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I give up i need to die, i have tryed for the last 3month trying to kill myself but nothing is working need help need all this to be over

i just want out of this darkness. the first time i wanted to kill myself i was 11 yrs old. there’s a sign to come of a life of misery – what healthy kid thinks about suicide? none, that’s who. my childhood was shit so my foundation was already wobbly and deeply cracked. how am i supposed to build greatness or just plain ole happiness on that?

i’m 33 yrs old and married. my partner is good, kind, loving, which i could be more of, but just can’t because of my inner blocks. i’ve had 2 devastating heart breaks […]

My life is a mess. One thing helps me through; helping others with their problems. I will talk to you about anything; from the weather to your deepest fears and problems. Email me and I will email back.. You deserve a chance..

emeliajane@hotmail.co.nz.

Love&Light.

The world around you is falling and Life seems to vanish. People are running by. The cries they scream are no longer there. The night grows longer and longer. The main thing is that being alone sucks. I look around for someone and silently call for help. To bad you’re not there to help. You call and say you will be late but never even show. I’ll cry inside and not tell a soul. You will never know the nightmares that are there every day. Three hours tonight, hopefully I’ll have more tomorrow. People are all around and yet I feel so small. I’m not […]

Quantity or quality. I ask myself that everyday. I am somewhat happy now. On meds that stabilize my mood. But I am still empty inside. It is that emptiness that no one understands. I have borderline personality disorder. (And I don’t even know why I chose to share it with any of my friends, they say that I am not borderline and that I am just fine. Yet they fail to answer why I wish to put a bullet in my heart to replace the emptiness.) So I continue to tread lightly. I avoid my […]

Even after i told my friends about my problems the showed little care exept for 3 people. And i thank them with all of my heart. But even if it made me feel alittle better. I still want to die, so do day just to see if anyone truely cared about me. I send a text saying “if i died would u cry? would u care?”. i had 4 responses. But only to the 1st question. “YES” “mabey” “of course” and  r u asking this? To those people who resoponded i thank you again. because that one word saved my life today. And i may […]

I was just wondering… maybe this has been specifically discussed before on a different thread (before I joined), or maybe there’s an unspoken rule of not talking about this… but since the subtitle of this site is “Tell Your Suicide Story with Others”, is anyone open to listing the method(s) they chose to end it all?

Obviously since we’re reading this, the method was not completely carried out, but I was just curious if anyone wanted to list the method(s) they chose (or perhaps are thinking about), kinda like a survey of everyone’s plan(s). Or am I way out of line here […]

I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be provocative but I’ve given this a lot of thought over the years. This earth is of course hell (or something like that), that cannot be denied, it is riddled with bad things happening constantly, some of it seeps through your TV and it just washes over you. You see it, yet you do nothing.  Oh, you might feel upset by it but the act of feeling upset does not qualify you as a good person in itself. I too see it, and I do nothing, what can we do? Really, what can we do?  We can’t do anything […]

I first took an overdose at the age of 14 , although there was a boy involved in my unhappiness at that time, deep inside, I knew it was more than that, although I was too young to be able to understand it fully. My parents didn’t know I took the overdose, they just thought I was sick for a couple of days, but my mum knew I was upset about the boy at that time. She told me that I am young and boys will come and go blah blah and I have a whole life ahead of me. To which I replied that […]

I’ve been planning to kill myself but also in the process I’ve been trying to find a reason to stay alive. I’m struggling.

Today, for the first time in ages I switched on the TV and I don’t know if I’ve finally gone mental but all the faces on the TV just seem ridiculous, I have noticed that even people’s facial expressions are fake these days. Then earlier I was googling something and came across a yahoo answers question link, I ended up just out of boredom just looking at other questions (this was the first time I had been on this site). The questions I […]

I was wondering if anyone has seen the movie “Numb” with Matthew Perry. Although he has a different disorder than the ones I have, I thought it was comforting watching him struggle as I have with life – feeling numb, feeling disconnected with the world, not understanding why, part of him wanting things to just go back to “normal” but feeling frustrated that it never can.

I just thought it was interesting to see life fall apart to an otherwise quite intelligent man and how he had to try to live a somewhat “fake” life because people just didn’t understand what it was like to […]

I can see that slowly, more and more people are beginning to see the truth, or at least seek the truth. Many are now really feeling that there is a deep and irreversible dark world at work here on earth. I am not talking about religion.

I have posted a link at the bottom of this post, it is a 3 hour talk about what is happening to mankind. Some may say that this is a conspiracy theory, but everything in this speech IS proven and CAN be seen by anyone. The control that we are all under here on earth is so great that you […]

Dear reader

my name is peter im from leeds in westyorkshire united kingdom im 44 yrs old and need help

i suffer with post traumatic childhood stress syndrome

explosive personallity dissorder

o.c.d

I wont write pages to explain what happened all i will say is from the agess of 10/16 i was sexually abused and have only now found the strenth to talk to the police about it.. ive tryed so many times to die thinking if i was dead the pain would stop but then i wake up in hospital and it starts all over again

ive never been able to keep a relationship going for to long and im […]

Hey all,

Kind of struggling just now with feelings and am just not sure what to do. I have Complex PTSD and this week has brought new challenges since being diagnosed a few months ago. Not sure of next steps…

Unlike most posts on here, I have no real problems that I can talk of. My life is pretty good actually and I see good and beauty everywhere, but I do also see the bad. I laugh a lot, pretty much everyday I can see the funny side to most things. I am also deeply compassionate and can cry at a sad advert! 

But I have been suicical for most of my life. I have tried it a couple of times but made mistakes. I have studied a certain method well and have ensured that on my final attempt that I will succeed. 

I read the posts […]