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Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

2 Years Later

by 13vida 3/28/2016

written by 13vida

Oh my gosh, I have been trying to remember the name of this site for the life of me! I’ve looked every where for it for the past two years and then *BAM* I finally found it! No, I just went back through some of what I wrote and I feel bad for my past self; I was not a positive person, but I know it wasn’t my fault that I was depressed. No, here’s what’s happened the past couple years – p.s. sorry for the long story.

My best friend moved to Arizona in December of 2014; I missed her like crazy. I went out […]

3/28/2016 7 comments

Untitled

by imokaybutnotreally 3/25/2016

written by imokaybutnotreally

“You have so much to live for.”

I don’t know how may more times I can listen to that. Anytime I talk to any friends or family it’s the same thing. They start by telling me how I am going through a rough patch and that it will all get better. They don’t offer any real advice. They half ass their responses and tell me how my future is going to be just fantastic. I am getting frustrated even thinking of it now. A severe case of anxiety and depression is no “rough patch”. I have been dealing with these issues since before I can remember. […]

3/25/2016 1 comment

Spring cleaning…

by CatchTh3Bus 3/19/2016

written by CatchTh3Bus

So I’ve been absent from this site for awhile. I’ve been busy clearing out my shit and NO WAY IN HELL would I have imagined what a heap of junk I’ve accumulated; I actually wish I had a huge pit of fire to throw it all into lol..I know this is something I have to do or I’ll feel like I’ve left a mess behind and I believe that would fuk me over if there is an afterlife..I’m just covering all my angles here. ITS STRESSFUL as for some reason I still have attachments to some of the junk but at the same time I’m […]

3/19/2016 0 comment

Tearful and confused

by Michael from dunmow 3/18/2016

written by Michael from dunmow

A few weeks back I was arrested for fraud and as I type this letter the Police are investigating me.

My life has collapse – I have lost my marriage, I will lose my house, no job and my dearest two boys particularly my youngest (14) does not want to know me but my oldest is autistic so he cannot comprehend the situation.

Our marriage has always been stressful – looking after our autistic son, my health problems and wife’s depression. Our youngest was always was protected – giving him a carefree life with a great education. With that protection he is now in a Royal Ballet […]

3/18/2016 7 comments

I give Up :( I have no hope left in life.

by lostfighter100 3/17/2016

written by lostfighter100

I’ve been in severe depression for so long now , that I cannot even remember what I was like before it. The human inside me has just died.I feel like I’m living in an empty shell. I’ve been fighting and fighting the pain. Every day feels like hell. I see a rope , I wanna hang myself , I see a knife , I wanna stab myself , I see a train , I wanna jump.I see a rooftop , I wanna drop down.

I love my parents and I’ve been living for them for the last 3 years . I cry every night , I […]

3/17/2016 10 comments

So beyond exhausted…

by disgusting 3/16/2016

written by disgusting

I feel like I’m several trillion spoons in debt… (if you get that reference)

So, the girl he was after rejected him. No, of course I don’t want him to be miserable but it would have been a bad situation for him to get involved with. He chases perfect little girls around or under 5′ tall and under 100 lbs. This one just so happened to be married (but in process of going to get divorced) with 2 little babies 9 months apart. It would have ruined everyone’s lives because of the things he has attached to his name. Which, could be the reason she had […]

3/16/2016 12 comments

Bath Calls

by betterlife 3/16/2016

written by betterlife

When the bath’s drawn, the phone’s off, the house is empty… as it always will be… what do you do? When there’s no friend to call, no family in existence, no job to work, no place to attend, tomorrow, nor the next day, nor the day after, no car to drive, no health to live? What then? Cannot one simply slip into oblivion, forevermore? Isn’t that okay now? Finally?

I’m stalling. Why? Is there a man to stampede through the front door, thumping his chest with the almighty courage of one in love, to say, nay! Not tonight! This shall not be! Whisking me away in his arms, hair […]

3/16/2016 2 comments

What Should I Do?

by GerbzBaby 3/13/2016

written by GerbzBaby

My birthday is coming up, and it’s coming up fast. I’m so scared for it to become another sufferable day for me. Im doing my senior project on that day and let me tell you… It’s hellish days full of utter loneliness. I’m not even exaggerating it. Nobody talks to me, my old friends mooch all over my sister and never intend on talking to me. They will look at me and not even acknowledge my very existence. It rips my heart in two.. I would not go to it.. If my parents weren’t so strict about it.. I got all my hours everything done! […]

3/13/2016 2 comments

The only reason I ever had to live

by disgusting 3/11/2016

written by disgusting

My cats….

Let me tell their stories…
Top row:
1. Heidi – she was my grandma’s cat, which made me want to get a cat. She passed away a good long time before any of mine did.
2. Salem – my first baby. 3/1/98-11/5/11. She passed away from FIP.
-skipping ahead for a reason-
5. Gypsy – my 4th baby. 7/25/03-3/3/12. She passed away after eating a cat toy, having surgery to remove it, and then getting a blood infection. She was only 8.

