Yes, it’s official, I couldn’t jump and now I have to face the consequence that I might be stuck here until I die of natural causes. How the he’ll am I going to do that?
I’ve told noone about my latest attempt but I had two ‘friends’ with me at the time and as I was standing on the edge they………
Walked away.
I don’t know why I didn’t take the opportunity to end it then and there, though I was worried it wasn’t high enough but there aren’t any higher structures that I can get to.

Time for another google ‘suicide methods’ search I think.

help

I feel like my life has been a blur..a blur I didnt want to acknowledge until I realized its eating me inside and im basically dead already. I am ashamed of myself and I cant speak to ANYBODY about this. I dont want to die.. but i dont want to exist either. I dont want to exist because there is not a day im not reminded of the torture and abuse i had to withstand and have never been able to share with anybody. I was sexually abused and molested when i was a kid..for several years. I was confused. I didnt know what was […]

A few years ago, i was in a dark place. I started to self harm when i was in 5th grade. I stopped in 6th. Im in 10th grade now. I promised myself i would never do it again because it just left scars. But now everything is falling apart. I cry every night. I look at my wrists and tell myself no. I cut my wrist today. I felt somewhat better. i have alot to say but i cant say it all at once so i will come back to this site to share my whole story. This is the first i have ever […]

I left my second marriage after my wife became so consumed by alcohol and pills that I couild not take the neglect and constant trampling of my spirit any longer. Every time something bad happened to us it was because I was a loser, yet she refused to participate in the marriage or any of the important decisions, setting me up for the blame if things dod not work out.

After leaving, I was found by my first wife, who had been the love of my life but had left me 20 years earlier for another man. She had tried to get back with me shortly […]

Hi everyone. This is the first time I’m writing on here. I’m a 24 to man looking just for some chat and maybe some advise. Off the bat I would like it to be from someone older then myself cus with age comes wisdom. I lead a normal life. I’m in school to be a paramedic. I work a decent job and have a good home life. The only problem I’m having is my gf left me rescently. I know it shouldn’t bother me to this extreme. I’ve lost girls before, got upset and moved on. But for the first time in my life […]

I quit my job after 3 days. 3 whole days and i quit. im such dumb failure. Im over-sensitive, and social anxiety, and i couldn’t take the fact that those god awful customers disrespected me like that. i couldn’t bare the fact that i got threaten, assaulted and harassed. im so stupid. Secondly, this guy scared the crap out of me in the parking lot. i have never been so scared before. I was in the parking lot sitting in my car reading something, and this guy comes out of nowhere and parks next to me. He just starring at me, and he winks, and i got […]

From the book “Bowling Alone” (http://bowlingalone.com/):

Apparently this book also suggests what can be done so if anyone has read or reads it I’d appreciate hearing about it……

Meanwhile, the author’s research shows trends of increased isolation in America.  Also:

Joining and participating in one group cuts in half your odds of dying next year.

Every ten minutes of commuting reduces all forms of social capital by 10%

Watching commercial entertainment TV is the only leisure activity where doing more of it is associated with lower social capital.

Declining Social Capital: 
Trends over the last 25 years

Attending Club Meetings
58% drop

Family dinners
43% drop

Having friends over
35% drop

im a 39 year old man with no life, no wife and no future.

i just tried to hang myself and failed. why do i feel this way

all the time. did finding my mom in a field with a bottle of

pills do this to me. nobody cares anyway. is it because i

drink like my dad did. i miss mom and dad so much. now

that they are gone i feel so alone all the time. no one

knows how hard it was growing up with a suicidel mother

and a drunk father, but in the end i still loved them. i try to

drink to kill the pain, but always […]

As I sit here, the sorrow sets in. Welcome back! For a second, I thought you wouldn’t return, old friend. The sound of the waves crashing can’t compare to the sound of my heart breaking. This is the second Spring I’ve had to spend feeling the cold stab of abandonment. The summer will grant me the chance to hide my embarrassment. Until then I’ll be in this place, hoping to meet my end. If only I could tie bricks to my feet and be taken away by the ocean.

i don’t know how to continue on with my everyday life. in my family, among my friends, nobody knows how i feel.

i hate who i am, i hate how weak i am, i didn’t get abused by my family or anyone at all, i’ve got both my parents so i keep telling myself im not allowed to feel sorry for myself, so many people is worse off than me. but i still feel sorry, and that makes me hate me more.

i’ve been sad and hurting since i started noticing my mother wasn’t normal, she and my dad are devorced. and my two older sisters never took […]

