I want to die.

I’m tired of trying.

I’m sick of living,

I’m done with lying.

I want to die.

I’m constantly pretending.

I’m exhausted from sobbing,

I’m awaiting the ending.

I want to die.

I’m losing control.

I’m screaming for help,

I’m stuck in this hole.

I want to die.

I’m breaking the skin.

I’m seeing the dark,

I’m letting them win.

I want to die.

I’m all alone.

I’m under the covers,

I’m cold to the bone.

I want to die.

I’m dreaming of death.

I’m lost in the crowd,

I’m despising each breath.

I want to die.

I’m cowering in fear.

I’m dismissing hope,

I’m hiding every tear.

I want to die.

I’m ready to run.

I’m filling the tub,

I’m absolutely done.

I want to die.

I’m wasting away.

I’m choking myself,

I’m tired of today.

I have clinical depression. I’ve cut “Ugly”, “Never Perfect”, and “Daddy” into myself. I have scattered cuts on my thighs, arms, and stomach. I tried to kill myself about 9 months ago, I overdosed on Midol. All my dad did was yell at me, and it’s all he does now. He insults me and yells at me and I blame him for a good deal of my depression. My best friend is a wreck, she’s tried to kill herself twice. Once recently, and I could’ve prevented it. I want to die. Every time I shower I contemplate filling the tub and drowning myself. I smoke […]

1) my said things will change where is the change 2)my friends are either distant or cold towards me. 3) I am fat 4)I am ugly. 5)my meds don’t work 6)to much stress at school. 7) boy probs 8) I think I have a stalker. 9) I cut myself. 10) I am passive. 11) I am not good at anything. 12) I am insane but sane ? 13)people are walking on egg shells around me. 14) I am doing bad in school. 15) I am a […]

I don’t know where to begin but I’m looking for help. I have 4 children, 3 that live with me. Today at the store I noticed that my 15 yr old daughter had what looked like scratches down her arm. It isnt just one or two, there had to be at least 50. Two of them were fresh, the rest faded. She never wears short sleeves, I now know why. I asked her about them and she admitted she has been cutting and has been for 3 years. My God, how could I have missed this? We talked for a long time about it. She […]

my competition sucks, i did not perform well in my competition , and what’s worse, after the competition , my teachers did not say anything to me. i am feeling so sad. i do not even want to go to school. what should i do. i want to go to another place.

I hate sick people.  The one’s who are physically ill.

Why?  Because people show a different kind of concern for them than for people who are ‘mentally ill’ or ‘have problems’.

The physically ill people get love, and warmth, and encouragement to get better.  They get positivity.  They get love.

The ‘mentally ill’ people get disgust, misunderstanding, hate, anger, and scorn.  They are rebutted by society and only get negative feedback.  They don’t get love.  Instead they get shoved into a corner and hidden away, where nobody will have to see them, where nobody has to feel ashamed, because that one person isn’t ‘normal’.

Instead we get sent to see […]

i seriously need to vent right now.

I’m so incredibly tired of being overlooked. Tired of being the bad guy.

No matter what I say, no matter what I do, no matter how I feel, it always gets turned around on me.

You were always the reason I hurt myself…even when I was only ten years old. You were always the reason I resorted to hurting myself, just so I could forget about the fucking emotional abuse you put me through.  Even now that I am old enough to walk away when I need too, somehow you still manage to get under my skin and destroy every ounce […]

i have a ghost “living” in my house. No it’s not just the wind or siblings r animals etc etc I have documented proof (videos evps etc). I’m not sure if he/she is malicious or not, but he/she likes to move my shit. Last night, I threw my razor away in the garbage after slitting my wrists. Today, I awake to find it on my dresser. N no one was home today. My parents r both out of town. And there was blood in the bottom of the waste basket where the razor hit. So it’s not just me who wants to kill myself or […]

I used to want to die. I woke up every morning amazed that of all the chances I had to die during the night, I hadn’t taken any, and that I had lived to the morning.

I used to want everything to end, quietly for me, but for others to see the result of my suffering, to know that I suffered while they watched, for the proof of my suffering to remain in my body.  I wanted my death to be revenge; a wake up, a message I didn’t know how to tell when I was alive. I hated you enough to do this. I loved […]

Hi I have been here a few times and always come back to see how people are doing and add a rant from time to time.  It reminds me I am not the only one and I feel for every one here.

