Dear Dr.X,
Thank you for getting through with the call with me today. I knew it was quite late for you since you didn’t have a continuous sleep the night before. I can hear your agitation in your tone although you kept on with the polite laughs and expressing gratitude as usual. The many times you called within a minute alone showed your agitation, while I was using the loo.
I want to tell you that I am sorry for coercing you into a late night call. I know that I was being inconsiderate of your situation. I only consider about my own convenience and feeling, ignoring […]
For me, this creates a sense of resigned comfort. Knowing that all my worries are tantamount to a broken pencil- POINTLESS !! I’m told its all about what happens inbetween birth and passing, thats certainly true ( for a short space of time ) I understand the importance of having a purpose in life, having structure, but thats just to help life feel more tolerable, to help ‘get us through’ until our passing.
Thank you, I don’t share my thoughts here as much as I could, so its nice to do so.
I’m just so tired. Life just… isn’t really worth living, is it? I mean, what is there now? Everything’s falling apart… one thing after another. It never stops. The only thing that stops are the good times. Shorter and shorter each time. I can’t understand it, and I feel so hopeless.
But… I try. That’s good, right? That’s what we’re supposed to do. Each day it’s so hard to just wake up. I don’t want to face the day and its perils. It never stops. I just don’t see the point of it. Funny enough I can’t see the point to live or even die, but […]
Hello. I am *Saveria.
I am French and I am 15 years old. If I’m here it’s to talk and look for things that would help me die.
I’ve been through horrible things, well, I’m the one who thinks it’s horrible. I haven’t felt well since I was 12. No, I never talked about it, it’s taboo at home. I tried to get up many times. But I can not.
I’m desperate, I’m looking for help. I fell into the death spiral. I don’t want to live for many long months already. I need help.
Someone can help me ? To find a method of […]
Her songs:
I guess I just want to record this somewhere no-one can link it to me (not till after I’m gone, anyway).
I suppose I was probably happy as a child but I’ve been messing up big time since at least my mid teens. I let everyone down, repeatedly. I can’t be trusted, no matter how hard I try to be good. Everyone will be much better off when I’m gone. I’m divorced, two children, have a boyfriend but he won’t stick around much longer. I was single for a long time before I met him and I think life was probably easier with one less person […]
I know as I lost a best friend to suicide nearly six years ago while living abroad. He mostly didn’t respond to people reaching out and we didn’t know precisely where he physically was, but those more proximal to him say they could’ve been more forceful. I could have too maybe.
Now I tread dangerously close to the edge all the time, except I’ve attempted to partially opened up to people about it. Multiple different ones over a long period of time. Made dark statements, ask for a little engagement time to stave off the misery. And everyone just was super fucking hands off. Some of […]
The playlists abounded, the only things left besides the journals upon journals, notepads chock-full
I’ve been on here a few times before, but I’ve never posted. Was too scared, I guess. I still am, really. What of, I’m not sure. I can state the obvious, like, I’m here because I want to die. But I’m too much of a coward to do anything. I’ve been very close, but that’s not enough, you know? I used to talk to people about it sometimes, but they never took me seriously on it. Now I don’t, because I’ve become too burdensome for that. But I still want friends, I still want to be liked, which is why I simply don’t talk about […]
https://creator.nightcafe.studio/creation/lgZAU77M5JbFZvkkBCuY
It is human to, at this point, put forth a greeting to the community i have just joined here. Hello. I want to die. I shall start with a recent tale of achievement in my life.
-I am very happy that recently, I secured my avenue of prospective death in a manner of which I shall not discuss, but which brings me great solace to find was appropriately covert and fruitful. I feel peace knowing I can hold the hand of death this way, and have been more productive for having this comfort.
This is all I shall share for now.
Wishing […]
I don’t know who to talk to anymore, so I’m back here, because no one wants or cares about me, and the people who do don’t understand how serious it is. I don’t want to die, but I don’t want to live either.
I guess I should be honest here, if anywhere. Recently, I’ve been having bizarre sexual thoughts about my family and God, who are supposed to be these sacred things that you should never sexualize and I hate myself for it and the only thing I can blame is the abilify. That horrible horrible drug that yes, has removed some of […]
I hate others and myself because I’m very weak and stupid and I haven’t been able to achieve my dreams or any success in life. I hate this shit. Stuck and suck at this. I don’t know how to live a good life, a normal life. I wish things would change or end because I can’t take it much longer. I wish someone knew and told me how and what to do in life.
I don’t like this world, my world. I don’t like the way things are for me and around me. I hate this shit.
does anyone with major depression and also a cat recommend adopting a cat.
https://youtu.be/tkaYamHSyt4
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How is possible to change ?
Im tired of living.
Ive tried many things and I failed in everything. When things are going well something external overtakes me like a high speed train. Then I get a long time to recover.
Im so tired I can keep working, studying and reinventing myself.
I dont wanna do anything, just think bad things, procrastinate and wish to commit suicide.
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