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Please let go of me…
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I think we must all remember, that god judges each soul induvidually.
The bibble never makes any mention of what happens to suiciders. There are a number of reasons for this. First of all, people usually didnt live too long anyway back in those days. Second, sighting either unconditional acceptance or judgment removes god the authority to judge each case induvidually.
God understands and feels all our pain. As he is everything, the universe itself. However suicide can sometimes be a tragicly selfish experience, if it leaves mourning family members behind.
This is always induvidual. When i almost had a suicice attempt with electrcity, i was embraces by […]
shes in love the world seems blurry she makes mistakes but shes in no hurry to grown ups cause grown ups they dont understand her. its a big big world out there but shes not scared she thinks that nobody cares about her problems and she probably right. but its alright youll be fine if you just stay with me we get one step closer but we’re still so far away. she finds hope in the strangest places reads her books and knows all the faces of everyone that ever said shes alone. she knows every word to the saddest songs and she sings along […]
I started (being forced) to live with my dad again…I’m not the same person I really am when I live with him. Everyday I wonder in my head why I’m being forced to be put into misery. Everyday when misery takes me I go off into a sleep and dream about a perfect world, a perfect life, a perfect everything.Then I wake up only to be put through the yelling, the memories, the pain again and again. I wish I could fly like I do in my dreams and for once, in reality, feel free. Misery won’t you ever leave?
im just gunna do it i swear to god if there is such a thing. iv been living the worst life u can imagine iv been collecting cans on the streets to make ends meet i live in a strorage room of a studio that took pity on me i watched both my parents die slow of cancer ech one right after the other all my friends have forgetten about me i havent had a girlfriend in years and i feel like everyday is getting worse and worse. everyone looks at me like a piece of shit i wish they cud see that i tried […]
I can’t do this, I just can’t. I’m terrified to be myself because I will only be punished for it. But by pretending to be someone else I’m punishing myself. (I’m not just talking about pretending to be happy.) This is torture. I’m already a coward as it is, I don’t need this discouraging me. But I’ve gotta try, for me. They don’t need to know anything about me..
After all, even if all of my smiles and laughs are fake it’s better to pretend I’m happy, because it’s the closest I’ve ever get to ever being happy again.
About a few months ago my mom and her boyfriend, let’s call him Mike, went out. It’s usually my mom who gets drunk but that night it was only Mike. When he got home he was being loud and cussing. It was surprizing seeing as he is a Christian and quiet. I had only stayed up, waiting for them, to make sure they were okay and if they had brought food. They didn’t so I decided to go to bed. Since we had been cleaning all that day, my bed was full of crap. I jokingly said I was going to go sleep in their […]
-homecoming
anna hopefully u read this becuase u wer the one who told me i shuld go ahead and post lyrics to songs on here so hopefully u read it and can understand
“my heart is beating from me iam standing all alone please call me only if you are coming home waste another year flies by waste a night or two you taught me how to live in the streets of shame where you’ve lost your dreams in the rain thers no signs of hope the stems and seeds of the last of the dope theres a glow of light the st. jimmy […]
Adults say high school was the time of their life and they’d do anything to get it back. But I just don’t understand. Why would they want to be in high school that is filled with bulling, harrassment, sex, friends turning on each other, popularity, etc.
When I walk into the school doors I am constantly judged and bullied for my appearance…something I can control…but is truly me. “Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me” is a saying that truly doesn’t fit with life. Sticks and stones will not always break your bones but words will forever hurt you. One […]
He really is.
