Rants

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If you want to talk, I’m here.

  November 20th, 2010 by avriel

am here to talk

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Okay, so I lied.

  November 14th, 2010 by sakura_haruko

I said in my last post that I wouldn’t be posting here anymore, but I need to. I need this place. I need it to vent.

And to you, you know who you are, if you’re watching me then fuck you. I will find you and seriously beat your ass down and both April and I will not show you any mercy like Rachel continues to do. I’m not as kind as I used to be anymore, thankfully, you made me like this now.

So, to you guys who have commented and responded honestly and wholeheartedly to my posts, thank you. (: I don’t know if any …

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someone to truely care :(

  November 12th, 2010 by jareth1slipknot7

i’m new to this ive never really told many about my problems but i really have noone to talk to about it so why not to other people who may can help or care. well im 20 year old male who i think im gay ….well now it started i believe in middle school i was never a happy person growing up although i didnt have a bad childhood i was tubby sorta but i knew many people i somehow got so scared of people i developed social anxiety disorder which i struggle with still today i remember staying out of claases going to take …

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Can’t even get out of bed.

  November 6th, 2010 by Ms-Brandee

I’m 18.. Been through things that at certain ages, I shouldn’t have had to worry over. Been on the streets, been starving with no food, my dad has never been in my life. child protective services in my life my entire 18 years. Lost the only person I lived for which was my mom at the age of 13.  I’ve basically been to hell and back more the a couple of times.It doesn’t get easier to live without her. I’m tired of being angry at the world for her not being here.. I’m so exhausted from being so mad all the time. I just can’t …

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  November 1st, 2010 by meena314

Hello I’m new to this site.. haven’t even read other post but I really need to say something to anyone.

Today is a down day… I awoke 7 hours after I was suppose to and only because family member prodded me. Most days are like this. Suicidal thought. Crying fits, daydreams about anything other than my current life. It’s exhausting and I’m tired.

I sought help at the beginning of the month for my anxiety/depression and wonder if I should have told my doctor I have tried to kill myself before but quietly decided not to….until the next time…and the next.

Well now I’m at the end of …

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Dont know what to do anymore

  October 29th, 2010 by smilingshigagi

I suppose depression starting taking over my life very early. I was always being made fun of as a kid so of course I naturally felt withdrawn from everyone else. I have been very unsucessful in having one close  friend or someone I can talk to. Nowadays I mostly lose them because I’m depressed and  complain alot, or I lose them becasue I’m too afraid to get close . I can’t stand  to get hurt anymore than I already have.  When I was 18 I was  taken to a mental health facility by a school counselor. I honestly thought  I could get some help by being there but after a week or so my mom was

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I Can’t Escape

  October 25th, 2010 by schatten84

this is gonna take awhile… I can’t escape my past, and yet I’m terrified of my future. I suffered through 16 years of a severely abusive childhood, ending in my father committing suicide in 2000; it left me with a paralyzing fear of abandonment, making it next to impossible for me to connect with anyone. I met the girl that I would marry in march of 2000, just 2 weeks before my father died; we just had our first child in February of this year – and here’s where the future comes into play. I’ve been subconsciously pushing away from my wife for the last …

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Thoughts

  October 25th, 2010 by Anna

On occasion, my state of mind is regarded- commented upon- by persons that I know, and too my choices of literature and music find their way into the analysis of someone who is neither a doctor nor a psychologist, but merely somebody that I have known. I am told at these times that what I choose to read, watch, listen to ‘probably doesn’t help’ to lift my spirits or prevent me from contemplating what purpose I am serving by merely existing, or as to whether ending my life would grant me any more respite than the closeness of the dark does at the end of …

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You get better at dealing with pain.

  October 21st, 2010 by quitemad

I hate telling you how much easier it gets after some time.
I hate it because of how meaningless and trite it sounds compared to the gravity behind the emotions. Cutting allowed me to remind myself that I was calm, capable, and in control sometimes. The scars are still there. Most of you are tough as nails but won’t ever admit it. Maybe you already have and that’s why you’re still here. It doesn’t really matter why you’re still here. Just stay for a while. Get some sleep. Grab something to eat and drink all your water. Survive. Shut out the pain. You’re going to have …

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Daydreams/comtemplations

  October 18th, 2010 by RogueShadow1281

So, I’m tired of life. All I do is daydream because life is so dull. I feel like I fucked up my life and my brain. I have depression, my stepmom/stepbitch (as i like to call her) is a *****, my dads a moron, my brother’s annoying and my friends are more like enemies. I fell in love with this perfect girl since 3rd grade and would think about her all the time. she rejected me on myspace. it devastated me. i tried marijuana and theres a chance it fucked my brain up, maybe im just paranoid. now i sit and dream as i stare …

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WE ARE ALL COMMITING SUICIDE

  October 16th, 2010 by LittleLisaMassacre

NO MATTER WHAT YOUR DOING IN LIFE WETHER YOU WANT TO OR NOT WE ARE ALL DYING OF SUICIDE WE ALL DO THINGS THAT CAUSES US TO DIE WETHER ITS IN A LONG PERIOD OF TIME OR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME SOME OF US JUST WANNA GO QUIKER THAN OTHERS

WHILE IM ON HERE TYPING I DONT UNDERSTAND ALL OF YOU WITH YOUR I WANNA DIE WITH NO PAIN NO MATTER HOW YOU TRY AND KILL YOURSELF ITLL HURT CAUSE YOU AND YOUR BRAIN WILL TELL YOUR BODY ITLL HURT SO YOU CANT GO THE WONG WAY WITH ANY SUICIDE ITLL ALL TURN OUT LIKE …

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It’s all the doctor’s fault

  October 9th, 2010 by ImTired

When I was younger I thought that physicians were like God.  They seemed to know everything and there was nothing they could not fix or cure.

