Rants

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It’s all the doctor’s fault

  October 9th, 2010 by ImTired

When I was younger I thought that physicians were like God.  They seemed to know everything and there was nothing they could not fix or cure.

Then I grew up.  Doctors are nothing but very well pain morons who know nothing; they are anything but like God.  They give people false hope that all will be okay, all the while thinking about their big pay check while I am in pain and severe distress.

Time to go to sleep and forget these useless beings called Doctors.

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Rant 01

  October 8th, 2010 by FuckTheWorld .

It basically started with Him . A wayward mother & her three year old bastard of a daughter . Leaving everything behind, just throwing it all away . & making the biggest mistake a mother ( or at least mine ) could ever make .

How could she marry Him ? I was three years old & I cried at their wedding . I didn’t want it to happen . I didn’t want another douche bag of a father . & exactly that he was . The abuse , Manipulation, lies , drugs , You coward . How could you do that

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As Usual.

  October 8th, 2010 by Fm.Luv.2.Hate

i hate u. i hate myself. in fact, i hate the entire f’ing world. so wat? why should u care? u shouldnt..but u shouldnt pity me either. i dont need a worthless emotion that makes me crawl back into my shell..i dont need ur look of hurt when i say a lie or tell u tat i dont need ur help or that im fine. wat  i need is blood…not that im creeper for blood but i need the calmness tat i get after i feel that pain and ripping of my skin into tiny nonexistent pieces.  i need this feeling to

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Worth a shot

  October 7th, 2010 by K.luker1655

Seems strange at my age to be at a site like this, at 13 I was told it would pass, simply grow out of it. Instead hear I sit as I always have late in the night, pondering the “yes or no” question of tomorrow. I’ve toured around this site and seen alot of young writers out there scratching at this same itch and it has pained me. I wouldn’t doubt that most here would agree its a state of mind one would not wish on their worst enemy.

So in my hopes to help at least a single person out there with my experience I …

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Too Tired.

  October 4th, 2010 by Kiyi

Just when I thought I was coming back up, back up from that deep dark hole, I realize that, no, I’m not. Now I’m even further down, and you know what? I don’t think I want back up anymore. Why bother. I’ll just be pushed back down, eventually. It’s so much easier down here. No pain, no sadness, no disappointment.

I’m not an idiot. I know how to end it as painlessly as possible, I’m just surprised I haven’t done it yet. Well, dehydration is my main route at the moment. Pretty sure if I really put some effort in, I’d be done in a week. …

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It’s nice to know…

  October 4th, 2010 by Darby

that there are other people like me out there. I wake up and try and get through the day as best I can, but I feel as though it’s all aiming towards nothing. My outlook on life is bleak – it sounds like generic “I’m depressed” shit.. but hey, I guess I’m another generically depressed person. Death is on my mind constantly, I feel like being alive is the most selfless thing I can possibly do, because I know I’m not alive because I want to be. I’m alive because I can’t bear the thought of hurting everyone, or someone I love having to find …

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Just need to let it out.

  October 4th, 2010 by cls

Wow. I don’t even know where to begin. This will be the first time that I’ve let out everything that’s been going on with me for the past few years. I hope what I say makes sense; I’ll do my best to make it as comprehendible as possible, but please bear with me because it’s a lot to let out, and I’ve never done anything like this.

To begin, I’m a Junior in Highschool. Female. Towards the second half of 8th grade, I became bulimic. I’m not sure how that happened. I was never overweight. I was thin, but not stick thin. I didn’t suffer from …

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Someone help me

  October 3rd, 2010 by loreildarksky

This might take a while, but it’s a lot I have to deal with (though I know it’s not as much as some people).

I’m a sophomore in high school, wondering if I should kill myself. I’ve tried before, but every time I failed, sometimes because I couldn’t do it fast enough before someone came in and stopped me.

I know I have so much going for me, but all of it is also the reason I want to die sometimes. I’m on the swim team, one of three things that I truly love. But sometimes everything else makes it too hard for me to even function …

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Here’s my problem

  October 3rd, 2010 by nodefinition

Everyday is different for me, one day I’m okay, the next I can’t imagine living another day. I’ve thought about this for quite some time, years now actually and found that what I lack is hope. I crave some sort of love and intimacy in my life, at times I have it and sometimes, like recently, I get my heart stepped on.

I didn’t understand how worthless I must be to deserve it, or be subjected to this ‘situation’  by her I guess. I didn’t see a way to recover from the pain, or even a another prospective girl to take her place. Without hope, my …

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life is great, i jst dnt think its for me

  September 28th, 2010 by Ren

i wish i could be somewhere els , i really want to be happy iv tryed for so long ,im only young but i’v been through so much and its stupid coss i dont want to be that depressed girl anymore i love haveing fun but at the end of the day , happyness fades and reality kick’s in .
i have no friends , only 2 members of my familey actually talk to me . iv been raped beaten by guys , heart broken bullied for what i look like . every day is the same . i dont want to die i just want …