I’m sitting here with blood balling on my leg(cut myself the first time in a couple weeks)
Thought I was stronger than this.
i look at people all the time and think how much id love to be them.
to have there friends
there looks
there life
to be adored that much by the people around them
then i look at me.
from a distance you might think im pretty
even up close.
but at night, when my fake deciving mask of makeup is removed
i remember just how ugly i am.
then i look at my friends.
and i have this disease you see,
its called illusional misconception
people believe that i am confident and bold.
that i have all these friends and blah blah
then when they get a bit closer
they slowly.. or quickly
realise just how weak and pathetic i am
and […]
Hi All,
I feel very unlucky. I have had 4 abdominal surgeries for liver, pandex, intestinal obstruction. My tummy looks all twised with scars which look horrible in front of the mirror when I see them. Plus I have a small penis size around 4 and a half inch erect. My friends came to know about it and they told all in my friend circle about it. It happened when I was 18 years old. I went into trauma due to this since people used to start calling me from shameful names. I started drinking alcohol, smoking pot and eating benzos just to get rid of […]
just curious
what would kill you faster?
helium could leave you brain dead and shit
hanging would be painful if you broke the neck and didn’t die
let’s say it didn’t break though, wouldn’t you pass out after a few seconds if it was tight enough?
but yeah, what would you say is the easiest way to go?
and again, no, i’m not suicidal, i ain’t gonna kill myself, i’m just curious
oh and, when they execute people by hanging, how do they know how long they’ll have to drop to die instantly? there must be some sort of mathematical formula, right?
Since I can remember, it started in high school and I guess this is what broke the camels back.  My entire childhood life I was happy and spent most of my time playing alone. I witnessed a couple of bad things, the usual molestation by a family member and a couple of beatings by my parents for being an energetic child, like thats a crime? I think the most disturbing thing out of my childhood was finding out the woman that I love most in the world and felt safe? was not my mother. I didn’t care at first, but once high school came around the corner […]
I feel like all I have inside is a huge sigh. My body is empty like the carved out center of a pumpkin during Halloween. I’m slowly rotting, and will eventually be eaten by the squirrels. There’s nothing to fill this huge, gaping hole inside me. Sometimes I think that I can fill it somehow: with love, with giving, with words…but it never goes away. Sometimes I forget about it when the sun is up, but once the darkness settles I become a black hole. Sucking in everything, but never being filled. I don’t trust myself alone. I do the worst things when I’m alone, […]
So I am new here, had a browse round tonight and figured I would make the effort to post something of an intro, not quite an outro, yet.
To cut a very long story short, I have Asperger’s Syndrome, which is a form of Autism. I don’t see the world like many of you do.
Basically, imagine thinking everyone has a conspiracy against you, god is punishing you, and living in a CONSTANT state of anxiety, with being alive as the irritant, this is a little idea of what it is like in my mind, this is everyday, ‘normal’ life for me. It is like having […]
TONIGHT. tonight might finally be the fucking night, the one i have dreamed of and prayed for, for so long, today has been worse and worse x-gf sayin she is prego wit my kid car is fallin apart im broke and the love of my life says she wants a *break* GOD I FUCKING LOVE MY LIFE!!! still deciding though… tree (driving into the tree i want to be buried at) pills knife or rope… such great chocies
hey but w.e i still love her even though i was rite 😀 but if i anit around the site wit in the next 2 days im gone.. […]
My suicidal feelings over the past few months culminated last week when I threw myself from my loft with a noose tied around my neck. I dangled around for a little, but the rope snapped, sparing my existence and leaving me with a nasty mark to cover up. Ironically, this botched attempt only made me more resolved to end my life. I came up with this idea that I would self-immolate myself in a public place, like the Buddhist monks during the Vietnam War. I’ve always been a flamboyant guy, with a fiery personality–it only makes sense that I should go out in a stunning […]
What is the meaning of life?
I am getting pretty tired of people calling me fat. My mom call me fat today. I knew everyone was being to nice. I knew everyone was fucking lying. They knew i was fat but didnt want to hurt my feelings. You already did by lying to me. I hate people, i hate my weight, and i hate myself. I bet there are more lies. I bet they are hiding something from me. Why do i leave a misabrel life v- v. Why has god not kill me? I am no more than a worthless patheitic overweight girl that people mock and makefun of. […]
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