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I know I’ll probably regret this…

by whiskered-fish 4/12/2017

written by whiskered-fish

…but sometimes, I deeply loathe “normies.” Or at least most of them.

Tonight, I’m just seething with rage, thinking about it. They make my blood boil. Fuck them. Fuck them and fuck their functioning brains, which they take for granted. Fuck their unwarranted sense of superiority. Fuck their hatred and contempt for the weak. Fuck their forked tongues and narrow-mindedness. Fuck their bright futures and their smug condescension. Fuck their cruelty. Fuck everything about them.

Part of me realizes that this attitude is probably a phase that’ll pass—something toxic that I’ll look back on in a few months and cringe at. But for now, it […]

4/12/2017 19 comments

My Life, Why I Want to Die

by AnonymousUser27 4/11/2017

written by AnonymousUser27

4/11/2017 2 comments

Should I go to the hospital?

by kloudkat 4/10/2017

written by kloudkat

I turned eighteen almost a month ago, and I had been in a remission type deal from my Major depressive Disorder for about six months. Until last week. I feel no motivation to do anything. It takes so much effort to take a shower at night, I went from taking full showers at night, to half showers (standing in the corner of the tub and just washing my hair), and then to saying “I’ll just take one in the morning” and end up allowing all three of my alarms to go off and hopping in the shower to wash my hair five minutes before I […]

4/10/2017 1 comment

next attemp

by Moon gazer 4/10/2017

written by Moon gazer

i finally found the place for my next attemp i just need to experiment a bit and write a letter so i have everything in order hopefully its less than a month i am happy only regret i cant finish reading all things i wanted to read but i cant put it off

4/10/2017 6 comments

It Gets Worse & Worse

by BrokenDreamer 4/9/2017

written by BrokenDreamer

I had posted before about what happened to me and what occurred.

Now things are getting worse. I learned that an injury I suffered due to the abuse will require surgery and the surgery most likely won’t stop the pain. My insurance won’t cover it and the other pain treatment that they would do can’t be done because of other health issues I have.

I also just diagnosed with another painful debilitating medical condition 2 weeks ago and was told that in a yer or two i won’t be able to walk that well and will be in more pain due to severe arthritis. I’m having to […]

4/9/2017 4 comments

I was doing so well.

by 96530 4/8/2017

written by 96530

I was doing so well. I was enjoying life more than I could have imagined for the last few months. I have great career prospects, excellent friends and a marvellous family but there’s that one thing missing, that one thing which will always be missing.

4/8/2017 9 comments

Personality

by CombatDamage 4/7/2017

written by CombatDamage

Who else here, has had so many mental disorders since childhood, that you never really developed an actual personality? You don’t have one, because you never even had a chance at one. Having just a a strange slew of symptoms. Personality? you don’t have one only having a strange slew of never ending symptoms that make your head spin and turn. They say healing things like depression that the goal is to “get back to your old self”, but I don’t have anything to go back to. Just static nothingness.

4/7/2017 7 comments

Am I capable of change?

by EternalDetachment 4/4/2017

written by EternalDetachment

Am I capable of change?

Lately, I’ve been asking myself this question a lot.
For most of my life, I’ve been a difficult person to get to know. It was hard for my parents, my siblings, my extended family, and even the one woman I thought could be the love of my life.
I ran from conflict, because there was never an easy way out. I simply wanted to exist, live, laugh, and love.
It seemed that I would never have any of those things. My childhood was fraught with poor choices and poorer memories.
It’s hard to think of a time where I wasn’t sad, […]

4/4/2017 1 comment

What’s the point?

by imjusthere 4/4/2017

written by imjusthere

What’s the point if I can’t get better? What’s the point if things do eventually get good only for everything to get bad again? What’s the point if the people who say they care about me don’t want to be around me? What’s the point of going to college when I know I can’t be successful? What’s the point of trying? What’s the fucking point?

4/4/2017 9 comments

I’m Exhausted

by imjusthere 4/3/2017

written by imjusthere

I’m simply existing.

I have been for all of the nineteen pathetic years of my life.

I’m numb to everything due to exhaustion. Exhaustion from fighting, caring.

All my life, I’ve been a shadow, a second choice, an afterthought.

I truly love my parents. I really do. But all they care about is my much older brother. They paid for his college, they encouraged him in everything he did, and they’re proud of him. They don’t want to pay for my college, they don’t care what I do, and they see me as a burden. He was the good-looking, athletic kid in high school and I was the below-average-looking, […]

4/3/2017 4 comments

Hey

by kamidaka 4/3/2017

written by kamidaka

I feel like shit right now. Depression kicked in so so hard. I even locked myself in the bathroom and laid down on the floor for a couple of hours, I think

It feels like someone behind me is trying to rip my heart out.

I hope I feel this bad the end I decide to end my life so I can really do it.

My father told me today “this website says that if you sleep too much you feel sad. Are you sad?”

No shit, bro. And you even dare to ask.

