My new boyfriend of 7 months hates it. Understandable.
My ex boyfriend forced me to have sex with him, got me pregnant and never spoke to me again. At 17 years old back then I didn’t think I’d be going through an abortion.
Why can’t my boyfriend let this go? I’m trying so hard to live normally!
I think about them times every day
I don’t need it to be spoken about anymore then it already has been
Its getting so bad I just want to give up, 4 suicide attempts last year, I know where I went wrong! I just feel like I want […]

I don’t wanna cause my family a bunch of pain I just wanna go peacefully

Im a raely stupid person. I like normal but have lots of money disabilities. I really wanna go I think it would probably help my family in the long run. I’m still scared I dontwanna say hell. please give me some help I’m ready to go see my mom and dad

You’re such a loser, they said.
You’ll never amount to anything, they said.
You have no friends, they said.
Please don’t kill me, they said!

I’m back and bitchier than ever! Fuck me over and you’re as good as dead. It feels great to be myself again!

I want to die. I want to kill myself. I hate who I am. But at the same time, I want to live. I want to prove everyone wrong. I love to be me. I want to get out all my feelings, though. I may seem like I have everything, but we all have different breaking points. Please just listen.

I’m in eigth grade. There are these two guys, Matthew and Thomas. I’ve known Thomas since 7th grade, when he moved here. I dated a guy named Eli that winter, but when we broke up, I started liking Thomas. We almost went out, but never actually […]

Track starts on Monday. I love running. When I run I can almost clear my mind of everything and only focus on my breathing. It’s wonderful. Last year I was the fastest on the team. It was awesome. I’m dreading it this year though. The uniform is a tank top and short shorts. I am not allowed to wear anything except that. My arms and legs are covered in cuts and scars. The coaches will probably think I’m crazy and send me to the school counselor or call my parents. Everyone else on the team will reject me and ill become “that emo girl.” I […]

everyone is turning on me. im ALWAYS the one to be let down , everone whispers and talks about me and says things to my face or around me in class . My dad doesnt care and tells me to shake it off, i dont want to go to my mom beasue she is never home . my friends are hanging out with the people that make me cry and i am left alone. i cry everytime i think of my ex bestfriend who dumped me for another friend and also my aunt who died beacause she gave up on herself. and the one person […]

I gave everything to someone who just walked away from me. I would get mad but never abuse him mentally. I gave so much to somebody who always said they would never hurt me, Is there ANY guy out there that would never let a girl go. I dont wanna feel like this anymore. Im 17 and have so much to offer. But the one person that was supposed to be there to run and cry, is the main reason for my pain. And i cant help but to believe that im a beautiful person yet i manage to get everything tooken from me.

Previous to the latter weeks of February I did not completely understand why it was that mentioning suicide and even attempting suicide was such a big deal. I didn’t understand why it would hurt someone when I said “choose me or yourself” or why it worried people when I mentioned suicide when it didn’t hurt me or worry me. In thinking about those circumstances I realized that I don’t value my life as much as others value my life.

How did I come to the conclusion that my life isn’t worth anything?

What I learned in my pre-college years was that all of my feelings are wrong […]

So the only guy i have been able to acutally have a real conversation with just got a girlfriend. Background: i have known this girl for 4 yrs she is a *****. Not because shes hes girlfriend but because she is a evil, hateful,spineless,vain slut. She has had twice many…hmm whats a tastful word…partners?, then i have birthdays, im 17! The guy (lets call him Bernie) is sweet nice smart and ive known him for 3yrs and ive liked him as long as ive known him. About 6 weeks ago we talked for 4 hrs and i was actually thinkimg of telling him about […]

Forever not being able to sleep and having nothing better to do then rant on the internet.
I feel like death because of almost everyone I know and no one has ever bothered to ask me what was wrong.
I’ve been like this for 3 years. It’s not a pleasant feeling, as most of you probably know.
I need to stop putting people before me and concentrate on my own well being for once, but I don’t think that will ever happen.
I am too concentrated on making me more socially acceptable. Even if that means less eating, and changing myself far too much.
I […]

Anyone up who wants talk …cant sleep :/

i smiled or even laughed and was truly really happy

i fried my brain with drugs and alcohol

i’m 20 years old

i’m a burden to my mother

i recently lost my job

i got the helium tank and exit bag ready…just need the guts to finally do it theres no way i can stand to be here any longer

i’m a waste of space

So many talk about friends and girlfriends being the reason for wanting to kill themselves. Not me. I have few friends just people i see every few months. Ive never been on a date or been real with anyone. I just act happy all the time because its expected of me. A few weeks ago my closest (which isnt saying much) friend told me that another was in therapy and proceeded to make fun of him for it. How do you even respond to that? All i want is someone to be close with. Perhaps this is my punishment. For so long I was the […]

I had a dream on Wednesday, well more of a nightmare. I used to have that nightmare ever since I was very young. It was about voices. I never knew what they said, but their tone of voice was angered, even disappointed. They hate me, and I asked them why, but then on Wednesday night, after everyone slept, I laid in bed. I heard a long continuous beep and then the nightmare began.

Only, I hadn’t fallen asleep…

Those voices, which may as well be a replay of my dreams all the events that happened in that dream, every one of those nights replayed in my […]

Have you ever…

Laid on your bed at night and just cried?

Cried because you’re stupid, because you just aren’t good enough.

Cried harder when you’ve counted all your flaws from head to toe, to the point where you’re in so much pain, physical pain feels better.

Cried because the things your friends tell you or call you sarcastically actually hurt sometimes…

Cried because your family is dysfunctional, but you’re just a kid who can’t do shit about it.

Cried as they tell you to stop feeling sorry for yourself when a lot of people have it worse than you.

Cried because you don’t want to be a burden and contribute to […]

I sit here and all I feel is pain
wanting to cut and make my wrists rain
make them rain with blood. I get no love
I sit in my room all alone, me and my pain
pain is all I feel, pain is all I know
Noone will ever know how I feel, or what Im going through
when you smile and laugh, but you know it’s just a show
Im the only one to blame for a meaningless life
so I sit in my room alone, just me and this knife
not wanting to take my life, just leaving a lifetime scar
a […]

I hate being alone all the time.  Especially now.  I’m kind of drunk, so I’m actually kind of in a good mood.  Well, good might be a bit of an overstatement, but it’s like I can pretend to be okay and I just wish there was someone to hang out with me and be silly drunk with.   Bonus points if they’re a cute girl I can make out with.  Haha.

I miss having friends.  Real friends.  Even if one of my (so-called) friends called me right now, it still wouldn’t be the same.  I haven’t seen them a long time. Or even really talked to […]

Dear ALL,

I have a goal, that I think all of you MAY be able to help me with. When I graduate next year, I plan on becoming a psychiatrist. And I know what you’re all thinking, probably. “Oh, I’ve been to plenty psychiatrists. They don’t help me any.” If this is what you’re thinking, I just want you to hear me out. I want to be a psychiatrist not for the money. But because of what I have went through, and what I have been going through. I have been through most of what you all have been through, and I want to be able […]

In my whole life of 21 years, i have been a loser only throughout my life, my mom-dad loves me a lot, and i have never been able to make them happy, i just want to make them happy and give everything to them, they have sacrificed a lot for me, and i am such a loser, i could never give them what they wanted, th only thing they wanted from me to get good marks throughout my schooling and college days, which i never could, i have already wasted huge amount of money, more than $10,000 on coachings and education, now the ultimate thing […]