So far so bad.

I quit my job after 3 days. 3 whole days and i quit. im such dumb failure. Im over-sensitive, and social anxiety, and i couldn’t take the fact that those god awful customers disrespected me like that. i couldn’t bare the fact that i got threaten, assaulted and harassed. im so stupid. Secondly, this guy scared the crap out of me in the parking lot. i have never been so scared before. I was in the parking lot sitting in my car reading something, and this guy comes out of nowhere and parks next to me. He just starring at me, and he winks, and i got scared because he was really old, he had a truck and he winked at me, and i saw him opening his car door. So I drove off fast. i was to scared and punk. 3rd, March 31st, which is this Saturday im suppose to be running away and killing myself. Am i still going to do it? I dont know, and its not because im scared or anything, its the simple fact that i changed my mind and wanted to go to prom. and the reason why i wanted to go to prom is because prom=Makeover. and if you read my past post, the main reason why i want to kill myself is because i’ve been bullied all my life about the way i look. and my dad is paying for my hair, medicare, pedicure, dress etc, and my mom told me after that i could go shopping for clothes. Personally, i just want to see how i would look after this, if i still look like shit, by April 30th, then no more chances for me. Seriously this time, the only reason im not doing it this weekend is because like, i sad prom. My life still been shitty, and i still get made fun of. Everyday because im not as good looking as the rest of the girls. so March 31st, you have been postponed until April 30th. we will see.