Tick tock
Says the clock
It seals your doom
While you lay in your room
Will you die
With a blade at your side
You watched the blood run down
Your wrist sliced, but you don’t frown
Realse is what you feel
Paradise at your heel
Earth was hell
But now you hear the bell
The ringing, singing
In the high heavens
You have escapes the heathens
yes you know
the ones who put on a show
they caused you pain
And while your eyes rain
There was no one
Not one soul out of a ton
You killed yourself happy
Free because earth is […]
i have been thinking,i know im to smart for my own good,i woulda never survived through the shit i did if i didnt know how to save my self from dieing of in my case anything,my life is shit,i live hours away from anyone im related to , and they are the shittiest people, the ones that abused me, starved me treated me inhumane till i was 17 wen i was finally taking away perminetly,still haveing attatchment issues and trust issues,vulnerable and always ran into someone that would say they care but hurt me and brake every promis possible,untill i realized, i dont have a […]
Hi… I’ve made alot of mistakes so far in my life but I don’t really want to list them so I would really like to hear from other people who what help… Please I want to try to help, before you do something crazy that you may regret… You only live one life…
My whole life have been a nightmare.. from my early days until today, it all started of with my dad hitting my mom while i was watching. And i can remeber it, but still i feel like i can see it.. during primary school everything was fine, had a couple of friends but not close friends, and now when im in high school none of those ”friends” are there. Im so lonley it feels like nobody knows im ther… everyone is just looking right through me… like im a ghost or something. And when i come home from school i get down on my cold […]
when people ask me how i am i don’t respond, becuz i can’t anymore.. i don’t know whats happening tho i feel I’m getting worse… ugh.. I’m in so much pain and i don’t know what to do anymore… i can’t even try to explain it to ppl anymore… its like I’m giving up.. but I’m still scared… i cry more uncontrollably.. i get mad at people more.. i piss people off more… and my friends seems like they’re leaving a bit…. or just getting more distant… I’m so F*CKING lost….. and scared and alone….
-RawrImaTurtle….
I’m not going to share my whole life story because I think the problems that I had or have are minor to what everyone else goes through. This fact actually makes me feel more depressed. I feel horrible for even thinking that I’m horrible and shouldn’t be alive. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think I’m better than anyone. In fact I hate myself. A lot.
To begin my story this is how people see me: I am to most people an always cheerful person. But that is how I get by. I try not to care and live with a smile. It worked until a […]
I am fucked. It s not that I realized that just now but maybe at this moment i am completely aware of my state. i am partly proud because i am not trying to kill myself at least not today. it kind of hurts when you can’t change the fact that you don’t have anyone around you except your parents which are currently not here. i know this sounds pathetic but i really wish i have somebody who loves me for me, somebody who would hug me without me asking for it. i am at a really bad state now and i would like to […]
i have been betrayed by my so called friends am mad at the world and lost all hope for trust and this is developed into despair and depression. Everyday is painful I am reminded of how much this hurts every time I wake up in the morning and I ask myself how come am not dead yet. when i contemplate suicide something happens and i end up postponing it. For example, I might get a random call or visit from a friend and I have to “act” like am ok but this kinda makes me post pone it till later when I am trying to […]
Not very sure how very origional or long this post is gonna be, but screw it I guess.
My name isn’t very important, but I can say that I’m a girl in the ages between 15 and 20. I’ve been thinking of posting something here for awhile, but it just hasn’t happened until now. Anyway, I think I’ve hated my life pretty much since first or second grade, or that’s at least when my misery began. I’ve never been bullied though, up til that point I was rather popular and people would fight over who was going to play with me, that too caused some problems, […]
Wamth of the sun beaming down to encourage growth and strength.
Cool breeze of the wind curls and carouses around the body cooling the soul.
Rain bursts from the cloud cover and washes the grit away.
Grass as green as a novice carpeting the ground and tickling the toes.
Trees tall and majestic reaching up and out to shade and protect.
