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I just wish it were around my neck instead of under my feet. The fear that I might drop just isn’t worth the work I put in and the pain I endure. But I’m not selfish enough, nor do I have the courage to free myself.
IDont have anyone iiCan trust..
Not at least anymore…
R.I.P Megan.<3
But uhmmm.. Yeah..):
I was ready to do this recently, but decided to hold off until Valentine’s Day. Both to better research my exit options and for the sheer poetic novelty of doing it on such a holiday as Valentine’s Day. Who knows, maybe it’ll sour the EX’s  memory of her dinner date tonight with the man she left me for, as well.
I’m going to spend the night drinking heavily, head home when I’m feeling good and toasted and then go out to the nearby bridge with the noose I tied and jump off the side. I’ve made it extra long as to make sure I’m dead. Â 15ft. […]
for the past couple of months i’ve been feeling heartache. not the conceptual kind, an actual physical pain. I guess my sadness has taken so much of my life that it’s physically hurting me.
My story blends in so well with everyone else’s. I had a rough childhood and after many different actions I ended up going to therapy. They diagnosed me bipolar and automatically put me on meds. After a summer experimenting with pot I dropped the meds. Then I tried to kill myself with them. I failed and ended up being Baker Acted. Once I got out I felt the same. I have no friends that truly love me, never been kissed and I am almost legal, and life is just too bland. I told my doctor about my plans Friday. Today is Monday. Still I feel […]
i haven’t been doing my h.w in a LONG time…really… my house is WAY to noisy to get ANYTHING done.Todays valentines day EEW that means im gonna hear my parents do the nasty = l not happy about it…I might fail the WHOLE grade…im gonna get SUCH a beating if that happens…hmmm…i joined the literary magazine in my school and im gonna give them one of my DEATH poems so that should be really interesting plus thats the only thing i can write about.I swear my guidance counceler is fallowing me.Im seeing her EVERYWHERE i go i think it’s because my teacher told her about […]
that’s the word… the word that means I’m crying, behind the screen.
‘how’re you?’
‘bleh, alright’
‘cool’
I give you so MANY hints.
‘are you depressed? lol’ ‘not at the moment’
‘what you up to’ ‘cleaning my face, my new eyeliner obviously isn’t water proof xD’
god. I’ve actually been TRYING to give you obvious hints for these past few weeks. and you’re just as oblivious. or do you not care? hm…this time. It’s definatly the second one.
Jake, you know what depression is, you’ve been through it. I can sense it through the internet that you want to ask. you go quiet, when I give you a hint. please…ask. it’ll save […]
Does anyone remember what introduced the concept of suicide to them or how. Where it sort of began. The older ones may not but I’m sure it’s still fresh within the younger crowd here. At what point did killing yourself become an escape. I don’t think it’s intuitive. We all learned it from somewhere.
As a kid, I got upset a few times but never did I bring out a knife until one night..
i know how stupid this sounds but i just hate hate hate this date…reminds me of how miserable and lonely i am right now i dont know i just wish it could be already over makes wanna kill myself even more i know its just a date but damn im hating it…
I think i’m reaching the point of no return, just can’t deal with life anymore.
I feel misunderstood and alone.
I need a friend : bugeyes7@gmail.com
Right now, I’m being completely selfish, and I’m letting it run through my body. I’m embracing it. I’m selfish for even having a thought of suicide. but I don’t give a fuck. let it be. I don’t know how I’m going to do it, maybe take some pills. Hopefully I get the guts to do it. pray that I do.
At 5:53 Febuary 11th 2011 my best friend tried to commit suicide… She took 30 benadryls… She wasn’t successfull, but was it my fault? Well we were more than best friends we were way more… You can say sisters, best friends, but to me she was my love.. She tried to take her life because i was hers… I left… She wanted more i didn’t… She was taken to the hospital, i wasn’t allowed to see her.. I was suppose to be giving her space to get help, no one would tell me anything.. No would tell me what was going on, if she was […]
“Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has.” – Margaret Mead.
What happened in Egypt is the real, solid proof of this quote.
No one before probably could predict nor expect that this kind of huge thing could ever happen, even in year 2011,.but it DO…ES and CAN happen!
Hope is not all lost.
I was hoping this would help me find a fool proof way of “stop the world ” i want to get off, ive read all the splurge – cowards way, think of those you leave behind but at no one can comprehend the dark forces at work you feel there are more desrving people who should live rather than you ask god to swap them for you god what ****ing god a higher power who the **** knows hate yourself despise disgusted to even want to find any one to talk to no one could begin to know whats going on iside your head( let […]
Hello, Im 14 years old and i was raped 4 times in 2 years.. My mom and dad said stuff such as We dont want you, we wish you had a misscarrage, You’ll never get married, the usual iHate you. My dad abused me. Then iHave one half sister and we fight all the time. Every day iThink to myself.. Why am i Alive.. Why does anyone talk to me. ICut myself… Ive been cutting myself for like 2 years. IGot involved into drugs and alcohal. Or however you spell it. People think im just faking all of it. IHad a good relationship untill school […]
During the last 2 years my life completely done a 180. When I was younger, my mother had a well paying job and she could support the two of us. ( I have no siblings and my dad never wanted to be a part of my life.) Then she got sick and now suffers from meiners disease. She got laid off that job and can’t work right now. But since I was younger that never had a great impact on me, so I lived my life as normal. When I got into high school, I had a great group of friends and always knew that […]
“Help, I have done it again. I have been here many times before. I hurt myself again today. And, the worst part is: there’s no one else to blame. Be my friend. I am weak. Ouch, I have lost myself again. I’ve lost myself, and I am nowhere to be found. I think that I might break. I’ve lost myself again, and I feel unsafe.”
I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m lost. For one, all of my friends have betrayed me. They left me here to fend for myself. I’m all alone. There’s nobody who’ll listen. There isn’t anyone here to talk to. My […]
I want to die, i just want to stop being . I’m not depressed in the truest sense but i’m not really anything either way- i have no personality, i have no self, no opinions on anything, no emotions, no moods, very few legitimate interests, no identity, no mind, no soul- when i speak it’s like the words just blurt out of my mouth without any filtering done in advance.Â
 I am just a zombie robot or robot zombie, whatever you want to call it, who was brought to this world for no reason whatsoever. My ambitions are shaky, embarrasingly uncertain and fluctuating, floundering,  and are often just totally absent.  I often spend huge chunks of […]
I need some ********, and quick. I’m going on a trip to Zion this (presidents day)weekend, where i would perfer to end my life. I live in San Diego, and although i’ve read that ******** is “easy” to acquire in TJ,that doesnt seem to be the case. I know one of you has some, so come on, help a brother out.
Does anyone in the uk know what happens to a suicide vic’s body? I’m seriously getting close to suicide now but I live alone and don’t have £1000s sat in my bank account. I have no family (not seen or spoken to in many years) I guess my body will be found when it smells to bad or the bank repo’s my house! Anyway I guess the house and car will be taken away but who will pay for my funeral? Can I leave instructions to make sure noone will be able to attend the funeral? Also will someone need to I’d my body? Who […]
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