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so i walk home from school everyday, 2 miles…..
today its raining, so i get soaked….
but i love the rain, fog, mist, everything that people call “depressing” and i think……….is there something wrong with that? no.

does everyone have to be some rainbow covered, unicorn loving, happy optimistic freak?!?!
ok…as close as im getting to that is red hair…….

how hard is it to figure out which way to die?!!! i wonder about bleeding to death, hanging, or drowning.

deadly thoughts

I’ll put it plain and simple so noone has to stress about reading shit.

What is the easiest and most painless way out…

this is the book i’m trying to write……my parents read it WITHOUT my permission and they were like “wtf?” and got mad…….like? (i lost my train of thought in the middle of that last paragraph, and i havent read the whole story through, so pardon everything)

~AN OLD DOOR slammed. Car brakes screeched. I heard a woman scream. A young woman’s scream, like I’ve only heard once before. The most horrible sound, of a woman being hit by a car.
I ran out of my house to see a Ford F150 stop in front of my home. A young man jumped out; maybe he was in […]

my nightmare is that i’m going to die alone. unfortunately, it seems like my life is headed in that direction. the last years of schooling is suppose to be the time when you’ll find your spouse and have that fear disappear, or at least delay that feeling a few more years. I haven’t found mine yet, and I don’t have much time. But I’m not as scared of it anymore; i’m just starting to accept it and start on that cat collection.

Hi peeps, i posted on here i dunno bout a month and a 1/2 ago and well i got to admit it was a bunch if shit.. i felt like killing my self but i never did and im happy i didnt… but that still doesnt get over the fact that life is shit and id rather not live where i live or continue doing wat i do, not that its that bad im sure there would be heaps of people who’d kill to have my life.. not the point tho

So this is my proposal, i am reaching out to a few people who’d like to […]

So, I think I might do it tonight.  I’ve been wanting to get this over with for such a long time but I don’t know..I guess  I was too scared to actually go through with it before.   It was like the fear outweighed the pain, but now it’s the other way around so I’m ready. Anyway,  I’ve researched tons of ways to do it from carbon monoxide poisoning to some method that involves charcoal and another method that involves coffee  etc but I’ve decided to go with hanging myself.   I would feel guilty about leaving my family behind if they actually cared  but they don’t […]

I cried when he opened the door. My eyes were streaming salty liquid. I saw a young boy tied to a chair wearing a straightjacket; he was maybe fourteen or fifteen. He was struggling with a piece of cloth bound around his mouth. He thrashed so hard at once his chair tipped over and he continued to struggle on the hard, stone floor. The man who had tied him there smiled at me, I glared at him through my tear-filled eyes. I pushed him away and through the doorway. I locked the door and it was just me and the thrashing boy now. He stopped […]

life is a game. he game of life is interesting. some people are better than others. some have better rolls. some lose sooner than others. the reward for losing is death, and some people lose sooner than others.

I felt the needle puncture my skin and the liquid spread inside of me. I tightly closed my eyes, receiving the tingly feeling I so often craved. I had little money, but what money I did have went towards getting high on illegal drugs. Next the cocaine. I injected that into my left arm, I felt the drug reach my blood stream and I felt more alert. I felt my body temperature go up. My eyes opened wide and I looked around, I listened. I felt like I had just drunk high caffeine coffee and it felt good. I looked through my small brown bag […]

can i have opinons on my writing? im thinking about writing enough stories to publish a book….i wrote one, like 17 printer pages……wanna see it anyone?

~I felt a droplet of water brush the tip of my nose. I looked up and another drop hit my eyelashes. Drop after drop landed on my face. I blinked rapidly to clear my vision and started walking. Water bounced off my hair and beaded as I traveled. Though under trees, I was sopping. My clothing was suctioned to my body in an uncomfortable way. I saw something of a cabin and went to it; an abandoned farmhouse, I went […]

~I screamed, he was right there. My vision was foggy, it went black. I was still conscious, shit, death was near and I couldn’t see. I crawled and hit my knee on a sharp rock. I yelped and felt warm liquid leak from the wound. There was a crunch of a stick right behind me, I turned instinctively but still couldn’t see. I felt a cold piece of steel on my neck. Next I was grabbed by the waist and carried a far distance, then thrown into what felt like a car trunk. I couldn’t help it, I cried. I was shaking in fear […]

this was the email that was sent about me, maybe a month ago…..you dont know how many times ive read it and i have it memorized…it made me cry….it made my bff cry, it made my friends serious for once…and i wouldnt have know if one of my newer friends hadent told me….it made my mom cry, i want to die, it humuliated me……idk who sent it……i never did anything to anyone..

How many of you know Celia (last name)? 7th grade? (name of school) Middle School?
How many of you hate the *****?? I do. She’s such a sketch.
I hate how everyone talks about […]

I am in utter despair… I’m desperately trying to figure out why I deserve to live or why I should… I finally bought the gun and I was hoping to change my mind but I haven’t.  What do I do?  I have the day planned… maybe I’ll change my mind?  So hopeless, so worthless… God is playing around with me like a little toy

im 12, ive been seriously cyber bullied….an email about me went around, it said mean things and callled me names, it said “forward this if you hate…” and my name…….thats basically when it started…….well, kinda…i wrote a lot like i do, i liked metal / screamo, i just never thought to hurt myself…..and my parents havent helped…:(

~I stared up the grassy incline and saw a tall, slender silhouette. The falling sun beams pierced my vision as I looked. It seemed to be of a young man; maybe 17. I started to climb the hill to see what was on the other side. When I reached the peek, the boy greeted me with fear in his eyes. I ignored him and looked down the other side. It was steep and rocky with a rigid pool at the base. The boy looked at me out of the corner of his eye. He seemed nervous; he bit his lips and was rubbing his hands. […]

Hello I am a 39 year old woman that really hates life. I seem to be stuck in a deep depression and everyday it gets worse. I feel like the biggest failure in the world. I have been divorced now 4 years and just got out of a terrible relationship with a guy I loved very much. I tried to move on and I just cannot get him out of my mind. I have been treated so badly by men that I am scared to even go out with another man. I tried going out with my friend one night and I made the mistake […]