Through this graceless ravaging tempest
You seek to forsake this pitiful flesh
As you attempt a hopeless and doomed extrication
It clings to you with gladiator determination
You remain grotesquely animated
Choiceless, as your pain throbs unabated
Decaying within a merciless incarceration

Demonic phantoms do a deathly dance in your mind
Creating these hideous nightmares for you to find
On the despairingly glorious doorstep of hate
A gate guarantees elusively infinite escape
Bloodless corpses swirl through the mist
Promising a torture more fulfilling than this
Entranced, you eagerly stumble towards the howling wraiths

There is no hope in hell
No comfort when you fell
But purgatory is […]

It’s been basically a year now. Since I was on this site. I’ve heard many stories of loss and divorce from so many people. Yet none of them seemed to hurt as much as I felt just a year ago. In a year everything can change in a heartbeat. Sometimes for the better. Sometimes maybe not. But in the end change is a matter of life and you can’t shy away from it. If right now you are feeling desperate or in despair. Just think of it as a tunnel. I know you’ve heard of it before. Or you’re saying to yourself but you don’t […]

I want to live, I really, truly do. It’s just that right now, I feel like I’m surviving and life is simply passing me by and I have no idea what to do about it. I mean, I want to die right now because my life means nothing and I’m worried it will forever be like this.

How do you get the confidence to just live? It seems to me that living takes a lot of strength. To me, the difference between living and surviving is simply that feeling of being alive. I don’t feel alive, but I’m surviving anyway. So yeah, I don’t feel alive […]

My mother’s been out of the house for 2 years. She use to drink every second of her life. She’d be passed out 99.9% of the time i saw her. My brother was just cleaning her old room and found 3 of her empty vodka bottles. You have no idea how much i want to find her and punch her. She ruined my life. I have no feelings towards her.

My name is ShiAnne Osborn, I am 17 and currently a senior in highschool. When I was three years old my parents divorced and my dad was rewarded custody of me therefore I never got to see my mom. Even though she was out of my life I was still a normal and Happy little girl. I would spend most of my time at my grandmothers as my dad worked and then go with him places when he got home. I guess you’re wondering why I’m telling you all this cause it sounds like my life was perfect but this is where it begins to […]

This is the first time I am putting this in writing much less saying it to anyone. I have been suicidal ever since I can remember. I first tried to commit suicide when I was in grade 5, I think that would make me 11. I had heard in news about a guy who wanted to commit suicide by over-dosing but ended up killing his niece and nephew when they consumed the desert he had made for himself with plenty of sleeping pills. I was young then so I didn’t know just how much “plenty” meant. I asked my maid-servant (I am from Asia and it’s normal […]

In the last quarter of the twentieth century
much of the world sat on the edge of an increasingly expensive theater seat
waiting for something momentous to occur.
Christian aficionados of the Second Coming scenario were convinced that,
after two thousand years, the other shoe was about to drop.
And five of the era’s best-known psychics predicted
that Atlantis would soon reemerge from the depths.
To this last, Princess Leigh-Cheri responded,
“There are three lost continents: we are one: the lovers.”
In whatever esteem on might hold Princess Leigh-Cheri’s thoughts, one must agree
that the last quarter of the twentieth century was a severe period […]

its may become memoriable day for me…………my birth was on 13th may 1995 ,4.45 am…………do u know till now i lived 6161 days…………i wanna make my life different from others…yes ill do…………i have exam on 27…ill try hard from now ………..coz it can take me to that world ,4 wat i am willing…………there r so many people who will tell you u cant i want 2 say them just WATCH ME ……………:)…………….now i am going to take a long bath then ill start my journey towards my success ………..”i want to fly,
up there in the sky
nd my dreams are my wings..”‘…..all my […]

I know I keep posting…basically I guess I am trying to get my thoughts,feelings out before I die. I dont want to be saved,Im too far gone at this point. I think as I draw closer to the end I just need to purge this poison as much as possible….so bear with me. Or dont,I guess no one needs to read this. Dont necessarily need a reply.

Had another huge fight with BF on phone last night..still refuses to come back home,now trying to say he wants to talk to my therapist first. he keeps threatening to stay down there and never come back. His goddamn […]

My story isn’t this huge story that will make everyone teary-eyed ,a and have people wanting to feel sorry for me everywhere . No , im just a 14 year old girl w/ a fucked up life . But my story is real , and it means something to me that someone just read it and actually hear what i’ve been through . I need more faith in myself ,  i  talk back to my  parents too much ,  i want to cry right now , i pretend everything’s okay when it’s really not ,  i just can’t seem to understand math ,i am a […]