Then I grew up.  Doctors are nothing but very well pain morons who know nothing; they are anything but like God.  They give people false hope that all will be okay, all the while thinking about their big pay check while I am in pain and severe distress.

Time to go to sleep and forget these useless beings called Doctors.

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Rant 01

  October 8th, 2010 by FuckTheWorld .

It basically started with Him . A wayward mother & her three year old bastard of a daughter . Leaving everything behind, just throwing it all away . & making the biggest mistake a mother ( or at least mine ) could ever make .

How could she marry Him ? I was three years old & I cried at their wedding . I didn’t want it to happen . I didn’t want another douche bag of a father . & exactly that he was . The abuse , Manipulation, lies , drugs , You coward . How could you do that

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As Usual.

  October 8th, 2010 by Fm.Luv.2.Hate

i hate u. i hate myself. in fact, i hate the entire f’ing world. so wat? why should u care? u shouldnt..but u shouldnt pity me either. i dont need a worthless emotion that makes me crawl back into my shell..i dont need ur look of hurt when i say a lie or tell u tat i dont need ur help or that im fine. wat  i need is blood…not that im creeper for blood but i need the calmness tat i get after i feel that pain and ripping of my skin into tiny nonexistent pieces.  i need this feeling to

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Worth a shot

  October 7th, 2010 by K.luker1655

Seems strange at my age to be at a site like this, at 13 I was told it would pass, simply grow out of it. Instead hear I sit as I always have late in the night, pondering the “yes or no” question of tomorrow. I’ve toured around this site and seen alot of young writers out there scratching at this same itch and it has pained me. I wouldn’t doubt that most here would agree its a state of mind one would not wish on their worst enemy.

So in my hopes to help at least a single person out there with my experience I …

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Too Tired.

  October 4th, 2010 by Kiyi

Just when I thought I was coming back up, back up from that deep dark hole, I realize that, no, I’m not. Now I’m even further down, and you know what? I don’t think I want back up anymore. Why bother. I’ll just be pushed back down, eventually. It’s so much easier down here. No pain, no sadness, no disappointment.

I’m not an idiot. I know how to end it as painlessly as possible, I’m just surprised I haven’t done it yet. Well, dehydration is my main route at the moment. Pretty sure if I really put some effort in, I’d be done in a week. …

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It’s nice to know…

  October 4th, 2010 by Darby

that there are other people like me out there. I wake up and try and get through the day as best I can, but I feel as though it’s all aiming towards nothing. My outlook on life is bleak – it sounds like generic “I’m depressed” shit.. but hey, I guess I’m another generically depressed person. Death is on my mind constantly, I feel like being alive is the most selfless thing I can possibly do, because I know I’m not alive because I want to be. I’m alive because I can’t bear the thought of hurting everyone, or someone I love having to find …

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Just need to let it out.

  October 4th, 2010 by cls

Wow. I don’t even know where to begin. This will be the first time that I’ve let out everything that’s been going on with me for the past few years. I hope what I say makes sense; I’ll do my best to make it as comprehendible as possible, but please bear with me because it’s a lot to let out, and I’ve never done anything like this.

To begin, I’m a Junior in Highschool. Female. Towards the second half of 8th grade, I became bulimic. I’m not sure how that happened. I was never overweight. I was thin, but not stick thin. I didn’t suffer from …

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Someone help me

  October 3rd, 2010 by loreildarksky

This might take a while, but it’s a lot I have to deal with (though I know it’s not as much as some people).

I’m a sophomore in high school, wondering if I should kill myself. I’ve tried before, but every time I failed, sometimes because I couldn’t do it fast enough before someone came in and stopped me.

I know I have so much going for me, but all of it is also the reason I want to die sometimes. I’m on the swim team, one of three things that I truly love. But sometimes everything else makes it too hard for me to even function …

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Here’s my problem

  October 3rd, 2010 by nodefinition

Everyday is different for me, one day I’m okay, the next I can’t imagine living another day. I’ve thought about this for quite some time, years now actually and found that what I lack is hope. I crave some sort of love and intimacy in my life, at times I have it and sometimes, like recently, I get my heart stepped on.

I didn’t understand how worthless I must be to deserve it, or be subjected to this ‘situation’  by her I guess. I didn’t see a way to recover from the pain, or even a another prospective girl to take her place. Without hope, my …

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