For your poems.
Raindrops have been catching my eye lately. Humans and our shit are predictable and banal, but raindrops…not so much. Feels good to take pictures again, just wish I could make myself stick with it.
Gratitude is overrated, like many other optimistic/positive-thinking advices. Not everybody can do that. It’s unrealistic, and honestly full of BS (bullshit)
Gratitude has become today’s current hype which everyone seems to be doing, and even keep posting about it constantly on social media. Everywhere you see people always talk about gratitude (& with all other optimistic/positive stuff usually).
It becomes irritating however when gratitude is forced and shoved down our throats, as if everyone should (or must) do that. In reality, you can’t just force other people to keep showing gratitude constantly. Things happened, shits happened; problems, pain, & sufferings happen to some people, which is ridiculous […]
inside my mind im screaming outside they see all smiles from my face it hides my cell
I’m a worn out friend. Old and worn out. Like my old shirt I’m not using anymore, just laying in my wardrobe. This is like clothes. You’re maybe tired of your old shirt you have been wearing for years so you decide to look for a new one, a better one. Maybe you’re throwing your old shirt away, or you feel like it may get useful someday so you just throw it in your wardrobe. It just ends up laying there forever until you one day decide to clean up and throw away old clothes you’re not using anymore. But when you finally find the […]
why is my love never good enough for you?
I let you fill my lungs and mind with toxins
and although
the excitement last a couple mins
your effects latch onto me like a mother breastfeeding her child
i love you so much
even though you assaulted me
and try to forcefully rip apart my heart
the moonlight is green tonight
everyone in the whole world is cheerful
I love you so much
if I don’t have you I’m going to pour gasoline and set myself ablaze
for without your love I can’t […]
Healing.
That’s the word we keep using.
Healing the inner child. Healing the past, Healing and moving forward. Moving with each other.
Special.
What we have is clearly special.
It’s not like we love each other, but we care. We keep using that word, too. Care. I care for her. She cares for me.
…
Pact.
We made a pact together.
We would be alone with each other if it helped and also avoid self-isolation.
Her mind. Font. Her Font. She is so similar to me. She calls it OCD and Anxiety.
I am afraid to speak before her.
but my words
become easier as they leave me
when I speak with her –
i feel heard. After all. Somehow. […]
The whole ordeal was a mistake. A horribly thought out, biased mistake that was never supposed to happen and how could I and WHY would I be so stupid?
I don’t understand why i’m doing this to myself but for some reason,
I can’t seem to stop.
Having a planet full of blossoming minds is so hard, when you want to be the one, to create something that’s new. Being mediocre is a lifetime goal, for some. I’ve always fallen out of the cookie cutter, which was meant to shape me into something worthwhile. Don’t touch me, I’m far from getting a smile plastered on with permanent icing. I’ve gripped the pencil, as I saw fit. I drew what scared me inside. Nobody can guess the emotion.
I said ‘good morning’ for the first time to the lady that runs behind me with her cup to ask for spare change every day on […]
To live, to suffer, to pray for it all to end.
To live some pathetic lie, that everythings fine. When in the end you will die. Everyone will die.
To endure, only to break. A neverending hurt, with everything, and nothing at stake.
There is only one escape now. To leave, never come back. Leave this hell called the world, fading into black.
To end, just to end it all.
-sorry, ik this sucks lol. I’ll blame my sleep deprivation rather than my shitty writing skills. I’m not okay.
Soon the time will come, where I will say goodbye.
Formulate my last words, try not to make them cry.
Soon I will fade away, while the rest move on.
An interesting phenomenon.
Soon the night will come, and in the night I’ll die.
They may, or may not cry.
I’ll take my one last breath.
I’ll kiss the face of death.
And say goodbye forever.
Soon.
They want us to perform, but what if we can’t do that.? So many unsolved problems in life at once, so where does one start.? Always remaining selfish, due to being a neverending untangling mess of ourselves. Being sick but not quite enough, what’s that even.? Socializing seemed like a good idea, until facing a try and error. Regretting things I’ve said, hell, even the way I said them. I used to rest easy, now there seems to be a problem. The body aches for good reason. My mind’s like a winning race horse, it’s so draining. My hair is blue again but this time […]
She’s the type of women you will regret not fighting for
After all with a women like her by your side
You will feel as if anything is possible
She has such a strong desire to help you manifest your
visions just as much as her own
She has a burning desire to stay by your side – yes even if you have nothing
You will regret not keeping her
Some women are […]
Never knowing when to get off. Missing the stop. Melodies on my ear. Don’t talk to me, I can’t hear. Not watching people, who are not watching me. My screen showing high definition, who needs reality.? Wearing a medical mask over my multiple other ones. More stackable than the bacteria that occupies my lungs. A beeping of a new sold ticket to hell. You’re one of us now, we don’t treat each other well. My bag holds my belongings, it deserves the rest it’s given. Nothing is forgiven, until we’ve all arrived. Seeing people better on the inside than looking in, gave me insight and […]
Looking to golden lights, disoriented by gossamer affection
You never loved me- lie no more. Leave me or love me, I shan’t stand for your façade any longer. I see truth, I knew from the genesis of your sin, it held no virtues.
You called my light delusion, and you called my patience an unchecked ego. When I spoke clearly at last, your shell crumbled, you held no quarter to the lies before which you had brought forth against me. You say it “I love you not, I care nothing for you however you shall live.” And so it was laid plain.