I am a misanthropist! Full of hatred towards the human race. To me this life is counterfeit, full of bullshit from the little specks of atoms that we are in this unfathomably large universe. I am in no way religious, I do not believe in shit other than we’ll find the truth out when we individually die. Just a rant from my crippled ass. Be well to all on this site, every second that goes by we are closer to the end of this existence (like it or not – tick fucking tock:-)
life is love for somebody but when you love somebody you will miss them and it hurts but when you lose those you love and miss you feel like you got hit by evrything bad but in time you lern to see the little shine there is in death and when you find out what death is you wil know that it is a pretty thing,
but i’m not.
In reality i’m just a stupid little crybaby, which is funny because i really do think that my tears are shameful. I have no reason to cry. I have everything i wish for, daddy gives me money, mommy gives me love, it’s how a family works right ?
So why do i feel so empty inside ?
True, i didn’t had the best childhood. We weren’t so rich back then, dad works too hard, mom is stressed out with 2 babies and 2 little girls at home, dad can’t bear with mom anymore so he cheats on her, mom flee away, far way from home, […]
when I was younger all I wanted to do was grow up, now I just wish I was 5 when life was easy and carefree. Growing up sucks, period.
It is said that 63% of the autistic people, particularly those with the lower spectrum thinks of suicide. 37% already attempted or died from suicide. I am one of them of the 63%
The feeling of not being accepted is a very painful one. That is the only tip of the iceberg. I have gotten over the fact people will never accept and understand me whoever I want. However, the sad part, I have succumbed to the temptation I am no longer able to accept who I am.
My university friends has been extremely nice to me and encouraging despite my horrible result. […]
Why am I still alive?! I’ve been drinking antifreeze for the past two weeks! Believe me, enough of it to kill 6 adults. Why am I just falling asleep like it’s nyquil?!!! What the fuck?! I don’t believe in religion, I don’t want to talk about it, and don’t offer me help. I know life is suffering and I’m trying to fucking leave! Why can’t I get out?! I’m just here killing time.
hello, folks, made it through one more day.wolves will be at the door anytime now. what i would give for a honorable warriours death. quick, fast and painless. instead of this slow, agonizing, torture. oh for just a little bit of courage, just a smidge, to make it past the point
until yesterday. Sat down to pay some bills online and what I feared was true, was. Is. I don’t have the money. Missed my first mortgage payment tonight and with a $700 oil delivery to pay for followed by a life insurance bill, electric, car insurance, then Christmas followed by it all starting over in January… I don’t see a way out of it. Even with my second part time job.
I can’t believe how badly it’s affecting me. I’m naseaus, ears are ringing, it’s a little difficult to breathe, headache.
If I up my life insurance policy by a little bit, make sure there’s no suicide […]
I am getting closer and closer to the end now. I have already scouted the location. Its very high and easy to access. There are no fences or anything to prevent me from jumping, which is odd because i wouldn’t be the first one to commit suicide at that spot. At the bottom there is concrete. I will try to hit it head first. Should be the fastest way to go.
I have put my affairs into order as best i can. I have written a suicide note. I will probably do it this week. Maybe tonight. Maybe tomorrow night. Seems almost inevitable now.
There are a […]
I mistakenly got excited–not a lot, but enough to allow me to become disappointed when everything fell through and nothing turned out how I thought I would. I do not get excited very often. I loathe excitement and people who feel it a little too often for my tastes. They are more liable to get their hopes up, as well, which would make me feel bad for them, which would then just make me feel bad in general. Anyway, I went home for Thanksgiving break from college and for some reason thought that I would feel better, that being around my family would make me […]
What language does one choose when all is lost? When the thought of ending ones life is the only safety net left. I’ve been here before. Wandering the shores of hopelessness. Whirling in the abyss. Aching for an end. Devoid of hope. Lost. Broken. Forgotten. Burning. Empty. Numb.
I see all these people who seem to have it together. They somehow understand life. They somehow understand their purpose. I never figured any of that out & I feel myself being left further & further behind. […]
I remember the day I found out I could actively take my life. It was the first time I realized I could die. It was freshman year. Two kids died that year. I knew them both fairly well. I guess that’s when it all really started. I knew I wasn’t like everyone else, but it seemed okay. I thought I would grow out of it. I didn’t.
I remember the day my life changed forever. I found my birthfather, or rather he found me. I made the mistake of meeting him. I remember shortly after my adopted dad found out he had a daughter much older […]
Ive have had suicidal thoughts for as long as i can remember but this time I’m really scared they are stronger and worst this time i try to think of another solution but it always ends up at just end it all. Everyone has something against me. They all blame me the people that i value so much are the ones who have hurt me the most i don’t want to tell them anything about my thoughts because i know they will feel sorry or call me even more stuff. I have someone who I’m currently dating i feel like he just stayed with […]
Fuck.
I’ve rewritten this so many times and still have no idea how to start this off. I guess I’ll start off like this. I moved to my new house almost 4 years ago when I was in 7th grade.
I didn’t handle it to well
I cried my second week of school in front of everyone, then again during lunch. I felt like I had lost everything. All my friends that took me years to make. After crying in front of everyone I stopped going to school. I’d miss like 2 or 3 days every week. I was told […]
Life is cold, I feel alone, even when surrounded by people, I feel like I’m in a different world than them. That I can’t ever have anyone in my life. I’ve been through a lot, went from being a sexually abused boy, to testifying against my father at age 7, lost my family in the process, and now find myself alone. Albeit now I’m a prosecutor now thinking that asking questions in court rather than being asked them would somehow make life ok. I now find myself weary from constantly seeing people at their worst, and dealing with criminals and trying to find justice. However […]
I remember a few months back, I was so stressed. My mom and siblings couldn’t understand me at all. I used to cry in the shower, shower in the dark, I wanted to die so bad, but I love life.. My story may not be as intense as other but I just wanted to share my story, you should love life, and there is a suicidal phone number where you can call to talk to people. What may come to you may hurt you but life only wants to see how strong you are, so don’t let it hurt you, show it that you can […]
Many times when looking for suicide help online, I have received the same recurring phrase. A phrase I see on almost every suicide help website.
“Suicide is selfish”.
A phrase I do not agree with at all. First off, when most people use that horrible phrase, they have almost no means of explaining how suicide is selfish. Not even a little “maybe your family depends on you” or “how will you business survive without you”. Just the phrase “suicide is selfish” with nothing to back it up, so if you’ve ever said that to someone and they’re not receiving it, maybe that’s why.
To me, it all depends […]
I’m 18 and live with my father. I’m going to community college at the moment, and in order to stay in his home, one of the conditions I must meet is that I have to be pursuing my bachelor’s degree. I first tried nursing which I was extremely passionate about, but I was not making good enough grades to get into the nursing program at the 4 year college that I would attend next. I was making a C in anatomy when they said I had to have an A, and as a result I dropped out and now I’m going for […]
i don’t know where to begin. I’ve been suicidal for about a year now.
I am a Christian
Let me tell you why I decided to add the previous statement to my post. Yes, as a Christian I do believe in heaven and hell. And I believe that after all I’ve done on this earth that is where I am being sent.
That’s why I’m still here. I’m afraid of what I believe awaits me in the afterlife, so I haven’t killed myself yet. I don’t want to experience hell. Trust me if I for sure knew I was going to paradise after I cut the switch I […]