She’s so damn beautiful.
I want to tell her that, everytime I see her.
But I’m just too wrong, too messed up, for someone as beautiful as her.
My friends are getting tired of me constantly brooding over her, but I can’t help it. Every time, any time I think about her, I get a heartache unlike any other. No amount of negativity can give me this sort of pain in my heart. I want her to be with me, but it seems that I’m not what I used to be for her anymore. We used to text late into the night, care about each […]
I am new to this site and it’s a little comforting To be honest. My story is a long one I’m only 17 & life is hard. Its gotten so bad that all I do anymore is stay anoint in my room. Not a day goes by that I cringe at the fact of getting out of bed and starting the day because I know what is goin to happen. I wake up and as soon as I leave my room it starts..the daily morning insult from my dad..its something every day…your nothing…you will never be anything..worthless…your a waste of a human life…that’s just at […]
I think about it every night before falling asleep. You know, that time when you are supposed to be winding down, lying in your bed in the darkness with nothing but your over active brain that won’t shut up to keep you company. Sifting through memories that you long to experience over again. Feelings you’ve felt, decisions you wish you could alter.
I’m going to end it.
I was spoiled growing up. I have an older brother and a younger sister, so that makes me the middle child and the second boy. I was created for the sole purpose to give my brother someone to play with […]
Well, for starters i need to tell you i’m mexican. So my english may not be always great. When i was a kid i was a very spoiled girl, mostly i remember… (Or all of it) by my dad. He used to be my heroe. Literaly. This memories are just like a bomb in my head they come one after another in so much disorder that i cannot express them well. My parents used to fight always. There was screaming, throwing things, door slams, car persecutions, cheaters investigation, sarcasm about my dad in every adult convertation… My mom started to unload all of her trouble […]
I know that this is kind of late, but I just wanted say my piece of what I was thankful for.
I am thankful for the watch that my father bought me; without it, I would never be able to tell the time or know how much time has past. You see, my watch isn’t fancy, and it isn’t too cheap, but its perfect for me because it’s very symbolic to me. My watch symbolizes how much my father really cares that I know what time it is, how he went out of his way to buy me something that was small even though it mattered to me. My […]
So I’ve struggled with depression for years now. I’d say since I was about 13-14. Middle school was when I first contemplated suicide & it was after my very first boyfriend broke up with me. We didn’t date very long & things never got past first base. I’ve always been an emotional person, letting things get to me that shouldn’t.
Well over the years I’ve had my fair share of boyfriends (back to back really), and I wear my heart on my sleeve. I’ve realized I may have developed some co-dependency issues from the lack of knowing how to be alone. And to this day, guys […]
Hi. My name’s Erynn. I’m new to this website, and wanted to introduce myself. I thought the easiest way to do this, was to make a small list of facts.
1) I don’t have my drivers license yet.
2) I go to therapy.
3) I hate myself; there’s nothing about me that I like. Nothing.
4) I have no friends.
5) My parents are frustrated. They love me, but don’t know what to do with their daughter. Mom ignores me, and Dad just gives one-word answers.
6) I started being depressed in the 4th grade.
7) Going out in public makes me utterly sick. I feel like everyone’s eyes are on me. […]
Hi, I’m new to this site. I guess, I’ve kind of been looking for something like this for a while. Some where that someone who isn’t related to me, and doesn’t have a biased opinion can give me advice. I’m not suicidal at the moment. Never really have been seriously. I just want ears. So this is my story: In February, the guy I had been dating for the past eight months broke up with me because he is gay (and I am female). He claimed he dated me as a way of trying to confirm to himself of his sexuality. Don’t get me wrong, […]
I’ve been a member of this site for 2 days. When i posted my story of getting better, i thought it was a basic read kinda site. I didn’t know this was an ongoing support system. I’m so glad it is, i feel like i’ve stumbled upon a place where i’m not so alone. I’m 17, soon to be 18. I want to be a psychologist, so i can help others in pain. When i see posts on here of those feeling hopeless, all i wanna do is help, find a way to save their life. I still get suicidal thoughts myself. I’ve struggled […]
I know the feeling
Of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge
And there ain’t no healing
From cuttin’ yourself with the jagged edge
I’m tellin’ you that it’s never that bad
And take it from someone who’s been where your at
You’re laid out on the floor and you’re not sure
You can take this anymore
So just give it one more try
With a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I’m reachin’ out to let you know
That you’re not alone
And you can’t tell, I’m scared as hell
‘Cause I can’t get you on the telephone
I dont even know where to start my first and only love of 14 years, dropped a bombshell 4 weeks ago that he had been cheatin on me for six months and was leaving me and the two kids. I feel betrayed, lonely, hurt and empty. He was my best friend and we were planning our lives together and he just left and i dont understand why I wasnt enough and how he could just stop loving me after all these years. I know i sound weak and moany and should just pull myself togetrher because people are goin through worse but i just cant. I […]
I hate this time of year. Then again I hate every day. It is all torture. From foster home to orphanage to terrible home I jump, waiting, praying till I turn 18. People tell me it gets better and i’ll b happy soon. But does it really and how do they know?
