go to school, and the first thing we start watching is a suicide awareness video, none of the kids are taking it seriously i just wanna scream, they dont get shit. I hate all of this, fuck it all, i have my razor on me, i wanna just fucking cut hit a vien and just die. No one ever gets it.

My name is B and I’m lost. I don’t think it’s even possible to be found anymore. You see, I came out of the factory broken. I’m just one of those people that bad things happen to. It’s a fact of life, one I always just accepted. But these past few years have been making it harder to trudge on. I get better, then get worse, then seem to get better again before I fall into a deep dark pit. I can’t tell anyone around me that I need help. I can’t let them know I’m not perfect. I feel like admitting that would make […]

Have A Good Day you guys! and Remember to keep your head up!

In my last little ‘True story’ I wrote, I talked of a girl named Ashley. She was once a very beautiful tomboy brunette in elementary school. By high school, Ashley was replaced by a girl who is sex- crazed and drug addicted. She tried to get me in trouble, by trying to get me to go to the mall for homecoming tux. I ended up not going, and it was a good decision not to go.

Anyways, this story is about weed/pot (I can’t tell the difference between them.), my dad, and my cousin. Because I hate my cousin so, I’ll use her real name; Hailey.

A […]

I really want to punish myself . Please I have done so wrong.and lately I am not even good enough please tell me how to punish my self.

P.S I cut, I starve myself, I run until my legs hurt, but I need something powerful. A really heavy and powerful punishment………..

Well my name is tess and im 14, im here just saying my story, when i was young i was diganosed with Adhd (attention dificit. Hyoeractive disorder),  my mum got divorsed with my dad and got with another man, he was wrong, i got bullied allot from him not just physically but mentally too,  he would just fuck with my head, i got put through walls, knives held up to my throat and much more, i got bullied by an older man than me….. I fiannly got to the age where i could tell someone about it, i told my mum, she didnt belive me, […]

i’m the type of person who hesitates to kill myself because i still have faith that maybe something good can happen. so i make a little agreement with myself; if nothing happens, if i’m not ever happy, within 2-3 months, i will die. every time i’ve done this i’ve met a wonderful person who seemed to be capable of being a good enough friend to make me decide to live an extra 3 or so months.

now that i’m with my girlfriend, this something good will nearly always be present which means i’m “safe” for a bit (or forever if she stays with me that long). but […]

Bad love brought most of us here.all we ve had from friends,family,and the world in general is BAD LOVE

Got me

Why is life worth living if no one cares enough to double check on you? To make sure your ok? When the love of your life plays games with you, horrid games. I put on a smile every day. I’m a black diamond. I don’t want to smile anymore. I want to wear my pretty blue dress, get in my new small bed, have my friends and family tell me goodbye, and go to sleep six feet under a willow tree.

Hi… I really need to get something off my chest, so I’m posting it here and I hope no one will mind. This is going to be kind of a long ramble. So, I’m 21 years old. I have no friends, and I have never had friends. My mother is overbearing, my father a drunk. I’m awkward around people, which is probably because I’ve only spoken to a few people in my entire life. (I’m on the extreme end of the social anxiety spectrum and I’ve always found it difficult to talk to people I don’t know.) People give me strange looks whenever I walk […]

I am so much luckier than the rest of you. Though my suffering is constant and agonizing
mentally, and stabbing aching physically- I am easily distracted. I have not been through the horrors you have, and I haven’t 10minutes of downtime in my day. I can lose focus, breath unrestricted for a few moments each day. I am only slightly suicidal. I have yet to cut myself. This is because I am shallow and I have a reputation to uphold- to my family, my classmates, my teachers, my coworkers, officials I need to impress…..

I am so much luckier than the rest of you. And for […]

All I wanted was his happiness..he’s happy
I wanted to be able to say her name without getting angry…I can
I wanted to have people to talk to…I do
I wanted to lose weight…I am

So why am I still crying?

He’s happy with someone else
Instead of getting angry when I  say Skye I get angry when I say Rain
So many people to talk to..none understand
Starving myself..getting major headaches just to lose weight like they said

Crying uncontrollably…none of this is enough

If you saw me you wouldn’t look twice, but I am not like you or anyone you know. I was bullied for being fat and having glasses. When i was 13 I slit my wrists in the bathroom. I passed out, woke up a few hours later then went to school the next day. I still have scars. I went to live with my father who would fight with my step-mom every night. Now, my father is dead, drank himself to death. My mother has a druggie boyfriend, my brother is drinking now. I just would rather be on the street than be here anoter […]

You will be in my prayers tonight; my forever loved Michel<3, EndlessWhispers, b1urr, and everyone else on here for that matter.  I want what is best for you.

Goodnight and sweet dreams

Hey Everyone juts wanting to ask if you have Facebook can you please like this page. It means alot to me.

https://www.facebook.com/SppStopSuicidePrevention?ref=hl

Thanks The Crew of SSPP Stop Suicide, Prevention Project

I think everything about me went downhill when the person I was closest to decided to end their own life. Even though before this time I was still considering ending my pain, sometimes I stop and think when all of it got so extreme. I trace it all back to that phone call informing me of them being gone.

This has been such a bullshit day. I have no idea why I woke up in such mental pain…could it be the recent separation, the two kids that are grown and on opposite ends of the globe, the fact that my life is just completely fucked….Or maybe its hormones. A drug reaction to the antibiotics i’ve been on. No, I just wanna die. I have to wait until my daughter is out of college and I know she is happy or settled or something, so that she will have her own life situated and can go right back into her own life, after my death […]

I found myself revamping my suicide note without realising it. I had written one in summer last year, but it was horrible; I couldnt translate how I was feeling properly, and also write it so my family could understand.

I had a best friend Katie, she was suicidal at one point and I thought she was just looking for attention. Im one of those horrible people who dont believe things until I experience it myself, we’ll call it a learning curve.

I was horrible to her, I always have been; people who love me have always been my outlets…

Its a shame though because I really love her. […]

I thought about jumping in front of the train again today… old thought. I try to figure out the logistics in my head. I thought about drinking and taking a bad combination of pills… making cyanide… putting a bag over my head after drinking a lot… I don’t have the guts. Maybe finding a way to get ********… might be easier. I watch the documentaries of people who go to foreign countries to end their lives… they have people there with them when they died… wishing them a safe journey… I wonder if I could ever have that.

I think I wouldn’t… I know I don’t.