4/3/2017 1 comment

Wandering, Lost

by TheRoadSoFar 4/2/2017

written by TheRoadSoFar

I once saw a Simpsons chapter where Moe Szyslak says to himself that there must be someone out there for someone like himself, and that everyone has a significant other somewhere in the world. Then right after that, we see how his significant other is about to hang herself up because of loneliness. For some reason, I’m beginning to think that the same thing has happened to me.

I’m living right now trapped in a social circle where everyone has found their significant other. Little by little, everyone is hooking up with someone; everyone but me.

Maybe Moe was wrong. Maybe not everyone is destined to […]

4/2/2017 2 comments

I’m sinking…

by sampaguita 4/2/2017

written by sampaguita

i’m sinking. I have been taken advantage by guys so man times I’m starting to think i deserve it. I don’t know what I did or do to deserve it, it just keeps happening. And I’m all alone. I’m not the person i use to be, I was always the crazy, fun, and happy girl. I was that cool popular girl in high, a party was never a party unless i was there. But after graduation, I don’t have all those distractions anymore, so the pain and anxiety and sadness is rushing in. flooding in. Drowning me. I’m thinking about just ending it all so […]

4/2/2017 1 comment

by greeneyes7 4/1/2017

written by greeneyes7

Having different emotions all at once and not having or knowing any way to get them out. Waiting for an end that’s taking forever. I can’t trust or talk to anyone, if I do they’ll think I’m crazy or pathetic.

Not being able to express yourself is torturing, it feels like you’re drowning.

People are scary, and unpredictable. I wish I could get away from all of them. Everywhere I turn there’s people and more people. I want to be in a place where there’s quiet and no humans. I’m sick and tired of everyday waking up to just see people. The world is full of them […]

4/1/2017 5 comments

Fear, but not for what you think.

by Invisibledaughter 3/31/2017

written by Invisibledaughter

My biggest fears are 1. That I’ll be found prematurely and 2. That I’ll be sent to the psych ward. I don’t want it to be public knowledge that I even thought of actually attempting suicide, let alone attempted and got “saved” because my timing was off or some mysterious thing happened that made someone have to come back and they discovered me. I don’t want doctors and nurses to know what’s wrong with me or think I’m “one of the crazies”. I don’t want other “crazies” to know who I am or what I did or that I’m there. I guess it’s my pride […]

3/31/2017 2 comments

help please

by the deceitful 3/31/2017

written by the deceitful

hello
im a compulsive lair and suffering from ocd
i started taking prozac for my ocd
and admited being a liar to my family
but fact is i’ve been exposed as a liar
in university
among people i know
and dont
even in social media
and having a wierd name
gossips and reputation precceds me
where ever i go
how can i be given a second chance when im cast out like this
is only way out suicide

3/31/2017 9 comments

rain and tears

by Moon gazer 3/27/2017

written by Moon gazer

I always felt, like emotions are like standing in the rain naked. No matter how light, or heavy it rains, you can always feel it, with your entire being. Yet I have always felt, like I am in a glass cage, hearing, seeing, and smelling the rain, but never feeling it touch me. Wondering if i am the same, only missing one part, but such a crucial part. Refusing to break my cage, because maybe its my only shelter, maybe i would dissolve in the rain. Refusing to accept it, maybe it traps my spirit, from the waters that would nurture it. Helpless against myself, […]

3/27/2017 0 comment

This is the end of the fucking line

by Ka7613 3/27/2017

written by Ka7613

Let’s be real, I’m not going anywhere. This is the end of the goddamn line for me. I’m not talking about death. I’m not about to half-ass attempt to kill myself again, even though the thought is always appealing. No, I’ve just reached the peak of my fucking life. This is as far as I’m going to get.

Just gonna make like the captain of the Titanic and go down with this fucking ship. The ship being my life in this case. I’ll just sink until I miraculously pull a lifeboat out of my ass and float away from this fuck-all ocean of self-pity and misery […]

3/27/2017 4 comments

Crossed the line

by TheRoadSoFar 3/26/2017

written by TheRoadSoFar

I once heard or read that we have a “limit”, and we shouldn’t keep everything to ourselves because it bottles up and in the end we won’t be able to hold to it any longer, and we break. We surpass that limit.

Well, theory confirmed: I broke my limit yesterday. All the sadness, anger and frustration, I couldn’t take it anymore, and I started crying. Things get worse if you take into account that I started crying in a party. And I really hate when people see me cry and then come to me.

Now I don’t know how will I be able to look those people […]

3/26/2017 2 comments

A good day.

by Foxglove7 3/25/2017

written by Foxglove7

Today was a good day. I feel more insecure because of that. A dear friend who I love dearly called, and I hadn’t heard her voice in months. I was so nervous. We talked philosophy like always, like the day we first spoke(for hours) and became instant friends, maybe friends for life. Now I feel so insecure. I haven’t spoken to her in months….. does she know how crazy I am? She knew when I left the town we met in a few months back. She knew my mind was broken in a million places by madness and self-destruction and hopelessness. She held me really […]

3/25/2017 2 comments

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