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Will it get better?

by Luck.Hope
written by Luck.Hope

That’s my question..will it get better? I don’t think I ever felt so depressed in my life before and it bothers me to no end because this isnt who I am. People who met me know me to be always smiling, cheerful, and over all happy but behind closed doors I’m a complete mess and just not myself. I wish I didn’t care about people as much as I do because maybe I wouldn’t give second chances to people who didn’t desereve it, maybe I wouldnt take everything to heart but in all honesty thats my biggest issue is that I take EVERYTHING to heart. […]

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My introduction and story

by Engeltje
written by Engeltje

Well, i thought it was time to introduce myself. I’m a girl, sixteen years and I’m from The Netherlands (Please don’t mind my spelling and grammar) . My nickname (Engeltje) is Dutch and it means (Little) Angel. I live in the area of Amsterdam (I guess most of you know Amsterdam :P) . I live with my parents and an older sister. So that’s the general part and now a part that goes about my life. Okay, I’ll try to keep it short, so I will only tell the most important things.
I don’t know how it goes in the USA, but in The Netherlands […]

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My heart is crying just like I am

by EmoCookie
written by EmoCookie

Dear word,

I know you don’t know me. And the words that I’m about to say may mean nothing to you and you just may not care. I am a female that goes by EmoCookie its an old nickname and I am 18 years old. I have depression. I see people to get help, but that doesn’t seem to be working but I will give it more time. I am an on and off cutter. I cry. I try to smile when I can. I’m failing school and I dont know what to do about that. I’m lost be on repair. My dad is […]

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Suicide

by hopefuldreamer
written by hopefuldreamer

I contemplated suicide today but didn’t go through with it. At the moment I was ready to go because I felt so overwhelmed and I asked myself “what  am I doing here?” I felt like I was at a dead end, where there was no point to moving forward because it’s the same thing everyday and this is the first time I’ve ever felt so certain about it.  I’m so tired of struggling and no amount of “it will get better” or “keep trying” makes me feel better not even expressing myself on here does. This week I’ve had two triggers both were […]

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Wake

by lostchild445
written by lostchild445

The dreams call to me

Listen, listen they whisper

We’ll show you who you really are
So I delve in hopeful, full of wonder and disregard for the waking hell I live in
Hoping for some kind of respite
Some relief from the pain I feel
But what I find is more than just real
I see myself in all my flaws
Grasping and the wind where my life just had been
All my loves all my joys all the reasons I live to wake for
Shown to me to hold once more
Before I wake and find I’m torn
Between these blissful nightmares and this despairing reality
Where love had been now replaced by hate
In dreams I […]

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Tanner you broke me. You win.

by BrooklynBoxx
written by BrooklynBoxx

Lucky him he’s moved onto a new girl i should be happy, but its only to ironic. Tanners new girlfriend is Ryanne, ive been talking to her ex dylan. She said i’d look cute with him but even though i like him i dont wanna date him, one because i wanted to give them both time to heal, and because of the fact i dont wanna date anyone cause im still not over tanner, i dont wanna use anyone as a rebound.

It’s not fair i hate all of them all this fucked up shit, i wonder if tanner knows those more recent scars on my […]

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one reason why.

by b1urr
written by b1urr

(might be triggering)

i’d say it began in 6th grade; they made me weak by pointing out my flaws. i had thought, why would anybody want me if i look like this? i began giving away my food because i didn’t want to be fat, i never smiled because i didn’t like my teeth, i didn’t talk much because i didn’t like what i often said. they persuaded me to hate myself.

so when he would pay attention to me, in 7th grade, i felt happy. too happy. he was the first to see my scars. he told me he cared. but he only wanted one thing..

it wasn’t […]

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Cant hold it anymore

by blacktears
written by blacktears

Im 17 years old,I’m losing hope in my life. i don’t think i can hold it much longer from past 7 weeks i have been getting the idea of suicide. i screwed everything, my friends, family, relationship, my college stuff literally everything. Im indian scottish.i live in US in an international school. everyone in here dont wanna be friends with me. As i look tan colour and most of the guys in here are rich and dont like to talk to me. most of them stay away from me. even though i helped them in their times of need. they just soak me dry and leave in middle of nowhere. fortunately i […]

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If

by lostchild445
written by lostchild445

 

If in the end it all falls apart
What’s the point of a story’s start
Nothing but grey sky’s and teary eyes wait for us
When our skin turns cold to the touch

If there’s no god above us then what awaits us
But the end of consciousness
Peace at last, laid to rest
A long and tired soul drifts off to sleep for eternity

If all we are remembered by is the day on which we die
A number on a stone past the cemetery gates
Then I ask what’s the point in life anyway?
To writhe, to hate, to wonder…

If every day passed by without a sign
Something to believe in, even if its just […]

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I was blamed. But I don’t regret it.

by Katil
written by Katil

I really don’t know how to start this with out sounding too cliche, so excuse me for being awkward. It’s a small story. If you take anything from this story, take the lesson that you are wanted. If you quit now, there’s someone else who will be hurt. I’ve had this story bottled up inside me for a while now. Well a few months. It’s fairly recent.  Here it goes.

