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I’m so fucking done. Honestly, this decision is so rational and considered. Ijust can’t take anymore.

I always feel guilt, towards others… When I cut. I’m scared to commit suiced. I always think of how bad it would hurt if I lost someone that is important to me. My boyfriend is going through some shit right now and we got on the phone and talked for a bit. He said he hated his life and everything and everyone in it. I’m either nothing or everything… I still havent figured it out yet. He threatens to kill himself quite often… I always tell him “Brett dont. Suicide is permanent there would be no going back to a life that you CAN change […]

Have you ever feel so depress that you feel like you are dead? That you cant continue on anymore than you have now. That every minute your typing this your just wondering? Does anyone really care what i write how i feel and what i want. That feeling you are just going jump off the edge of never coming back but you end up waking up in a hospital with your family there seeing you in this condition or your friends finding out what you had done. Or be one of the lucky ones that had finally achieve what they wanted and that you just […]

Hi guys.

Been doing it pretty rough recently. Been suggesting from depression for last 8 years but only been diagnosed for 2. Before that I just dealt with life how I thought everyone did not realising that actually I was sick. It all started when I had to leave the forces and then my best friend was killed in action. For last 2 years I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety and the fact I haven’t dealt with stuff before.

3 months ago my marriage broke down and in turn I’ve lost my house and am living with my parents. I’m off work sick as […]

so yeah i’ma off myself soon now

idk what to say, i’ve already told you all so many times. so i’m just gonna say bye.

goodbye.

I wanna write something here plz tell me buddys how to i do that?

i used to look around me and see people i loved. people that mattered to me.

people that made me the better version of myself.

people that i proudly called my friends.

now i look around me and all i see is people that make me miserable and cold.
people whose ‘friendship’ with me is based purely around mocking me.

these people arent my friends. they use me in any way they can, and when they dont need me, im shunned to the back.

they dont treat me the same as they do any of there other friends. it seems i dont deserve the respect.

but i do.

iv’e recently learned that […]

I’m wishing this day were over, but I’m hoping tomorrow never comes….

HI I AM TAMANA I DONOT UNDERSTAND WHAT’S GOING WITH ME?
I CHOOSED ONE PATH FOR MY LIFE SUCCESS BUT TODAY I FEEL I AM NOTHING

I haven’t had anyone to talk to at all. I feel like hanging myself but I can’t. I’ll probably try to overdose later. But ideally I wish I had a gun.

Hello, the title says all.

I tried the Helium hood method. I thought I had planned it carefully enough. I put the bag over my forehead and opened the gas valve of the helium bottle. There was a regular, quick flow. Then, I removed all the air in my lungs and put the bag over my head. I didn’t pass out, even after three minutes. Could it be because I was breathing Ballonium instead of Helium ? Where can one be sure to find PURE helium ? Where can it be bought ?

It reads “Helium” on the bottle, so it cannot possibly be a mix of […]

I’m so pathetic. I really wish I had the guts to go, but I don’t. I have everything I need for any method I wanted because of all of the ridiculous plans I’ve made that I could never go through with. Well, I mean, I have everything I need but courage. Unfortunately, that’s the most important thing to have…

I don’t know if I’ve said this here yet, because I’ve written so many posts and so few say anything about me, but I think I might suffer from a minor form of social anxiety. Today I was at a gathering for my graduating class before college […]

rivers of blood flow today after all those who disfigured enough to flood our ground. the death toll rose in months to the point of decay
covering the earth. cemeteries over capacitated and lands were turned into body grounds. amongst the death and rot was disease.
the flesh that once had a sight and smell of freshness now clutter the ground diseased scared disfigurement was the new vice of the depressed
depression the mind disease that spread like a virus. bloody lakes and oceans fill the world conquering the land. mutants grow under disguise
as the flooders re inhabit and spawn a new masochistic generation. […]

Hi is anyone here around los Angeles?
I need someone that I can talk to who feels the same way
That I do… Suicidal.
Thanx

I have it all planned now.  Only a lack of braveness or a failure with my overdose will save me.

I’ve spent the best part of 10 years fading in and out of depression, dipping into the thoughts of suicide, even attempting twice.  Both times unnoticed by the outside world, although both times fucking my already fucked up body somewhat more.

But this is it.  Twice the antidote this time and a plan B.  I do not want to survive again.  I will not survive again.

But the date of destroyal is a few weeks ago.  People need to get to places first.  Doses need to arrive.

So I […]

I was in a really bad place last night, just freaking out and over whelmed.  i tried to call friends, and nobody answered.  I tried to call the suicide hotline and was on hold too long.  I tried to distract myself and failed.  I ended up cutting a lot.  Now I’m covered with cuts, I probably should have gotten stitches on one of them, but I didn’t.  I can’t wear long sleeves at work, and I work all weekend.  I’m trying so hard to keep people at work from finding out, and maintain a “normal” facade.  I think I’m probably failing on all accounts.  Really […]

so i decided to cast a spell. each day for a month i put my focus into building my death. i was over life on earth, it hurt too much. love seemed missing, everyone was feeding off everyone else and society was mad. about a week in and i found myself booking a flight, a month later and it was christmas, and i was in new zealand. the spell was supposed to go like this: i would be swimming in a warm sea, surrounded by dolphins with a warm sun shining. i’d then dive down and at the deepest i could swim, take a breath.