Bushes sitting quietly awaiting the pruning shears of the endaring gardener.
Stones of all kinds absorb and hold the heat of the sun being children of mother earth.
Sky as blue and mesmerizing as the eyes of an Alaskan Husky staring at you in friendship.
All living things energetic and frolicking in […]
For a week I was able to stay away from thoughts of suicide and I was able to keep myself busy enough to barely notice my sadness. But that all came crashing down yesterday before resulting in this strange mixture of apathy and sadness I feel right now.
I hate feeling nothing.
Feeling nothing is as bad as feeling massively miserable, if not worse due to the guilt that goes with not giving a shit about stuff you know you should give a shit about.
I have important exams this year, it less than a fortnight’s time but I have yet to make myself care enough to study […]
I feel like I can’t control any of my feelings anymore. After I cut my self yesterday I cried all day. I have no idea what I am doing anymore. I used to be able to control my feelings very well. But now I feel like I can’t do anything right.
I didn’t follow through with it..
No yet at least, I’ve been trying to journal, and i want to do it so badly but all i can think about is my mom, and when i start to i just invision her findind me, devastated… It kills me to know how much this will hurt her…
I want to die.
I have a gun but refuse to use it on myself because it’s only a .22 and I might survive. If I had anything bigger, I probably wouldn’t be here typing this. I really wish I had that gun, today I found out the girl I REALLY like and that I have been flirting with for the last month has a serious boyfriend, I can never get a girlfriend and I don’t know why. Shit like this always happens.
My family sucks too. I have nobody to talk to and nobody cares. I have […]
I.. um .. i went in to a fight with the boy i like , because i was having a bad day , and i called him a jerk  … now he’s not talking to me , AT ALL . I had a big fight with my mom…. she hates me , she sayd i should go out , and drink myself till I die …. i feel so small …. i feel .. alone . :’c
I’m sorry for existing … because i really , really don’t want to hurt anybody … but … i cant stand this anymore .. I hate this , […]
In fact, I’m an introverted person and prone to analyzing everything in my life. I always think over and over again about my mistakes, about what I should do and what I shouildn’t do, I always analyze my life. Sometimes I can’t sleep, because I think too much. I’m shy and I experience lack of self-confidence. I live like a vegetable. I want nothing, I have no goals, I don’t want to do anything. I’m 22 years old and this summer I’ll graduate from the university, but I don’t know what to do with my life…I’m depressed for a long time, I suppose approximately 9 […]
I find myself always looking back on the pat wanting to do it again! I’ve did bad things in my life and its been because of depression. I dont know how to make it threw these hard times. My tharapist told me im depressed in every way there is! I want out!
It hurt so much inside. All I could feel was the pain and sadness. This was like a dark creature at the bottom of the sea. It feels no pain, has no mercy and keeps no love in its dead heart, only hate. It was overwhelming and I couldn’t see that bright light therapist say is up ahead. There was only darkness. That is what only a portion of my depression felt like. I actually named my depression War. My soul hates how it makes me feel hollow afterward. I feel deprived of love and life. Hollow comes on like a rainstorm. Sometimes you can […]
My last day online will be 05/31/2012. My last actual day … not soon enough. And if anyone tries to pull that stuff that someone did with Biscuit on here, it is not going to work with me so do not waste your time.
A few more weeks and I’ll be out of here. One of my methods is already procured and the two backups are on their way. Terminated my employment a week ago so it is daily inundation in books, games, movies and music until the end. Since the job is done and the methods are going to be present, no turning back now.
Everything […]
I stumled upon this site looking up techniques on how to sleep. I know how to get myself to sleep but i rather use my phone to distract myself. I always had trouble sleeping through the night because I cannot turn off. During the day I don’t think much about anything. As much as I love dreaming- I rather toss, turn nd give myself a headache. A thunderstorm has been over me for about an hour now..it’s beautiful nd therapeutic. Cleared my mind of all this anxiety.
How is everyone else feeling this morning?