much, Just having a lab assistant (Their threshold is 25, I have classes of 23 and 22). I opened up to the Dean.

Worst. Mistake. Ever.

Apparently, she mentions things to the Director, who immediately schedules a meeting with me and the Dean the next day. Once in there, I am informed that my requests are against policy without written, medical documentation, and it was strongly inferred that even asking for help indicates that I can’t handle the rigors of […]

1/13/2012 15 comments

Still here

by trappedinthought 1/12/2012

written by trappedinthought

I haven’t been able to get online since christmas eve, I was gonna try again new years eve, but a friend of mind figured out and wouldn’t leave me alone long enough to even cut my wrist, I’m not trying to whine or complain, but why is it such a bad thing to want to die? People act like it’s the worst idea ever, but it definitely beats living. Anyway, I haven’t cut in a while, I’ll probably go back to doing that now, at least it helps me get by.

1/12/2012 4 comments

I was saved

by silent survivor 1/12/2012

written by silent survivor

Well for the people who don’t know last year, 7th grade was the one time in my life that I wish I could change. The year I figured out who I really was and what I really wanted to do. It was also the year I had gotten sexually abused for the 4th time by my mothers boyfriend :’). I’ve noticed my sexual abusers are always linked to my family in some way and they go on for long periods of time :/. Anyways he had moved in with us and stuff and then things started happening like very small unnoticeable things until the big […]

1/12/2012 1 comment

Acceptance

by period 1/12/2012

written by period

Accept that you are repulsive.Accept that she is disgusted by you.Accept that you are not lovable. Accept that tomorrow will be like yesterday.Accept that she is sunshine.Accept that darkness is all you have. Accept that you’ll never be touched.Accept that there is no poetry.Accept that your death won’t be romantic.Accept that she will not mourn.Accept that this made it too much to carry.Accept that there’s no magic.Accept that there’s no miracles.Accept that the need makes you scream.Accept that she looks like heaven.Accept that heaven is illusory.Accept that her heart beats.Accept that it doesn’t beat for you.Accept that her lips could have saved you.Accept that you […]

1/12/2012 9 comments

As the time draws nearer…

by countingdown 1/12/2012

written by countingdown

I know when, I have a pretty good idea of how, and I think I know where. It’s just a case of if I can wait that long, its nearly 4 months away, if I can continue to pretend to care, if I can act normal.

I also have considered the people I will have left behind, and I have selected what I hope to be the right book to send to each of them when the time is right. Yes I have people that I may care enough for to wish that they will realise why I have chosen this path, and that it shouldn’t […]

1/12/2012 2 comments

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