My Suicide Note

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Thursday, my rope arrives

  November 18th, 2018 by TheDyingEmperor

I want to say goodbye to everyone.

I ordered the rope which will be the noose that ends my life this Thursday.

I cannot live in this skin anymore. I’m not in control of myself and my day-to-day habits. I cannot improve myself in any way, I completely lack self-dicipline and motivation.

Sunday, I realised that there is no way out for me. Here I am, on a course, to study games, the only thing I’m interested in, and I put in 0 effort and neglect to pursue my dreams.

If I look back at the last 26 years, it’s been mostly suffering. There’s little for me to remember …

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I want to leave this hateful world

  November 17th, 2018 by Iwantoleave

People hate me, no one likes me. When they see my face they spit on ground. I didn’t harm anyone, but i don’t know why people hate me. I dont want to live in this world. Why only bad things are happening with me. Good bye everyone.

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Is Tonight The Night?..

  October 30th, 2018 by Garce Anderson

The night has been shitty

The week has been shitty

The month has been shitty

The past too many years have been shitty and I’m really over it.

I haven’t cut in two years and i was proud of myself but tonight was a hard night.

I got in the shower, few hours later… blood.

Now I’m laying in bed, wanting the pain to stop.

I know it won’t happen but I don’t know what else to do…

I have my pills and razor next to me thinking of what to do next.

My head is  buzzing, all i can think is how therapy and pills aren’t enough. Nothing is enough. I fucking hate …

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feeling nothing

  October 27th, 2018 by x0zz

I can’t recognize myself in the mirror , have no money to buy drugs that cure me, no friends , everyone I now used me , my family used me , my family did hurrible things to me , things I can’t say , or remember , I lost my memories , I don’t remember who I was , can’t say who I am now , I have no future , all the things in my life was someone’s else plan , I never did or sayed the things I want , I always react as they want me , I could killed for stupid …

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I dont belong to this world

  October 22nd, 2018 by Itscolourlife

Its not me
Its me
I want me
Its not me
I hate me
Its me
I love me
Its not me

This place that I dont belong to
Where is the place I belong to
No one care about me
The good deed I did
The other receive the happiness
Me?
No one remember me
Why?
A?
A?
You dont belong here
Dont you hear me?
The hell is your place to go

You hate everyone in this world
You hate yourself
No one care about you
No one love you
You are like satan
Since a kid you are just..
Satan

Useless
Till now..

Be normal..
You crooked mind..

Die with us
Keep the sadness
Slowly slowly
Turn it into hatred

But Im here
No one see you

They can
But they dont care

They care
When you are normal and be doll to …

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Pain and humiliation

  October 17th, 2018 by SamG

I’m over this life of mine…

I am working on ways to end my pain that I live with daily.  I am slowly planning my suicide leaving no room for error because I need the attempt to work.  I first of all need to draw up a will and have it legalised. That way all money from my super etc. goes to my husband for him to be able to support our children.

I can’t live with how I am feeling for much longer….just recently I have had family humiliate me and make me feel so worthless I know I am better off dead.

I can’t do this …

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Until your dead

  October 16th, 2018 by thelonergirl123

Why is it when you suddenly die, everyone is like oh “she was so loved” or “I’m going to miss her”.   Am I the only one thinking you’ll miss throwing stuff at her and posting on the hate page you created about her. I guess once you die people just love to hear “I’m so sorry for your loss” and get attention off of your death at least that’s what they’re doing with hers.

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Numb

  October 6th, 2018 by Undecided13

I’m in that point of life when I could no longer feel the sadness, no longer feel the pain. I could no longer feel anything. Its like I’m just numb. Just drifting into the darkness that had broken me more times that I could count. So much pain, I wished for it all to disappear. I wanted to escape, because I am too much a coward to face it. I guess I got my wish, then.

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no way out

  October 6th, 2018 by AKidWithAName

She was drunk.  Doesn’t that make it my fault?  She was raped before.  That’s the only reason she did it.  She wouldn’t have done it to me if it wasn’t done to her.  She was too drunk to know what she was doing and it wasn’t her fault, right?  And God will condemn me for adultery and homosexuality.  She’s taken any chance of heaven away from me.  She stripped me of any hope for a future.  There is nothing after this.  Not even death could let me escape this hell.  It’s never going to end and I am going to continue to be tortured by …

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I’m Sorry

  September 30th, 2018 by impuretama

I’m sorry I’m ugly

I’m sorry I’m useless

I’m sorry that I’m not smarter

I’m sorry that I’m not more athletic

I’m sorry for being so annoying

I’m sorry for being a piece of shit

I’m sorry that I’m not better at my job

I’m sorry that I’m fat

I’m sorry that I can’t cook better meals

I’m sorry that weak

I’m sorry that I’m emotional

I’m sorry that I’m so pathetic

I’m sorry to anyone that has to deal with me

I’m sorry that I exist

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Sun Rises

  September 28th, 2018 by Imaginary Girl

[A suicide note draft from my notebook]

 

 

At the time I am writing this, the sun is rising. I’ve always kind of had a soft spot for the sunrise. Especially when you stay up all night to watch it. Waking up just to see the sunrise is nice too, however, I think it’s a lot harder to wake up than stay up.

