really making it official by going to jail again,just to make it more official ill be sent to the hospital instead of jail
so im wearing all the clothes for the first time since the crazy episode five years ago you people don’t understand
I’m tired of religious groups going out and trying to make people believe in what they want them to believe. Especially the Mormons in my neighborhood. They think they can just come into my house and tell my family what’s right and what’s wrong. They think that they can just tell us a couple lame stories(or scriptures) and make us believe in what they believe. And they may have gotten my family to believe that but they’ll never do the same to me. I’ve got my own beliefs and as long as they aren’t hurting anyone then I’m not changing them. I’m just sicken tired […]
I’ve only been on this site for one day and I’ve already talked to so many wonderful helpful people who are great support systems to me and now I want to return the favor
If ANY Of you need help or just someone to talk to I’m here for you. And I’m available anytime.
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Xoxo
Sorry, If my posts are annoying you… I’m not good enough to help anyone and I try to be….
cheer up!!! ^_^
I’m sorry if I mislead you, lead you on or gave any signals I didn’t mean to send. Truth is, I’m in love with someone who sure as hell isn’t you. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you before… I’m a lesbo freak. I’m in love and it kills me everyday because I know I can never have her. I feel z lot of shit, pity for myself and empathy for you. I’m sorry I can’t ever love you, and I know what it’s like now, to have love thrown back in your face. I’m sorry I can’t be who I wish I could be… if […]
I dont know how or why im still alive. I have no use here. Im a stupid worthless piece of shit and noone cares. Im never good enough for anyone. NEVER! and i never will be. because ill always be who i am and i cant change that. but i can change whether im here or not. I dont understand how ive held on this long. Its crazy, all the crap i put up with. But then again, here i go being selfish. There are people who put up with alot more. i dont have it that bad, im just a whiny […]
today was shit, my seventh period geometry teacher is out to fucking get me. she makes me get in front of a class of 30 dumb ass ignorant teens everyday and make me do the problems and explain them as if im the teacher. i dont mind it too much but of course the kids are relentless and will make any joke they can and the fucking teacher, guess what she does? nothing! she lets them make fun of me on a every day basis. embarrassing is a understatement. but today my voice was shakey (idk the cause but i hadnt gotten any sleep last […]
Here I lay
On the floor.
Here I stay
Within a door.
Here I lie
In the silence.
Here I die
In the darkness.
Here I scream
My voice piercing.
Here I dream
My mind wandering.
Here I talk
Nothing to say.
Here I walk
Nowhere to go.
Here I call
None will listen.
Here I fall
None will hear.
I’ve been scared of adding more pain for so long. But I finally decided that I had to do something. So I tried cutting tonight. Â Omg! I’m not happy, but I’m so much better… I could control this pain. Â I can have something that I can control… I just idk…
I  want all the pain to go away that feel inside but know never going to happen. iv got to  much of it for it to disapear.
Hard times last forever but true friendships do!
Hi there everyone! my name is Katie and i recently just stumbled upon this place and i decide to make an account and tell you guys my story and maybe help someone who is in need of something like this ;P I’ve never done this before so give me some slack ^.^ Alright well the first part of my story starts when i was in 3rd grade. I was a bit chubby back then (still a bit now) and was pretty much the only chubby kid in my school my school was very small and was a traditional baptist church/school everyone new everyone. And you […]
I’m just going to get straight to the point. Does anybody know
whats most effective, partial suspension hanging or cutting major arteries on the arm? I dont want to be in a great deal of pain but i will be getting drunk and taking lots of benzos to make things easier. I’ve had over 11 years of pure torture and its time to end it.
I just read a few stories here. They are sobering to say the least. And if you’re reading this, and you posted something recently I want to say sorry for thinking I had depression, or wanting to kill myself, because it’s nothing compared to what you guys went through or are still going through.
I feel sickened to think that anyone would find out my actual identity. That’s why I’m thankful this is anonymous.
I was bullied for a while up to lately but everything  is going okay.I’m fine in school, really stressed and probably could do a bit more study but okay. I have an idea […]
I have an appointment this afternoon with my therapist. Â Do I tell him that my suicidal thoughts are beginning to reoccur with greater frequency? Â For so long since I was hospitalized last year, I’ve been free of thoughts of killing myself.
I don’t want to go back into the hospital or into a residential mental health facility because I’ve admitted my depression is growing. Â I also don’t want to disappoint my family by relapsing.
This weekend my wife, my oldest daughter, and I visited my youngest daughter who’s away at college. Â I was very irritable, probably more so than at any time since I was treated. Irritability […]
In modern society it is expected of every citizen to have and maintain a regular work schedule as well as a panoply of organized events which can range from exercise routines, hobby and pragmatic practices to cultural traditions such as celebrating holidays. When stripped of the stability that conforming to time provides, many people transition into a baffled and confused state, rendered helpless to the ambiguity that exists in life outside of routines and schedules.
Personally, I am wildly enamored with and have vehement passion for Chris Mccandless’ philosophy of life: “The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy […]
What do you when your life sucks and you’re too poor and  physically sick and weak to do anything about it?
I feel so stuck. Â And I feel like what the hell is the point in my living? Â I wish I was suicidal so I could actually do the damn deed, but I’m not suicidal as much as I’m sick, tired, hate my life, and don’t forsee it changing for the better. Â I have health issues so it’s not like my life can easily get better like other people can, so please no “everything will get better” schpeel.
Sigh.
Just imagine. One day you come home from school. Where you were already having a horrible day. All your teachers were extra hard on you today. . You and your boyfriend got into an argument again. This time it’s over. He already has a new girl friend. You go to your bestfriend for help. She’s always with her boyfriend. So, she never has time for you. You send her multiple text messages telling her that it’s over tonight. You’ll finally be happy. You wait six hours; no reply. She’s to busy with her boyfriend to reply. You grab that blade for the last time […]
I´m 16,diagnosed with major depression,been depressed and suicidal for over a year now,I recently got out of a mental hospital,I was put there for suicide risk,it was one hell for me,I hated every single second I spent there,I were there for a little over 3 months,every second of it I spent faking my smile and telling lies about my mood and suicide thoughts, just to get out of there,it was really hard for me,I never want to go there anymore. So now that i´m finally out of the mental hospital,I have to keep this fake smile on my face constantly and act like everything is […]
Nothing is forbidden anymore.
Nothing is worth doing anymore.