Something tells me it’s a bad thing when the only thing that stopped me from attempting suicide the other day was that I couldn’t find the cable I intended to hang myself with. Sometimes, it pays to be too depressed to give a damn about cleaning.

Hiya, folks. ChildOfRagnarok back, still alive and kicking.

Now, you might be a little bit alarmed after the first paragraph. I don’t even remember what it was about, I think it was my friends wanting to do some fun activity normal people enjoy that puts the fear of God in me due to my social awkwardness and insecurity. Before I knew […]

I hate being bullied. I always have this swag like yeah sure what ever you words arent hurting me but they kill me everytime i hear them. Now the people who are nice to me to my face are talking smack about me to my little sister when she is over her friends house! and she wont even defend me she just sits there and nods. like seriously. who can i trust if my own sister wont stand up for me?? i hate when people use me for my smarts and then behind my back they say all these horrible things. spread all of the […]

This, this is what I see.

I’m happy. And yet I still want to kill myself. I don’t want to hurt him, but it’s time to be selfish for once. I’m setting a date. May 29th. Finally I won’t have to think anymore.

Got addicted lost kids family friends can’t crawl upwards I’m sliding faster HELP just kill me now Cruz I wanna end this pain nobody cares.

Today I woke up and I had an argue with my mom. She said she was thinking about killing herself. I don’t have father, I live with her, and I spent hours trying to convince her she is my everything. Her mother died last year, I know it’s hard. But I’ve lost my grandma last year, and if I lose my mom now, I’ll be alone. When I was about 10, she tried to kill herself with a shotgun. I hold it in my arms, she couldn’t take it from me. Now I know that she can try to suicide when I’m at school or […]

I’m 44 years old.  I’m not in a relationships.  Never been married.  Both my parents are deceased and I’m estranged from my siblings.  I am handcuffed to an ever increasing 6 figure student loan debt that I accumulated getting some useless degree.  I hate my job.  In fact, it’s the only thing in my life that I hate.  Unfortunately, my job is my only source of income and, without it, I couldn’t pay  my rent.  My coworkers hate my guts and I’m not too crazy about them either.  Imagine high school at its worst. Then imagine a clique of the most obnoxious, arrogant, lazy, immature […]

Good evening ladies and gentlements !

I am wondering and eating myself today…

Can You tell me, how do You fight with regrets??? Let’s say today i made a very fast decision, which i found out, was really wrong. It happens very rare, but i can’t forgive myself …

I believed that it was mention to be, but no other better thing happened.

I chosen comfort for my body, but my soul is crying. Also i left 60 people without medicine support for whole night (i’m a soldier and i have 48 h war paramedic’s duty).

How do you people kill your regrets????????

Thank You.

Kisses.

When I was younger I tried to sell my soul to the Devil a bunch of times. I whished to get the power to dominate everyone, to ruthlessy impose myself.
I thought the collateral despair and havoc of my actions would have pleased him enough to grant me what I wanted.

I can’t even tell why I wanted that. I think the pretty selfish point was that if I already was an outcast, then everyone to hell with me.

If I could get a wish now, I would wish the power to heal bodies and souls by touch. Guess this means I still haven’t sold mine. But […]

I wanted to kill myself today. I’ve been thinking about it for months, if not years; but after some research I found out I don’t have enough hydrocodone to do more than make me sick.

I wasn’t physically abused as a child, but there was always verbal and emotional abuse. As I got older I let guys do with me almost whatever they wanted. Until New Year’s Eve this year when one of my best friends raped me.

And no one at home believes me, except for my immediate family, and the nurses who did my rape kit. The police officer told me what I did […]

For some of you who think you are cognitive or intuitive.
And many that, not even your family members could well understand you !
But instead all ganging up to turn on you, angry in saying that you are weird or sick !
So you want an answer, a reason ?
Is there fate ?…of those incidences that entangled…unexplained ?

