Passed my point and pushed to suicide, im going to have somemore Fun, b4 i die.. its just really comforting knowing when,how and where i will die.. only a few more weeks i hope.. if not a few more days.
I dont think this world is worth it. Living in all this pain. Im bisexual, apparently “Emo” as i get called at school. Nobody accepts me for who i am.Not even my mother. She always has stuff to say about who i am and about my friends. She says she wont lower her standards for us. She doesnt know im bi. Like who the hell said she needed to lower her standards for anyone. .I dont want to live in this hell anymore. Im thinking of suicide or running away. The easiest way i can think of is just a large cocktail on pills in […]
I’m a fifteen year old girl in the 10th grade and I have never felt so miserable in my entire life. I’m tired of being that optimistic girl that fakes a smile for the sake of everyone else. Most of my friends know about my depression but they think I’m okay at the moment. Last night I was almost positive I wanted to die, but instead of acting on the instinct to kill myself, I just lied in bed shaking and crying. I could never tell my mom that I feel like I want to die sometimes because it would either break her heart or […]
I walk down the street and all I see is couples holding hands and kissing (whether they are two boys, two girls, a boy and a girl, young, old) and I feel like shit, because my girlfriend is Samoan, and her family is really religious and against gay people, so I’m not aloud to tell any of her friends about us and I can only tell my friends if I know they wont tell anyone and its sucks, because I’m so proud of everything she’s done, and everything she’s become… I met her in year 9 and as soon as I saw her, I was sprung… We started dating, and we were going out for nearly […]
My blood litters the bathroom floor;
Another fight with you,
Your up against the door,
Begging me not to do it,
Dont go away, you say,
Please stay.
I dont want to leave but I have to,
If I stay, one of us is sure to get hurt;
I hate seeing pain in your beautiful brown eyes,
So therefore I know it is me that has to die.
I’m leaving out the front door!
Your sitting on the couch,
Hoping for one last kiss,
But I know that if I give in now,
I wont be able to go,
You say ‘I love you babe’.
As one tear slowly runs down my face,
You say that we’ll get through this;
We alway do!
I love you babe!
I love you […]
Hello all,
I have the urge to declare my sanity and justify my actions. I doubt that anyone will be convinced that this was the right decision. They are all too caught up in what they believe is sane or what they believe is “good” or “happy”. I believe it is my right to decide what I do with my life. It is my goddam decision! We all preach to the rest of the world about “freedom”. Well, how “free” are we really if society can’t accept someone’s decision to end their life? The word suicide is shunned and scorned. A person who commits such a […]
We’ve been arguing continuously,if it wasn’t you who started it first,then it would be me.You said that we could make it right together,I said we couldn’t .But you insisted,so I chose to believe you.But..do you see what is happening now? You should’ve believed me and let me leave,so that you won’t get hurt anymore.Do you regret it now?
You’ve saved me when I was depressed and ready to leave this world behind,just by saying those words of encouragement and giving me hugs which you hated but did it anyway.But,are you doing it now? You began to show your disgust when I tried to embrace you.I got […]
I guess I should start with a statement of “I know that I”m a really lucky person, and life, while not perfect, had been nice to me.” I am born in a really developed country, and have so many benefits that many other countries doesn’t have. I am gifted and loved by god in many ways (learned how to read a language through watching TV, drawings that had won numerous awards and got me a 60,000 scholarship money, performed dance for the Winter Olympics, top three in my school, an hourglass figure, decent face, and healthy body with no mutations…etc.) But I don’t see a […]
I don’t have the right to die as quickly and painlessly as I hope. I cannot will myself to change. I have the same thoughts each day. I am so selfish. All I want is to escape from all of this. I haven’t talked for months. But here I am now. Here I am. And I hope I make it to the other side tomorrow. I just can’t take it here anymore.
Please pray that I get to finish it this time. Please. I am beyond repair.
Ugh… oded on some meds yesterday and stilll feel bad… id think i woulda learned last time
I’ve never been so lost in my entire life. I don’t even know where to start.
I’ve been depressed, anxious, and suicidal my whole life. It’s been miserable. It’s so hard having nobody to talk to. My family doesn’t understand. Every single day I put on my fake smile and act like I’m okay, but I’m not. I try to get my parents to hear me. I cry out, but nobody listens. I’m invisible to them.
I have no idea what I’m doing with me life. My dreams were always shot down. They said I wasn’t special and that I’d never make it. I still believe I can. But […]
Been on edge..
People keep throwing bad things..
Keep comparing to others..
People that supposed to support me..are the ones who knocked me down.
Life is sucks!
Im tired being a nice person..
always ended up gettin hurt.
Series of unfortunate events leads to depression
Depression leads to cutting
Cutting repulses people
Tries not to cut
Acts fine to others
Teenager somehow gets through high school without friends
Teenager doesnt know where to fit in..
Sits by herself at college lunch table
……….Almost invisible……….
Endures things happening
Handling things she shouldnt be able to handle
Doesnt want to handle anymore
Decides to give up
Disappears forever…
If someone wants someone to talk about there suicidal feelings email me at Danieljmwaters16@Gmail.com
Email me if this speaks to you or maybe if you feel weird about posting your feelings in public.
Obviously i wont be around 24/7 but i am putting this option out there for you.
Helping even 1 person is worth it.
My name is Daniel i have had issues with depression my whole life to the point where most of it had been ruined.
By never giving up i have carved a life for myself the best i can…
All for the few minutes a day that the pain goes away.
I may not be perfect, […]
So, yea… Reading back, this is pretty long. Sorry.
I just sat here for the last 5 mins.. staring at this blank page. Not knowing where to start.. whether there’s some sort of “etiquette” to follow for total-forum-newbies (’cause yes, this is my first ever forum post on this matter, ever.. >.<), before posting.. Not knowing whether to actually post, or leave everything in my head like I do with everything. And no doubt, everything I write, I’ll be going over time and time again before i post this.. wondering if i should actually tell any of this – I’m not one for sharing. So much […]
If anyone is wanting to hurt themselves or just needs someone to talk to please contact me on here! i would love to help in any way i can!
so tired of looking at my inbox and feeling like an idiot…cuz its empty…anyone please email me…depressed and bored and trying to stay sidetracked so i dont do anything that will hurt others…
hannahschelling.15@gmail.com
I don’t quite know what to say here. I’ve never been a blogger. That is, if this qualifies as a blog. I guess if I were to get to the main subject of this, I’d simply say that I’m depressed. Like most here, I’m one of the ones who hates having to act happy, always having the sadness weighing me down at the edge of my consciousness. The only relief I find comes from sleep, and I tend to not get much of that these days. Thank you, school. I would homeschool, or better yet drop out completely, but I don’t have the spirit. I’ve been […]
Scar504 I sent you an email.
muslims. Put your money where your mouth is.? And kill me. If you got the religion.? i in sailt you.