I love the life I have lived. But the life I’ve been living lately has gotten so boring that I see no point in life. I have no determination for absolutely ANYTHING. I don’t want to work, I dread going to school, my friends and family bore me and I pretty much find sleep as the most exciting thing. I’m not here to say I have screwed up parents or that I’m ugly. Honestly, I have a great family and I think I’m very beautiful. I’m here in curiosity. I want to know if anyone wants to end their life just…. Because? I think what […]
I’ve spent a long while thinking about my decision. Life just is just shit for me and it always will be. Shit started when I was 6, when I just came to Ireland with my mom to meet my da, I honestly had no memory of him before, life got bad when he entered it. It was a bearable kind of bad though. My sister was born later, after a while I got used to him beating my mom. It was bearable. When I turned eight and he got his new job, I dont know why but he began to turn on me as well […]
Because no matter how hard I try it’s never enough. I’m tired of hurting….I’m just trying to figure out the best way to go and the right time. I would hit myself but it’s too many people around.
Everyday brings the same crap, everyday I wake up nauseous as hell.
Everyday I think about how I can successfully kill myself. My parents think I
need to be under medication, because I find it hard to express emotions and feelings when I find everything pretty shitty.
Any temporary happiness I have is always clouded with suicidal thoughts.
As each day goes by sleep is something I resent more and more. Truth is I hate sleeping because I hate waking up to another shitty day
in this existence.I live with the innate idea that if I was never born, I would be happier since I would […]
I’m new to this so I don’t really know how to explain what I’m feeling but I need to get this out. My girlfriend left me 2 weeks ago and she was the reason I did anything with my life. She is the one it’s as simple as that and I would do anything to get her back. I’m a manic depressive anyway and I’ve been on pills for the last 6 years with no results. I have been seeing shrinks for the last 5 years and ended up in hospital 3 times trying to kill myself. I cannot deal with this anymore I’m 22 […]
I am feeling incredibly low right now. My marriage is falling apart, I am dealing with depression. My husband threatens to take our son away from me because my emotions are no stable. There is not much to live for . Help
I am feeling incredibly low right now. My marriage is falling apart, I am dealing with depression. My husband threatens to take our son away from me because my emotions are no stable. There is not much to live for . Help
I have 5 sisters. My imperfections used to be guarded by my older sister, she’s 18. She rebelled against my family, did very unfortunate things, and next to her I was perfect. Then she was kicked out of the house. With her gone, all my imperfections came to light. I now sit between two perfect sisters. One is 23, the other 15. I am 17 and next to them I feel worthless. They are always better than me. They love better than me, they are more fun than me, and they have a better personality than me. At least that’s what my parents make clear. […]
I’m probably being stupid, I keep thinking that the only reason that I should continue living is so that my family don’t end up hurt but I’m starting to question my theory. I found my release a week or so ago, cutting, it helped me a bit. Whenever I got shouted at for poor conduct at school or something, I’d concentrate on the pain and everything else would just go silent no matter HOW hard they scream at me, I just wouldn’t hear it. It’s become a routine, planning out and researching how to end my pathetic existence that can’t even affect society, if I […]
iv had a lot of thing happen to me in my life but the one thing that iv learned is that the people and things that are closest to you are the things that can hurt you
the most.
just recently i left my dad (im 16 by the way), my parents are divorced and every since iv felt like an empty shell, not because they are divorced but because they
are such different people.
all i want is to be normal, to get good exam results and go to a good college and get a good job, but i cant, i cant because i […]
Every time my boyfriend sees me on this site he gets freaked out caaause he nos I’m crazy enough to commit suicide. I can’t take stress now a days and I don’t have much patients….
Depression ia good to people it nos how to just fuck your shit up. Sometimes you can’t help it.
I love to cut be chocked bite myself anything with pain I love… I don’t know why…
I wanna leave this place we call earth?!? Go into eternal life and be happy with no cre or problem swim with the stars paint a goat… Ive shroomed and left my body once […]
well this morning i woke up i felt so much better i was able stand on both of my feet but i was still a little limping i get to the arch of my room hallway and lean against the wall for balance and everything instantly become fuzzy and black spots appeared ( i have perfect vision!) i felt heavy and my dad walks downstairs and says “u feel okay?” i said “no” he told me to go back to bed my body couldnt respond i just fell over and hit the floor which than split my scab open from my leg so now there […]
I know there is a bad economy.i know my family isnt one anymore.i know my eldest brother died trying to build the family a good future.and i know i might never know how it feels to be loved.but i dont care.i dont care because nobody cares.nobody give a fuck about me.i am one worthless ************.and thats the only reason why when i see people turn their back on me.i hate myself for a while and move on.i know my entire family is broke and i know the world is not a place for our kind.i dont belive in hope or a bright future.’cus the only […]
Even if you decided to take you own life and end your days here on earth does the guilt of telling someone big so that person get a golden chance to help you
so was the title for the song decided… “golden chance”
But the fight has only just begun to me; it is a long way to go because suicide is growing in Sweden and worst is that it is the
age 12-18 that commit suicide most of the year today
in Seweden is the number of suicide 1500 by year and it is 4-5 times
more that think about doing it
thats why i […]
I’ve got to go… should have gone years ago!
I hate myself nearly as much as life but can’t end it on my own!
I was in the middle of dream when I was awaken by squealing. Groggily, I turned on the light and saw a little mouse stuck on one of the glue traps I set out during the summer to catch any june bugs that might crawl into the house.
I watched it for a while, it’s furry body was stuck painfully on the glue trap, stuck in some contorted way. It’s right ear was torn from it’s struggle. I could see it’s heart beating frantically in its stomach. Every time I came near it, it writhed in fear and would squeal as loud as it could.
I’ve caught […]
So i tought i dserved to be loved again.and fell in love with the nearest available girl i could find.and somehow someway i am back here feeling as unlovable and dejectd than i ever was
I’m lost.
I think I’m doing ok. And on some days I’m even happy.
I thought I was over you. I now know I’m not. I thought I was happy and was able to love again…till I saw your face. And how happy you looked with her.
I got the sick feeling in the pit of my stomach again. A reminder that I am not over you. Nor will I.
A reminder that you will and are the one I need.
A part of me wishes you would have let me die a year ago…
you still would have been happy and I wouldn’t have been in this much agony and […]
last year around march i had a gunman storm into the house and threaten to shoot me my daughter and the unborn baby in my womb, the only thing i could think of was to cover hurl my body over sasha as cushioning in case she got shot and to cover my stomach , i left my head feet and arms visible for him to shoot at as he pleases, there are those who have witnessed the shit i have had to go through since i was 20 and alone with sasha , risking my life, my health , my sleep my everything for the […]
Is life worth living??What do you think?