So for about 4 years I’ve been talking to this boy, Zach. We met online, and of course we ended up 3 states, 660 miles away from each other. We dated a few times, but distance […]

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Jake, I don’t regret attempting to join you.

by Katil
written by Katil

It just occurred to me that people will read these. And people will care. Well here’s a short story of a Suicide attempt I had. I’ve never shared it, But i have mention Jake in another story, and this will revolve around him a lot. But all the feelings are coming back, I can’t handle them. It’s time to share.

It started as an innocent day. I was simply going to my best friends house. I’m pretty sure she will be reading this, so let’s call her… Hope. It’s normal for me to just walk in and yell I’m home at her house. I was accepted […]

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Phoenix. He’s not here, But his story will be heard.

by Katil
written by Katil

In an earlier post of mine, I mentioned my friend Phoenix. I said he has an extraordinary story to his life. Sadly, he isn’t here to share it. He told his story once, that was to me. Honestly, it sounded like a book. I remembered every detail, and thought there would be a sequel.

He’s not here, but his story stays with me. It needs to be heard, and it’s still going on today.

To start, Phoenix never really had a real family. When he was only 8 he felt suicidal. He felt he wasn’t needed. And his only release was art, and sadly, cutting. He was […]

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Should i tell the truth of what took six years to figure out.. My story

by BrooklynBoxx
written by BrooklynBoxx

I resist the urge to slice at my wrist, i try to fight but i’m losing any strength i had left, im thinking bout running away. Gathering a shit ton of money and just leaving, i hate this town.. this place.. everything about it.

My parents yelling at me for everything, never showing any aprecation, i passed all my first semester classe 86+ and they start yelling cause i owe 1.5 hours to the school and im gonna loose all my credits if i dont complete them, not even congradulating me on my grade. Btw i have till febuary 28 to complete them.

My ex is driving me […]

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I’m still here. Won’t you stay with me?

by Katil
written by Katil

Uhm hai.. Well I guess I should start with yes. I’ve attempted suicide. Many times. I’ve never actually talked to anyone about it, or anything’s that’s been happening. I don’t have the strength to say it to someone’s face. But the one time I did. I finally told someone… Exactly 2 weeks and 4 days ago, he committed suicide.. And I was blamed by his family for it. I wasn’t allowed to go to his funeral or say my good byes. This was honestly the love of my life.. We’ve been dating for almost 4 years. We planned our future together and everything.. But it […]

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Self Harm Diary: Day 6

by thekingofnothing
written by thekingofnothing

So I managed to get a girlfriend, and she was so cute,and sweet, and understanding, and I fell in love on day one, and she claimed so did she. Unfortunatly she lived about an hour away. Now there isn’t anything wrong with that, except today she told me she had been having sex with my best friend, and her best friend, everyday we had dated (4-5 days) and Now I want to die. I’ve been hurt and used so many times. I’m honestly thinking about ending it al tonight…..

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-I couldn’t just leave without saying the truth.

by VacatedHappiness
written by VacatedHappiness

*if you want personal comments, skip to the end, if you want me to write one and I didn’t here, let me know, I’ll get around to seeing it be done at least sometime in the future.

I couldn’t. I could not leave without you all knowing what happened. I don’t want to leave here, it was a strange way to cope, but it helped me. A lot. I’ll write as many personal comments soon for as many users I can think of, (properly this time). I need to tell the truth of why I’m leaving. I’m aware this may get taken down, but I […]

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Tried and failed.

by U.N. Owen
written by U.N. Owen

I have been traveling for the past few months.  Thought that doing so might give me a new perspective on life. Might make me actually want to endure the pain of chemotherapy to keep going.  But once I returned the feeling went away.

My end date will be February 25 for sure now.  Enough time for me to set up certain things for my nieces and nephews and spend some time with them.  My family and everyone I know thinks I am going to Japan or Korea to live except for one friend who figured it out on her own.

How do you tell people you care […]

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