Flirting with Death is a roller coaster ride in the fog – you can never see ahead, if Death will accept you or if he will turn you down. He has his own way of going about things, turning off the lights for a good man and letting a bad one go free, but Death keeps it simple. He will come for you when it is time. Not before. Not after. You can speed his process along by smoking or by drinking, slow it down by exercising, but even when you slit your wrists, cut your throat, shoot yourself – Death will not take you […]
All of you are the same. I thought I’d come here and find nihilists such as myself. People who actually understand real depression, and not preteen angst. People with mental disorders and a reason to feel bad. Not some children who are under the impression their life is much worse than it is. They claim they are beaten. But as someone who is getting her bachelor’s degree in Psychology, I can tell you thats not what they would do. They convince their social persona they are beaten. This is a fad that has come from the fact that most baby boomers have had their children, […]
I’m an 11 year old girl..I’m too young to be suffering.. What’s wrong with me? Why do I keep crying myself to sleep and fake smiling my head off with friends and family? I’m a loser. Fat, ugly, worthless, piece of trash. Good for nothing… I may be young..but my soul is old.
does anyone know shelleycakes
Tell me now. How am i an attentionwhore? Do you see me posting pictures of my scarred arm on my social accounts? Have you seen me without my bracelets? Do I tell you about my messed up life? NO. I don’t, okay? I smile SO MUCH, it hurts! You want to know something? It’s not real. I’m known as the cheery, hyper, giggly and happy one of the entire school. I haven’t ticked off ONE SIGN to you that i’m hiding behind my over-joyed face.
“You’re always so happy!” Cassie giggled at me. I just flashed her a toothy grin. Though my brain was telling me […]
Sick of trying
Sick of lying
Sick of working
Sick of attempting to participate in this fucked-up world
Sick of caring
Sick of my autism
Sick of waking up to this fucked-up world
Sick of breathing
Especially sick of living!
I’m not those kind of people who have tiny scratches on their arms and says they cut. I used to be like that… so wimpy to even try. But look at me now! All grown up…and torn. I don’t have those tiny slits on my arm. I have long cuts across my arm, up and down. I have FAT and UGLY carved into my sensitive skin. I cry myself to sleep..lucky nights..I fall asleep fast. Then I have to wake up and face the drama of the world. That’s not all the time I get! I have school time to run into the bathroom and […]
My life has sucked from day one. My childhood watching my mom being beat too near death. My being beat as a child and teen . . My mom so depressed she can do nothing . . ive been raped shot, im tired of this life. I cant cope. the person im dating cant relate to me at all I am so all alone. I will kill myself tonight. I have sliced both of my wrists before. I will make sure I go deep enough tonight.
I hate when I forget my blades wherever I go.
I hate when people judge me.
I hate that I have to lie to everyone and tell everyone of them the same lie, “I’m just tired.”
I hate that I’m ugly.
I hate that this world has lead to nothing but gruesome..shame..
I’ve always tried to be the optimist, always tried to make friends, always tried to be kind to most people. I’ve always tried to be the best i can be, and to give. But i’m tired of giving everything to the people who reject me in the end, and being b!&@y to the people who’ve put their trust in me. Why cant I ever do anything right? Is it me? Why will kids walk away when i try to talk to them? Theres nothing wrong with me, right? I’ve tried to convince myself that. But it hurts too damn much. Why me? Why do I have to be the one […]
It’s getting hard.. I don’t know if I can do it anymore… I just want to go lay down and sleep forever. I don’t understand and I lost my only reasons to live… I know they are in a caring place with good people but I won’t get to see them.. What’s the point now.. In anything in life..
-Jladd
Ich dich nicht haben kann…even though I want to with all of my heart. You hurt me so badly sometimes. I don’t understand the things you do and why you would do them so carelessly to something that is a piece of you, that shares your flesh and blood. I would die for you, I really would. If it ever came down to you being killed or I, I would gladly and shamelessly step in front of you and guard you with every inch of my being. Your face is so beautiful…it’s perfect, even when you think you look like ‘hell warmed over and dipped […]
…is just so fucked up. Â Caused 30 years of pain and it never ends.
Ok, so I honestly don’t know what to do, I’m so close to breaking. It started two years ago when my dad got cancer for the first time and it’s recently got worse, a couple of months a go I got spiked and raped at a party, then my Gran died the same week. me and my gran were so close, could tell her everything knowing she wont judge me although right now i know she would. I used to self harm but stopped and now thinking about starting again:/ it’s the only release i’ve got, my mum thinks it’s all a big joke, my […]
my name is willam lewis and i hate this guy me im in a internal battel with my self not stoping no ending i dont under stand why all i know is
the guy i hate the man who fuck me up me i hate the way i hate my self the way i cant stop heting my self and a feel the despret need to diy why am i like this i dont know all i know is that this guy….. me is a ****
here i am. once again. holding the knife. with fear of knowing what i want to do. im scared. i can admit that. i want it over. heres my chance. will i do it? i wish i could. i wish i was weaker now, more than ever. to just do it. so i think i am. main vain. and goodbye. to those all who never cared. to hear my call. that i have sent many, many times. and i get no answer. i get no help. i dont need it. i supose i was never meant to. this is how it is. the life i […]
Wondering who I should choose to sign as witnesses on my will. I asked my grandma but she won’t sign and my father would probably be devasted and confused. Don’t want any acquaintances to know, do I ask a stranger?
I have only 4 days left to finish all of my documentation and such so, I’m not sure what to do.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SKg0VSoDdxI
ill start well if im honist im feling like a bad of shit iv got a gcse music tomorow but iv been thinking bout what people have been saying and i feel shit this song reflects it i think and the humer in it makes me feel a bit beter but aney way i was thinking to night if i died i wouldent haft to fill one more form sit an exsam and it would all be gon away and forgoten i hate my self for the shit im doing to my self in genrel i hate myself
aney way how do you feel tonight and […]
My story isn’t as bad as other people’s, but I need to get it out. I used to be a happy child, but then the older I got, the more I began to care about my grades and stuff, the more I began to stress. Eventually, I met my best friend in a science camp, and she told me she cut. That’s when it started. She influenced me, got me all depressed, and I began to realise that my parents were the problem. The over-protective, grade-obsessed, possessive people who raised me and have rules about how I need to walk. Â It just makes me so […]
Humiliated. Helpess. Tormented. Scared.  Ive been going through these emotions for a several years and I had no idea how to fix them until now. The answer to my questions is suicide. I need to kill myself to finally feel like Im at peace.