I constantly study how I can off my self  and what holds me back. To date it has been an ever shrinking group of friends that I felt I  needed or was needed by.

So the truth shall set you free.  The truth will also drive your friends and family away from you. The exodus of my friends is now complete.

The truth is I am […]

well I’m visually impaired and two years ago, I failed my university course in psychology. I just couldn’t cope with the presure and workload. I’ve been continuing to pretend to university to my family all this time, but recently my dad says he neds proof of my studies for the council.  I only have four months left before I leave ‘uni’ but there would come a time when results and graduation would come into play.  I obviously would have difficulty running away because as a partially sighted person there arent many places I could run to and i’m sure police would pin me down. wel […]

This is for us..the ones who smile outside but die on the inside

This is for the ones with no pride, ones with searching eyes but only looking for places to hide.

Hide the tears that fall INSIDE your cheeks where the “Happy” cant see. Faces as long as fallen Redwood trees.

A cry that longs to be free…but is yet imprisoned by you…and me. Cause we dont want to show “the sharks” that we bleed.

Yeah, i know how you feel….Cause youre not the only one who’s downing those pills…and if your not, you cant tell me your thoughts werent there…

And you’ll see when you try to breathe in, there’s no […]

I have been struggling with depression since my teen years. I am now 24 years of age and even though I have been seeing a doctor who has put my on Zoloft 50mgs I feel my pain and sadness closing in on me and crushing me. My family is getting tired of me complaining and no longer listens to me. I am too afraid and embarrassed to talk to my friends and my doctors appts are too few and far between. My doctor is not there when I need him.

I started doing a little better just getting into work and school studies and then […]

We’re driving to some St.Patricks Day festival and my dads playing the radio. He keeps switching it from some song about getting money and banging hot chicks to some screamo song that frankly, I can’t tell you is about because it’s impossible to understand. So in goes my headphones and on goes pandora. That’s when I started thinking about all the other kids who’s iPods or mp3 players have saved them from having to listen to their parents flip through radio stations. It made me wonder what kind of music they listen to and why. Then I started thinking about before mp3s were popular and […]

I know I’ve posted quite a few things on here, and they aren’t exactly like most things that people post up. Some of  you may think that I’m on drugs or something, because I tend to be too positive (if there is such a thing!), it’s just that I know what it’s like battling your personal demons. I started cutting 6 years ago, and some days I just want to end it all.
I know how it feels like to hate everything that you are. Changing yourself completely to make others like you. Changing so much that when you look in the mirror you can’t […]

I’m a 15 year old girl. I have major depression, dysthymia, cyclothymia, and mildly bipolar. My family and i dont get along at all. I dont really have any friends at school, and i suck at school. I have been self harming myself for five years, and it has become an addiction to me. iv been put in a hospital before, and im scared that its going to happen again. iv attempted suicde before, and sometimes it still crosses my mind. i dont feel that if i were to commit suicide, anyone would care. i feel lifeless all the time. i just want to feel […]

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I’m so tired. I’ve moved back in with my grandfather and I absolutely hate it. I’ve been kicked out of every house I’ve lived in because people can’t deal with my depression, which makes me feel even more unwanted and unloved. I’m failing most of my classes and I’m skipping school more than I ever have before. I can’t stand it.

To make a long story short; I was planning on killing myself tomorrow. I’ve realized that I’ll never be anything great and I’m tired of trying to get help when it seems like everything is working against me. I was going to go to a […]

I am married currently but my wife is one of the main reasons im so depressed. I am extremely unhappy with her i just dont want to hurt her im not good at hurting people but i need out of the relationship its the best thing for me. Please help me idk what to do or what to say to her

I feel so alone all the time, even with a house full of people and even then, more so.  I don’t know what to do.  I don’t want to kill myself but I can’t stand being here sometimes.  I have had four beautiful children in which one has passed away years ago and feel that I have dealt with that for the majority of it but still end up feeling like their better off without me at times.  I don’t want them to lead lives where their mother committed suicide, I love them deeply and want the best.  Sometimes though even the alternative of suicide […]