I was taken to a new home for this holiday season. The couple has lots of money and the mother is a doctor but she can’t have kids so she chose me. Lucky me right? No. I’d rather b a million other places. The one thing I can tell u about this house… the basement is cold […]
hey guys
I have missed you guys
sadly I haven’t missed the thoughts they havent left me one bit. for weeks thoughts of death have been in my head and they wont go away. I am not sure if I wanna die or if its just the thoughts that are making me believe that I wanna die.
I just keep getting more and more reasons to die and not stay around here.
what the fuck am I supposed to do
I really love you all. I don’t know any of you but just because that we all here got about the same thoughts makes me love every single person here even more.
I’ve lost hope in god but i really wish that there is a heaven. Were everyone can be happy without any misery.
But sadly, there is no belief without a hell, punishment or fear. I want a belief that’s only based of love.
Depression is a sickness. Many people don’t even realize or agree but please the first step is professional help. I really wish i could help every single person here but sadly, i can’t even help myself.
Big love for you all there.
When you go through with it how are you going to write your note? I plan on using an essay format as opposed to the standard apologetic letter format. I want to be able to communicate the logical reasoning behind my actions. I will use the standard essay with a thesis and use discouraging anecdotes from my past to consolidate and prove an overall point.  I just want people who read it to be able to accept it.
Most of all, I do not want to across as pompous. Suicide is a conceded selfish act, and that is the last thing I want expressed from my act.
Thoughts?
How will […]
I finally wrote my suicide letter. It doesn’t say much. I don’t have that much to say, and even if I did no one would care. People don’t see me, people don’t know me. I don’t care anymore, I mostly feel sadness.
Just hoping for a miracle that would stop me from feeling like this.
Things have gone worse. But, that’s probably good for me. I talked to the school counsellor the other day, and honestly it didn’t help. She’s going to tell my parents. That is why i didn’t want to go in the first place -.- She thinks i suffer with some depression, but it’s probably not a bad one. It’s not like i have trouble sleeping or anything. I’m going downhill, but then i guess that means i’m going uphill in a way. Me suffering is a good thing. It’s meant to be. I’ve lost interest in everything i loved, in food even. I only really eat […]
All my life I’ve been taught that no one cares.
No one wants to hear how bad you got it.
Everybody has their own problems to worry about.
I’ve learned to not trust anyone
I’ve been told that no one is genuinely who they say they are.
Well although all of that is true one way or another. I don’t care … I don’t want to be “everyone”.
I want to be different. I know I’ve gone through some hard crap. But who hasn’t …
I want judge anyone. If you need someone to talk to, i’m here. I never had anyone to talk to, and I don’t think it was fair.
So i’m trying to help, […]
My name is ryan, im 23, i have been shy and quiet all my life. I have severe anxiety, nobody understands me, i am hard of hearing i wear hearing aids. I dont consider myself ugly, but people make me feel that way. I have been a screw up most of my life, when i was 11 i started smoking weed, which then became the root of all my problems since then. I meant an amazing girl at the same time, i dated her from the time we were 11 to 17. In jr high i started getting addicted to marijuana, i skipped school, i […]