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No Easy Answers…

  September 20th, 2010 by Shelly

Okay so everyone always wants to know what my problem is, why I feel this way or why I seem totally unable to make things better. But for fucks sake they don’t know me, or my history, so they’re in no position to judge! The fact is if they did, they’d probably understand why I want to die as badly as I do. And trust me it’s such a long, sordid and sad story that half the time I wouldn’t even know where to start or how to explain. Sometimes I look at the way my life has turned out and it makes me fume with …

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mine to decide

  September 16th, 2010 by tish

I am facing the fact That death by suicide is possibly going to be the way I leave this world. It’s not a snap  decision and doesn’t even feel like a choice. Just from an exhaustion in every level of my being. Was it the build up of traumas physical and emotional over the last few years in particular? Or was the 13 year old me all those years ago wise when she thought she would only make it to her 30’s before getting tired. Is this a phase or is this the end ?My physical pain from fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue and hellish depression and …

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Crescent shaped Cuts on the palms of my hands

  September 16th, 2010 by Acid_hagar

Something in her eyes, the way she likes to cry

must be the smoke in my lungs

tear up and watch me burn

I feel like its okay I feel so good today

dizzy me,your so easy to entertain

I smiled at the way you laughed like this was a joke

I’m a failure when I fall

the worlds no pleasure I feel so small

fetal fusion on the wall

I tried to please her

she watched me fall, romance me burned

smoked out smoked away I feel so much better

something in you strikes a chord

I feel like you watch me

watch me burn, warn me soon

the fires cold, so cold im burned

If I made you cry …

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I dont want to be here

  September 15th, 2010 by Acid_hagar

i am 15.  i dont know where to begin. i just cant take anymore. i dont feel like it is worth it to try so hard for nothing. My mom, it just seems like no matter how hard i try for her or how much i work to make things right im always wrong. im always fucking up over and over again. and just when i feel like things might get better they fall down. i feel alone. even the people i though were close to me dont want to listen to me. thats all i want. is for someone to listen to me. for …

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This is just a True story

  September 15th, 2010 by 18th floor balcony

So I lived in a foster home for all of my life…I remember the day when I was sent there with my brothers and sister…I was scared…I thought my mother gave me away…

Things were never good after that…There were children in the homes with me…Some times they would make me do things with them…I to be honest cant tell if it was rape or not…because they were not much older then me…maybe they we nine and I was like six or seven…But Kids shouldnt know about that stuff…

Anyways…

My mother was a horrible one…she didn’t call for over a year…Maybe it was to hard for her…I …

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I don’t know how to cope.

  September 13th, 2010 by sakura_haruko

I’ve been hurt too much in my past. Especially by people I’ve loved, and people I’ve cared about.

I’ve been abused in all sorts of ways both physically, mentally, and emotionally.

I was abandoned by my parents, for not being smart enough, for not being popular enough, for not being like them; just because I’m the black sheep of the family. My so called best friends aren’t even always there for me, especially when they know that I depend on them like family. Especially R, she never seems to care when it’s important. And B doesn’t even care about me enough to want me in her life …

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what is wrong with me?

  September 12th, 2010 by flip92

So…it’s been two months since I’ve written here.  Last time, I was complaining about being a Christian with homosexual desires.  Now, I just need to let out a whole lot of steam about something else that is forcing me to question whether or not this life means anything. 

So now I genuinely want to pursue a relationship with a female.  My homosexual desires still linger, but not as prominently as before.  Even though they are receding, I have retained a sort of sympathy for closeted homosexuals and others who are just plain confused about their sexuality.  The psychological games and wars that come inherently with unwanted …

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Why would you want to end so young? Because I hate life…

  August 23rd, 2010 by LunaLayla

I get this stupid question all the frecken time. I’ve tried to kill myself more than ten times and people always ask this, “Why die so young?” “You’ve barley lived a day much less a life to end?” And so many more pointless questions. I first tried when I was thirteen to kill myself, I cut my arms so deep and in so many places that they had to do a blood transfusion. I was in treatment for ten months and now I am out but I still want to die. How easy it was to lie my way out of the stupid system. There’s …

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Completely Lost

  August 22nd, 2010 by AussieMatty

Hey Guys,

I don’t know why I’m writing this, who its for, who it’s to. I don’t know much about anything these days, nothing that matters anyway. I feel pre-programmed, living life as a ghost. I feel completely alone even when surrounded by people. I don’t know why, I don’t understand. I’m athletic and fit, studying at uni, working in a good job, pretty popular and liked by a lot of people. But it doesnt matter, it never has. I feel like I should be happy, but hide behind forced smiles & fake gestures.

I feel like I’m living a lie, wearing a mask to protect others, …

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Commit suicide

  August 22nd, 2010 by pdf23ds

Sometimes, suicide is the answer. I believe suicide is the answer for me. And it very well could be for you.

But not likely. Most people who commit suicide are not thinking terribly rationally. If you’re having really hard times right now, things do get better. (On average.) If you’ve just broken up with someone and are feeling extremely depressed, suicide is almost certainly a bad idea. If you’ve just suffered a large or huge financial loss, it’s very likely that if you just hang in there you’ll be just as happy in a couple years as you were before …

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