3/11/2016 12 comments

Gas station from hell..

by cstar4004 3/10/2016

written by cstar4004

I’ve been working a dead end job in a tiny racist town, known for being religious nutjobs, rednecks and KKK members. I could just end my story there and it would make sense, but im not done ranting.

My boss hired me under the table, so i do not pay taxes and cannot use my job on my resumee to find a new job. I pump gas 37.5 hours a week. There is no room for promotions or raises, i make minumum wage and forever will. My co-worker makes more than me, and works the exact same hours and the exact same job title. Ive been here […]

3/10/2016 13 comments

Do I deserve this?

by Pheonix79 3/10/2016

written by Pheonix79

I wonder now and then whether I deserve this family or all the things that I have?

I was always a troubled kid. My parents never knew what was wrong with me. I tried to be like the other kids but I am always a failure. Teachers would tell my parents that they weren’t treating me right and by that they meant that they should put up restrictions. Like they shouldn’t let me waste my time in drawing or reading and force me to focus on studies. Or slap me once in a while over my bad grades. My parents did try that. But that made […]

3/10/2016 3 comments

sigh…

by disgusting 3/9/2016

written by disgusting

So, it seems he has some skinny tiny girl interested in him. She’s of course not pretty. Way too gaunt and malnourished looking, but that’s what he likes. Anorexic and underweight. She looks young and she has two babies exactly 9 months apart and I guess no baby daddies in the picture. WHY must every man want these sluts just because they’re anorexic??? I’ve accepted that I was born to be alone and never have love in my life, but it still hurts to see my dream guy getting close to someone.

3/9/2016 9 comments

New Face

by betterlife 3/8/2016

written by betterlife

I’m astounded I never heard of suicide project before, seeing as I’ve fantasized about, planned and studied suicide for many many years. Whenever I dare to get close enough with someone that I might actually feel happy, they sense my deep depression and ask the inevitable – are you suicidal? That doesn’t satisfy them, no. They have to go further. How often do you think of suicide? That’s when they flee.

The bonds I need in order to cease feeling suicidal are not available to me until I’m no longer suicidal.

And around and around we go.

3/8/2016 6 comments

Help…?

by GerbzBaby 3/6/2016

written by GerbzBaby

I don’t want to seem like that person who wants to seak attention when I rant or cry out for help on here. I always feel like that’s the case.. But can someone please try and convince me not to do something stupid.. At least by tomorrow..before I go to work…

3/6/2016 6 comments

I’m Already Dead

by Counting The Days Until I'm gone 3/6/2016

written by Counting The Days Until I'm gone

Rather than equivocating death, I have conceded that death has already bestowed its unrequited love upon me. Simply so, because though I still breathe, and whilst my heart still thumps, the mere essence which makes each of us has perished within me.

It is as if though I’m only being kept alive by a hypothetical respirator and though this hypothetical mechanisations is working tirelessly, what sense is the life that its saving. For that individual can no longer be happy, can no longer assimilate to usual locomotion, all that is left is his bodily mechanisations and, in actuality life has already left his body.

My body, however is […]

3/6/2016 11 comments

Ranting Bullshit.

by DarkDestroyer 3/5/2016

written by DarkDestroyer

My counselor told me that I need to spend time with people, that I’m alone too much. So I’ve been trying to spend time with people, people at school, people at work. I’ve been planning stuff with buddies and spending a lot of time with people who I can call buddies. The problem is that I still don’t feel right. See, before this I was always down and depressed and alone, but when I wasn’t alone I would sometimes (rarely) talk about my pain to people who I kind of trust (I don’t trust very much or very often), and I would feel this connection […]

3/5/2016 1 comment

Warrior

by BloodShallShed 3/4/2016

written by BloodShallShed

This song reaches out to those of us who have been told that they can’t do something, or to those of us who have had their hopes, dreams, and hearts ripped out. You can keep going. Inside all of us, there’s a warrior <3. Stay safe everyone.

-BloodShallShed

3/4/2016 0 comment

Hey guys (Long but please read)

by BloodShallShed 3/4/2016

written by BloodShallShed

I know that sometimes life is rough, and you feel that you can’t make it through the night or through the day. Some of us feel it necessary to drink or do drugs just to make it through. But I just want you to know that everyone is special, and that even though life doesn’t seem worth living, it’s best to keep going. There may be a nice surprise around the corner, and it’s just for you. I can’t tell you what it is, I don’t know what lies ahead, I don’t know if it’ll get worse before it gets better. But I know that […]

3/4/2016 12 comments

Stories in the Dark

by BloodShallShed 3/3/2016

written by BloodShallShed

This song helped me when I was down, it helps you realize that you have people that care about you, even if they are far away or gone themselves. Stay safe everyone

-BloodShallShed

3/3/2016 2 comments

For everyone that feels their life is done..

by BloodShallShed 3/3/2016

written by BloodShallShed

This is one of my favorite songs to listen to when I’m down. I hope that you all like it. Stay safe everyone.

-BloodShallShed

3/3/2016 5 comments

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