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Suffering, every day
How could I know, this is the price I’d pay
Always the one, to make them laugh
It feels so good, knowing I’ll have the last
And I’m not faring so well
Deep inside this personal hell
We all find ways, to ease the pain
Looking for a reason, to walk away
My feet planted firmly, on the ground
I’ll leave this world, without a sound
Endless nights of tormented sleep
The nightmare inside, destroyed when I leap
And I’m not faring so well
Deep inside this personal hell
We all find ways, to ease the pain
Looking for a reason, to make us stay
Follow your heart, listen to your mind
There’s nothing left, when you leave us […]
im kayla and im 18 and i yell a lot but no one can here me and last night i cut myself and no one cared i heart is like no one is in it they dont wanna be in it my family don’t care about i cry my self to sleep at night
hi i am 26 male from uk. lookin for help in a painless method which is easy to arrange. i dont encourage this but neone who has absloutely made up their mind about doing this. I would be very very grateful for your assistance here. We can do it togather. Ne one from uk , you should atleast be in the twenties so you know what you are doing. appreciate any help here. leave your email or an instant messanger id here.
I am too relatively new here. I have been unemployed for one whole year. I have applied for numerous jobs. But rejected one after another.However. Now. I have lost all will to live.I have other personal problem’s happen to me. Prior to that . I was thrown out of home approximately   three times. The third was at a friends place i came home from my job and i just couldn’t get over the fact to endure again seeing all my personal belongings out under the car port. I was crying my eyes out with tears streaming down my face. Luckily. At that present time my sister was a live that took […]
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It’s one of those mornings. I haven’t slept at all, and I should be at school. I can’t even be bothered to take a shower, despite the odor in my bedroom. I only leave my room to eat, piss, shit, or to grab a smoke. The last couple of months, I’ve been tying and untying a noose every other night. Some nights, I get as far as standing on a chair, with the damn thing around my neck, ready to jump. Then, panic and the instinct of self-preservation kicks in.
The thing is; I’m not sad. I don’t feel depressed. I don’t want to cry. I’m […]
the thoughts never subside, and he still haunts me.
im new here. i guess im here because im so depressed and thinking about suicide but, i just hope if theres someone here i can talk about anything.. im just so depressed right now..
To all of you who have experienced heart ache, disappointment, abuse in multiple forms, and raised in drug centered families. I know you. Not personally, but emotionally. I was suicidal since I was  a toddler, but at that point my actions weren’t consider to be that of a depressed child. Doctors said I was just a frustrated child with pent up energy because i wanted to hurt everyone, including myself. I was too young to realize what it is i felt and why.
Growing up my dad wasn’t there, mom said he was a work-aholic, while he says she was a drug addict. Both were true. […]
Tomorrow simply slips away
with it goes my dismay.
Gone and found on distant shores
waiting for the open doors
to sway me this and that away
dismay waiting for some play.
on those elaborate distant shores
flitting like so many whores.
Oh, olive eyes of drowning seas!
Please, don’t stare
with such intensity…
The hurt and pain,
the endless guilt
that those soothing eyes
soon smolder silt.
Heat and passion
ask such a toll,
calling for my endless role
in hate, fear, and desperation
Relinquishing my compensation.
I don’t know why, but lately I’ve been obsessed with death. I’ve been obsessed about everything related to death. I’m obsessed on how people die slowly with pain and all those stuff. It all started when I was in a fight with my parents. and now I realize how shitty my life is. I have friends who back-stabs me whenever I’m not around. I don’t smile at all. I only smile when I’m watching shows. but I never smile when people are around. I find the whole world “disgusting” . I want to commit suicide badly but I can’t. there is a part in me […]
I am relatively new to posting on this website.
All I want to ask right now is that if it is okay to kill myself.  It seems like such a silly question to ask, but in the media and from just talking to alot of “normal” people, killing one’s self is absolutely wrong. I guess I am just looking for someone to tell me I am not crazy for having such strong feelings about death.
Just honest, straight up opinions.Â
It’s just there is this constant struggle between life and death everyday. It is getting to the point though where the struggle itself is wearing me out.
A whole year now, I’ve lived this hell
Yet no one knows for I wont tell
It seems that deaths not meant for me
Three times I’ve failed to set me free
By pill, by blade, even exuast
I always wake to find I’ve lost
WHY THE FUCK can’t I be
As happy as the ones I see
They go about their day and smile
Having a time, yet all the while
I sit here deep inside this husk
That bears my name awaiting dusk
If I get one wish it’s when I die
My soul wont see my mother cry
She’ll be ok after a while
They never knew
and never saw
the endless fear
engulfing us all.
A fear that stuck
and stained like ink,
rich with worry,
lies and deceit.
She lied to me
and also to you,
knowing we were all
just empty fools.
Willing to ignore,
forget, and abuse
that happiness she once knew.
She gave and gave,
while i just took.
A little fool
who was easily shook.
She finally gave
one last time,
but instead gave herself
that bloody line.
Across the throat
and down her wrists
my mother left
without a kiss.
Always been alone. Had to be strong, hide my feeling so nobody worried. Keeping head high and shit.
Family sucks. Asshole of a father who beated my mom and never cared about my studies now is trying to give me advise on how to life my life.
He left,i had to step up. Lot to carry, but its been like this since i was 10. My brothers cant do anything by themselves.
Life sucks, every girl i been with broke up with me because it was either i was too nice or i deserved someone better..B.S
I’m tired of trying to watch for other,worrying about my family,failing at everything..God.
I thought […]
All I ever wanted was to be something, not an object to be raped and beaten in the world, I am going to die soon…but the gunmans hand, and while I feel some regret to this bullet, I feel the freedom of the pain all my friends have ever tried for nothing..
Fuck them..they left me cold and darkend in my time of need..raped and beaten on the sidewalk..god how that day changed everything..goodbye I dont care, a 22 has my name on it
I can’t get this out of my head. Three weeks now and 6 months before that. When will you stop haunting me? When will this pain subside, this dependency to hear that voice that in the past so tenderly whispered my name through the deep nights? Too often i look at your photo and shriek into the pillow and wish that i had the courage like mom to slit my throat. I gave up that pain that released my feelings of frustration and feebleness for you. Now you say it doesn’t matter. What i feel doesn’t matter. All i want to feel is you, but […]
The days blur,
blessed with dreams,
dreams of you
with dreams of me.
Those dreams aren’t real.
Those dreams are false.
They always come
but at what cost?
The cost of blood,
the cost of pain.
The haze is fading,
and so i pay.
I paid the cost
and now I’m lost.
Forever wandering,
forever washed
ashore that empty
lonesome beach,
that some may call
eternal sleep.