Are we being here in this world to get even ?…in order for us to experience or to settle a score ?
A funny game, ahh, or indeed painful !

You think you have nothing left to lose !?
But then, something left here still standing, is […]

This is the second time I’ve told someone. Someone that is close to me. My boyfriend. He told me he didn’t like my attitude, and that it was crappy. He told me that I changed. When really I thought I could show my true self. I told him that I was sorry and that I would go back to pretending my life was perfect and that nothing was wrong. His words, “thank you”. Never again will I tell anyone that I thought cared. I wish I was dead. I can’t do this anymore. The person I should’ve been able to trust most. I’m letting go…of […]

I’m 19 and I’m debating whether to commit suicide. I have tried it a few times in the past but obviously failed.
I missed out on what’s supposed to be the best years of my life (high school) due to PTSD and now I’m left with no friends, no qualifications and a unsupportive family who refer to me as the weird one. They do nothing but bring me down and try and dash my spirits. It’s hard to believe it but they are the only reason I haven’t actually succeeded at suicide.
I’ve been to get help for over 5 years now at a few […]

everything that happens in my life goes the wrong way. you dont know what you’ve got ’till its gone.  i cant even think anymore of whats wrong or right. im too lazy to think of something knowing i will kill myself eventually one day. or be in the risk of it.  i have no friends, no job, cant even drive. no social or sex life. i hate being the way i am, i feel a huge resentment of being gay. i get good opportunities up in myface, but i cant get them due to my health conditions ,and i just have no time to have a social life, […]

No one gives a shit about me
No one knows
They wouldn’t understand
They won’t even know when I’m gone
I’m invisible
No one wants to help me
I just can’t talk to anyone
I can’t ask for help

Is this you?
Do you feel cutoff, alone, separate from the rest?

But It’s not you, really it isn’t.
You are not a bad person, you did not cause everyone to hate you and ignore you.
(I can hear your self talk cutting in now, please read my post called the Voice)

It’s a symptom of a condition.
You may have little control over the condition and it’s symptoms […]

I’ve had enough. I want to do it, sooner rather than later. I woke up today and started crying at the thought of school and OCD and life, I kinda get the feeling that I won’t be waiting for my ‘date’.

What i don’t really understand is that when you tell someone you’re suicidal, they nearly always say ‘Don’t do it, I don’t want you to’ To some people this doesn’t matter because we are so far along in our state of depression that it goes in one ear and out the other, We don’t understand what we are doing to people. It’s like some form […]

My Last post was “The Ugly Duckling”. That was in the Beginning of April. For the first few weeks things have gotten better. I haven’t thought of suicide, I was really happy, but then yesterday i feel like things changed. All just for this stupid comment this guy said. Then the suicide thoughts came back. I was talking to my friend and i said, “this is the first bad comments i ever gotten on my report card”. this guy turned around towards me and said “oh this is your first bad comment? is it about your hair?” Then everyone started laughing. Because this one simple stupid comment he said […]

Sometimes I think, would the world really be THAT much different if I were dead? My answer always points to no.
It’s one less mouth to feed.
One less kid to clothe.
One less voice to hear.
One less problem to solve.
One less person to bully.
One less burden in their way.
One less mistake that was made.

Would I really make a difference? No.

i’m hoping this girl will change her mind once she reads my message on her phone. hope you know i mean. I’ll get her attention but i really want to end my life that i don’t deserve love or anything. there is more thoughts why i want to kill myself hope everyone message me and hope that girl i really like change her mind about me

Yes, I am in college. But, I still want to commit suicide.

I have no life and no friends. I have no job, and I was raised with a silver spoon in my mouth, per se. But now, the spoon is out of my mouth because of the unfortunate situation of my mom losing her job that she loves permanently. That job of my mom made myself not care about my spending and my lifestyle. I do not do ANYTHING beneficial to my life, and now all of my family is disappointed of me. I wish I was raised strictly, like getting a job as soon […]