I have good memories of sunsets, but a part of me likes sunrises more because I don’t have as many memories tied to them.

The night sky is also extremely calming, but it has the ability to fill you up with adrenaline.

At one of my old …

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Disappear

  September 26th, 2018 by idkwtd

No life is perfect- I know that very well.
Im from a broken family but at an early age of 5 I have no choice but to accept reality.
I’ve always been a good daughter (at least that’s what I believe). I studied hard for my mom because I know how hard it is for her to raise us, I dont want her to be disappointed in me so I always tried my best in school and promise myself to help her when I graduate.
Now, it’s been a year since I graduated from college. I already found a job right after graduating but I thought I wasnt …

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My Suicide Note

  September 26th, 2018 by breakingthehabit

echo “Hello World!”

My mind is going blank as I’m typing this. It’s feels weird, It feels terrifying, and even worse, It feels so peaceful!

I don’t know what to say, I don’t know how where I’m going with my words. I can’t structure my thoughts, I can’t be coherent right now. I want to , I so very badly want to but, I can’t.

I feel like a fraud. I feel like I’m deceiving and hurting people on purpose, I feel like there’s nothing wrong with my life and I am making everything hard for myself intentionally so I can milk empathy . I’m lying when tell …

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The end of heaven

  September 24th, 2018 by angeldiamond

I see people walk

I see people talk

It’s not your fault, I say to the people that help

It’s becoming a fault without end

I don’t want to die

But feel livid within

I love my loves

I hate my hates

But right now all I want is happiness with him

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Reason… No Reason…

  September 20th, 2018 by Itscolourlife

Yesterday I find a reason to live
Today I find a reason to die
Tomorrow what is the reason ?

Go back to my old self
Thats what I want
But it wont
Cause its already gone
The reason behind it

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empathy

  September 17th, 2018 by undoubtedly

i was born a long time ago, near the start of this new century. in relation to others it is not such a long time, but these days have dragged on and on.

the place i live cannot be called a home. it is a house. the house itself is wonderful. the man inside it makes it hell.

i do not like the smell of whiskey and cigarettes the first thing in the morning. i do not like the smell of razor blades and blood in the middle of the night.

the psychiatrists cannot fix me and the therapists cannot even help. nothing but sleep calms my inner …

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09/17/18 6:48pm

  September 17th, 2018 by undoubtedly

i don’t want to be here. it is not the place for me.

you are not a dad. you are not a father. you are not even a person. you are a captor. you are the source of my torment.

let me go.

i love the people who matter to me. i love them more than they love me back. it has always been this way. i have accepted it.

please feed my animals and love them as i did.

please hug your family.

please know i had to escape. leaving this physical place would not relieve my aching mind.

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Almost Ready

  September 16th, 2018 by Francis53

My first attempt was when I was nine, then again at thirteen, then twenty-two and the last when I was fourty-three.
It is not important I provide details about the first two, other than they certainly were very serious attempts, and had someone not miraculously stumbled upon me, I would not be writing this. Despite the graveness of those attempts, no one ever asked me questions about it after.
At twenty-two, it ended up more comedy than anything. The attempt was more alcohol fueled than anything, leaving a huge mess in my place when I woke up.
Fourty-three……. I tried my best, however people again managed to locate …

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I am tired.

  September 15th, 2018 by Engie

I wrote a suicide note once. Only time I ever did. I wrote it right before what I guess you could call my first real attempt. It was only three words long.

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Life is boring , Reality is boring , real life is boring , real world is boring

  September 14th, 2018 by niki

Especially when you’ve realized that nothing we do here in reality will ever compare to our imaginations. And no, I’m not talking about petty, shallow, superficial, & stupid imaginations like most people only have with their simple-minded brains. I’m talking about all those best fantasy movies, games, novels, comic books, anime/manga, etc, with all their magic, superpowers, & magical, fantasy, adventurous world/universe with its limitless, unlimited possibilities.

Fuck this reality.
Reality is boring, stupid, & depressing.

reality is boring , life is boring ,
it’s all about money
i hate money
i hate business
i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

I hate …

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