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Life is not the problem. It’s our life situations, that are the problem.

Suicide is a good way to escape it though. <3

Why cry about what you can never change?  I have been an unlucky person for 50 years and it seems as if over the past three years my life has been spiraling downward with increasing speed.  It’s not a “feeling sorry for myself” kind of thing – it’s more of a “well if after 50 years things are only getting dramatically worse, why endure pain for what little life is left to you?” approach.  I’ve paid my dues.  I’ve earned the rest.  I have spent a normal life.  I have hurt people – sometines intentionally, most times by accident.  I believed in God and asked […]

Hey, gonna go on a vent rage here. lol
Anyway, I don’t get it! Why do they openly act like they have issues when in most cases, they’re just bitches playing the part? I can bet my life that they aren’t actually depressed or suicidal but instead, dress in black and cry. I mean it just pisses me off, bleh

I’ve been depressed for many years and attempted suicide on multiple occasions solely on my theory (with backing evidence) that my father doesn’t love me or even wanted me. It’s still a driving force in my life, my “goals”, etc.

Recently my aunt told me why my parents divorced in the first place. All my life I was told by my mom that they broke up because he cheated on her with another woman in asia (he went back and forth for business). However, my aunt told me that my mom suspected him of cheating. That one day, the two of them (my mom and aunt) […]

i have tried for so long to get through this life being a nice guy. i have always done the best i could to help others out and be a real human being, but people are continuously taking advantage of my good nature and fucking me over. i am at an absolute breaking point.

the last time i had a legitimate nights sleep was over two years ago. i live each day just barely scraping by, and the insomnia has recently gotten so bad i had to take a couple months off my job. im so sad that i cant sleep and i just want to […]

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I feel like dying, but feel i dont have the right to be sad at all. like i shouldnt be sad and should just get the fuck over it. idk if this is just depression or withdrawal or what, but im tired of hearing that i just need more meds. i always feel like im begging for attention because i will kinda straight out say yet hint that i want to die, but i just want to die and fade out, but want someone to care and help me. i may be expecting to much, because what id do […]

Little red rivers, flowing softly over skin, onto cloth. She watches, eyes void of any emotion, as her life-force empties from her veins. There are no memories, no running through her life one last time. There is nothing but growing darkness.
But there is a story. A story behind those eyes that will soon close forever, a story that, had the author possessed any mercy whatsoever, might have been different, and she might not be bleeding to death by her own hand.

It started with a room. A simple, small room, where she kept her things. One by one, those things were taken away, sometimes given […]

(Don’t worry, this post isn’t about trying to convert anyone. I’m just outloud thinking).
I’m a deeply religious person and very solid/comfortable in my beliefs. I’m a liberal Christian (is that an oxymoron?) and have years of theological education. I believe in a God who is caring, merciful, gracious, and forgiving. When my life transition is complete, I believe I will be with God. I’m staking everything on this! I want so badly to be with God, to be with my deceased family and friends. I want that more than anything that could ever be or happen on earth. I heard a scripture in […]

I know how  you all feel.

That you hit a dead end and there’s no way out.

But when the road runs out, pave your own way.

You can be strong, I know you can.

This feeling affects every human being in the world.

I know that you feel empty  and emotionless and that you will never be loved.

I love you.

You are loved so much more than you know.

If you took your own life people you never looked at twice at work or at school would miss you. They would all miss you and talk about how they never knew you were suicidal and how they wish they could’ve helped.

You […]

If she wasn’t in my life I don’t think I could have made it this far… I’m not saying I would kill myself cause of her but that she is the only reason I want to live my day and do what I want to do.. I’m gonna marry her someday.. She’s amazing.

Why are some people so hypocritical on here? Do they like putting down others? Its so confusing to me:( if anyone on here wants to talk, I’m here:) I don’t know what everyone’s pain is like, but I know what pain is, as real as living hell. it hurts, so bad. But if you wanna talk or vent out all your feelings, I’m all ears:)

The smell of smoke lingers around me,

as the mixture of my tears and blood form.

I’ve sat up all night crying, just wanting it all to end.

I’m driving myself insane, how much longer will this last?

Falling apart piece by piece;

I wonder what my reason to be here, is.

How much more can I possibly give?

The numbness comes back, and the darkness has taken my life.

The sudden shock was sent all the way through me,

this felt like nothing else before.

My shadow has been left behind,

I’m going insane; will someone help me?

Please, I need to find myself again.

I’ve known in my head for months I’m going to complete suicide eventually.  I’m way older than most of the people posting here, but your pain is my pain.   I wish there was a magic bus for us all to board to take us to “AllBetterLand”, but there isn’t.

My problem is my inability to vocalize my problems.  I would rather die than tell my SO that I can’t pay the bills.  Sick and sad huh?  I know.  I know it’s unreasonable.  But it immobilizes me.  I get panic attacks when I think of getting the mail.   He has plenty of money to help […]

Its funny how my heart screams for help, yet my mouth says ” Im ok” out loud.

Its funny how I tried all my life to stay alive, but now I am trying to die.

Its funny how I walk around with a huge smile on my face that lights up the room, but inside me there is total darkness.

Its funny how I give people advice, yet I’m the one that needs all the help I can get.

Its funny that Im affraid of pain, but everyday I cut myself.

Its funny that people say “life gets better”, but infact its getting worse.

Its funny how the people that are […]

I feel strange the thing that calms my anxiety and depression and prevents me from hurting myself, is ironically the thought of suicide. When I think about killing my self and having a hope that an effective exists actually feels reassuring that there is a way out if things don’t work out for me. I never really proactively tried to kill myself because I am not impulsive, but I have dabbled with the idea. I am also a procrastinator, so when I full extremely awful, I decide I am going to kill myself but I naturally procrastinate like I do with every task. The thought and the […]